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The Diary of a Madman
by Guy de
Maupassant
He was dead--the head of a high
tribunal, the upright magistrate whose
irreproachable life was a proverb in all the
courts of France. Advocates, young
counsellors, judges had greeted him at sight
of his large, thin, pale face lighted up
by
two sparkling deep-set eyes, bowing low in token
of respect.
He had passed his life in pursuing
crime and in protecting the weak. Swindlers
and murderers had no more redoubtable enemy,
for he seemed to read the most
secret thoughts
of their minds.
He was dead, now, at the age
of eighty-two, honored by the homage and
followed by the regrets of a whole people.
Soldiers in red trousers had escorted him
to
the tomb and men in white cravats had spoken words
and shed tears that seemed
to be sincere
beside his grave.
But here is the strange
paper found by the dismayed notary in the desk
where
he had kept the records of great
criminals! It was entitled:
WHY?
20th
June, 1851. I have just left court. I have
condemned Blondel to death!
Now, why did this
man kill his five children? Frequently one meets
with people to
whom the destruction of life is
a pleasure. Yes, yes, it should be a pleasure, the
greatest of all, perhaps, for is not killing
the next thing to creating? To make and to
destroy! These two words contain the history
of the universe, all the history of
worlds,
all that is, all! Why is it not intoxicating to
kill?
25th June. To think that a being is
there who lives, who walks, who runs. A
being?
What is a being? That animated thing, that bears
in it the principle of motion
and a will
ruling that motion. It is attached to nothing,
this thing. Its feet do not
belong to the
ground. It is a grain of life that moves on the
earth, and this grain of
life, coming I know
not whence, one can destroy at one's will. Then
nothing--nothing more. It perishes, it is
finished.
26th June. Why then is it a crime to
kill? Yes, why? On the contrary, it is the
law
of nature. The mission of every being is to kill;
he kills to live, and he kills to
kill. The
beast kills without ceasing, all day, every
instant of his existence. Man
kills without
ceasing, to nourish himself; but since he needs,
besides, to kill for
pleasure, he has invented
hunting! The child kills the insects he finds, the
little
birds, all the little animals that come
in his way. But this does not suffice for the
irresistible need to massacre that is in us.
It is not enough to kill beasts; we must
kill
man too. Long ago this need was satisfied by human
sacrifices. Now the
requirements of social
life have made murder a crime. We condemn and
punish the
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assassin! But as
we cannot live without yielding to this natural
and imperious
instinct of death, we relieve
ourselves, from time to time, by wars. Then a
whole
nation slaughters another nation. It is
a feast of blood, a feast that maddens armies
and that intoxicates civilians, women and
children, who read, by lamplight at night,
the
feverish story of massacre.
One might suppose
that those destined to accomplish these butcheries
of men
would be despised! No, they are loaded
with honors. They are clad in gold and in
resplendent garments; they wear plumes on
their heads and ornaments on their
breasts,
and they are given crosses, rewards, titles of
every kind. They are proud,
respected, loved
by women, cheered by the crowd, solely because
their mission is
to shed human blood; They
drag through the streets their instruments of
death, that
the passer-by, clad in black,
looks on with envy. For to kill is the great law
set by
nature in the heart of existence! There
is nothing more beautiful and honorable than
killing!
30th June. To kill is the law,
because nature loves eternal youth. She seems to
cry in all her unconscious acts:
more she
renews herself.
2d July. A human being--what
is a human being? Through thought it is a
reflection of all that is; through memory and
science it is an abridged edition of the
universe whose history it represents, a mirror
of things and of nations, each human
being
becomes a microcosm in the macrocosm.
3d July.
It must be a pleasure, unique and full of zest, to
kill; to have there
before one the living,
thinking being; to make therein a little hole,
nothing but a
little hole, to see that red
thing flow which is the blood, which makes life;
and to
have before one only a heap of limp
flesh, cold, inert, void of thought!
5th
August. I, who have passed my life in judging,
condemning, killing by the
spoken word,
killing by the guillotine those who had killed by
the knife, I, I, if I
should do as all the
assassins have done whom I have smitten, I--I--who
would
know it?
10th August. Who would ever
know? Who would ever suspect me, me, me,
especially if I should choose a being I had no
interest in doing away with?
15th August. The
temptation has come to me. It pervades my whole
being; my
hands tremble with the desire to
kill.
22d August. I could resist no longer. I
killed a little creature as an experiment,
for
a beginning. Jean, my servant, had a goldfinch in
a cage hung in the office
window. I sent him
on an errand, and I took the little bird in my
hand, in my hand
where I felt its heart beat.
It was warm. I went up to my room. From time to
time I
squeezed it tighter; its heart beat
faster; this was atrocious and delicious. I was
near
choking it. But I could not see the
blood.
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Then I took scissors,
short-nail scissors, and I cut its throat with
three slits,
quite gently. It opened its bill,
it struggled to escape me, but I held it, oh! I
held it--I
could have held a mad dog--and I
saw the blood trickle.
And then I did as
assassins do--real ones. I washed the scissors, I
washed my
hands. I sprinkled water and took
the body, the corpse, to the garden to hide it. I
buried it under a strawberry-plant. It will
never be found. Every day I shall eat a
strawberry from that plant. How one can enjoy
life when one knows how!
My servant cried; he
thought his bird flown. How could he suspect me?
Ah!
ah!
25th August. I must kill a man! I
must----
30th August. It is done. But what a
little thing! I had gone for a walk in the
forest of Vernes. I was thinking of nothing,
literally nothing. A child was in the road,
a
little child eating a slice of bread and butter.
He stops to see me pass and says,
And the
thought enters my head,
I answer:
The wish to kill him intoxicated
me like wine. I approached him quite softly,
persuaded that he was going to run away. And,
suddenly, I seized him by the throat.
He
looked at me with terror in his eyes--such eyes!
He held my wrists in his little
hands and his
body writhed like a feather over the fire. Then he
moved no more. I
threw the body in the ditch,
and some weeds on top of it. I returned home, and
dined well. What a little thing it was! In the
evening I was very gay, light,
rejuvenated; I
passed the evening at the Prefect's. They found me
witty. But I have
not seen blood! I am
tranquil.
31st August. The body has been
discovered. They are hunting for the assassin.
Ah! ah!
1st September. Two tramps have
been arrested. Proofs are lacking.
2d
September. The parents have been to see me. They
wept! Ah! ah!
6th October. Nothing has been
discovered. Some strolling vagabond must
have
done the deed. Ah! ah! If I had seen the blood
flow, it seems to me I should be
tranquil now!
The desire to kill is in my blood; it is like the
passion of youth at
twenty.
20th October.
Yet another. I was walking by the river, after
breakfast. And I
saw, under a willow, a
fisherman asleep. It was noon. A spade was
standing in a
potato-field near by, as if
expressly, for me.
I took it. I returned; I
raised it like a club, and with one blow of the
edge I cleft
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the fisherman's
head. Oh! he bled, this one! Rose-colored blood.
It flowed into the
water, quite gently. And I
went away with a grave step. If I had been seen!
Ah! ah! I
should have made an excellent
assassin.
25th October. The affair of the
fisherman makes a great stir. His nephew, who
fished with him, is charged with the murder.
26th October. The examining magistrate affirms
that the nephew is guilty.
Everybody in town
believes it. Ah! ah!
27th October. The nephew
makes a very poor witness. He had gone to the
village to buy bread and cheese, he declared.
He swore that his uncle had been
killed in his
absence! Who would believe him?
28th October.
The nephew has all but confessed, they have
badgered him so.
Ah! ah! justice!
15th
November. There are overwhelming proofs against
the nephew, who was
his uncle's heir. I shall
preside at the sessions.
25th January. To
death! to death! to death! I have had him
condemned to
death! Ah! ah! The advocate-
general spoke like an angel! Ah! ah! Yet another!
I
shall go to see him executed!
10th
March. It is done. They guillotined him this
morning. He died very well!
very well! That
gave me pleasure! How fine it is to see a man's
head cut off
Now, I shall wait, I can wait. It
would take such a little thing to let myself be
caught.
The manuscript contained yet other
pages, but without relating any new crime.
Alienist physicians to whom the awful story
has been submitted declare that
there are in
the world many undiscovered madmen as adroit and
as much to be
feared as this monstrous
lunatic.
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The Diary of a
Madman
by Guy de Maupassant
He was dead--
the head of a high tribunal, the upright
magistrate whose
irreproachable life was a
proverb in all the courts of France. Advocates,
young
counsellors, judges had greeted him at
sight of his large, thin, pale face lighted up
by two sparkling deep-set eyes, bowing low in
token of respect.
He had passed his life in
pursuing crime and in protecting the weak.
Swindlers
and murderers had no more
redoubtable enemy, for he seemed to read the most
secret thoughts of their minds.
He was
dead, now, at the age of eighty-two, honored by
the homage and
followed by the regrets of a
whole people. Soldiers in red trousers had
escorted him
to the tomb and men in white
cravats had spoken words and shed tears that
seemed
to be sincere beside his grave.
But
here is the strange paper found by the dismayed
notary in the desk where
he had kept the
records of great criminals! It was entitled:
WHY?
20th June, 1851. I have just left
court. I have condemned Blondel to death!
Now,
why did this man kill his five children?
Frequently one meets with people to
whom the
destruction of life is a pleasure. Yes, yes, it
should be a pleasure, the
greatest of all,
perhaps, for is not killing the next thing to
creating? To make and to
destroy! These two
words contain the history of the universe, all the
history of
worlds, all that is, all! Why is it
not intoxicating to kill?
25th June. To think
that a being is there who lives, who walks, who
runs. A
being? What is a being? That animated
thing, that bears in it the principle of motion
and a will ruling that motion. It is attached
to nothing, this thing. Its feet do not
belong
to the ground. It is a grain of life that moves on
the earth, and this grain of
life, coming I
know not whence, one can destroy at one's will.
Then
nothing--nothing more. It perishes, it is
finished.
26th June. Why then is it a crime to
kill? Yes, why? On the contrary, it is the
law
of nature. The mission of every being is to kill;
he kills to live, and he kills to
kill. The
beast kills without ceasing, all day, every
instant of his existence. Man
kills without
ceasing, to nourish himself; but since he needs,
besides, to kill for
pleasure, he has invented
hunting! The child kills the insects he finds, the
little
birds, all the little animals that come
in his way. But this does not suffice for the
irresistible need to massacre that is in us.
It is not enough to kill beasts; we must
kill
man too. Long ago this need was satisfied by human
sacrifices. Now the
requirements of social
life have made murder a crime. We condemn and
punish the
1
assassin! But as
we cannot live without yielding to this natural
and imperious
instinct of death, we relieve
ourselves, from time to time, by wars. Then a
whole
nation slaughters another nation. It is
a feast of blood, a feast that maddens armies
and that intoxicates civilians, women and
children, who read, by lamplight at night,
the
feverish story of massacre.
One might suppose
that those destined to accomplish these butcheries
of men
would be despised! No, they are loaded
with honors. They are clad in gold and in
resplendent garments; they wear plumes on
their heads and ornaments on their
breasts,
and they are given crosses, rewards, titles of
every kind. They are proud,
respected, loved
by women, cheered by the crowd, solely because
their mission is
to shed human blood; They
drag through the streets their instruments of
death, that
the passer-by, clad in black,
looks on with envy. For to kill is the great law
set by
nature in the heart of existence! There
is nothing more beautiful and honorable than
killing!
30th June. To kill is the law,
because nature loves eternal youth. She seems to
cry in all her unconscious acts:
more she
renews herself.
2d July. A human being--what
is a human being? Through thought it is a
reflection of all that is; through memory and
science it is an abridged edition of the
universe whose history it represents, a mirror
of things and of nations, each human
being
becomes a microcosm in the macrocosm.
3d July.
It must be a pleasure, unique and full of zest, to
kill; to have there
before one the living,
thinking being; to make therein a little hole,
nothing but a
little hole, to see that red
thing flow which is the blood, which makes life;
and to
have before one only a heap of limp
flesh, cold, inert, void of thought!
5th
August. I, who have passed my life in judging,
condemning, killing by the
spoken word,
killing by the guillotine those who had killed by
the knife, I, I, if I
should do as all the
assassins have done whom I have smitten, I--I--who
would
know it?
10th August. Who would ever
know? Who would ever suspect me, me, me,
especially if I should choose a being I had no
interest in doing away with?
15th August. The
temptation has come to me. It pervades my whole
being; my
hands tremble with the desire to
kill.
22d August. I could resist no longer. I
killed a little creature as an experiment,
for
a beginning. Jean, my servant, had a goldfinch in
a cage hung in the office
window. I sent him
on an errand, and I took the little bird in my
hand, in my hand
where I felt its heart beat.
It was warm. I went up to my room. From time to
time I
squeezed it tighter; its heart beat
faster; this was atrocious and delicious. I was
near
choking it. But I could not see the
blood.
2
Then I took scissors,
short-nail scissors, and I cut its throat with
three slits,
quite gently. It opened its bill,
it struggled to escape me, but I held it, oh! I
held it--I
could have held a mad dog--and I
saw the blood trickle.
And then I did as
assassins do--real ones. I washed the scissors, I
washed my
hands. I sprinkled water and took
the body, the corpse, to the garden to hide it. I
buried it under a strawberry-plant. It will
never be found. Every day I shall eat a
strawberry from that plant. How one can enjoy
life when one knows how!
My servant cried; he
thought his bird flown. How could he suspect me?
Ah!
ah!
25th August. I must kill a man! I
must----
30th August. It is done. But what a
little thing! I had gone for a walk in the
forest of Vernes. I was thinking of nothing,
literally nothing. A child was in the road,
a
little child eating a slice of bread and butter.
He stops to see me pass and says,
And the
thought enters my head,
I answer:
The wish to kill him intoxicated
me like wine. I approached him quite softly,
persuaded that he was going to run away. And,
suddenly, I seized him by the throat.
He
looked at me with terror in his eyes--such eyes!
He held my wrists in his little
hands and his
body writhed like a feather over the fire. Then he
moved no more. I
threw the body in the ditch,
and some weeds on top of it. I returned home, and
dined well. What a little thing it was! In the
evening I was very gay, light,
rejuvenated; I
passed the evening at the Prefect's. They found me
witty. But I have
not seen blood! I am
tranquil.
31st August. The body has been
discovered. They are hunting for the assassin.
Ah! ah!
1st September. Two tramps have
been arrested. Proofs are lacking.
2d
September. The parents have been to see me. They
wept! Ah! ah!
6th October. Nothing has been
discovered. Some strolling vagabond must
have
done the deed. Ah! ah! If I had seen the blood
flow, it seems to me I should be
tranquil now!
The desire to kill is in my blood; it is like the
passion of youth at
twenty.
20th October.
Yet another. I was walking by the river, after
breakfast. And I
saw, under a willow, a
fisherman asleep. It was noon. A spade was
standing in a
potato-field near by, as if
expressly, for me.
I took it. I returned; I
raised it like a club, and with one blow of the
edge I cleft
3
the fisherman's
head. Oh! he bled, this one! Rose-colored blood.
It flowed into the
water, quite gently. And I
went away with a grave step. If I had been seen!
Ah! ah! I
should have made an excellent
assassin.
25th October. The affair of the
fisherman makes a great stir. His nephew, who
fished with him, is charged with the murder.
26th October. The examining magistrate affirms
that the nephew is guilty.
Everybody in town
believes it. Ah! ah!
27th October. The nephew
makes a very poor witness. He had gone to the
village to buy bread and cheese, he declared.
He swore that his uncle had been
killed in his
absence! Who would believe him?
28th October.
The nephew has all but confessed, they have
badgered him so.
Ah! ah! justice!
15th
November. There are overwhelming proofs against
the nephew, who was
his uncle's heir. I shall
preside at the sessions.
25th January. To
death! to death! to death! I have had him
condemned to
death! Ah! ah! The advocate-
general spoke like an angel! Ah! ah! Yet another!
I
shall go to see him executed!
10th
March. It is done. They guillotined him this
morning. He died very well!
very well! That
gave me pleasure! How fine it is to see a man's
head cut off
Now, I shall wait, I can wait. It
would take such a little thing to let myself be
caught.
The manuscript contained yet other
pages, but without relating any new crime.
Alienist physicians to whom the awful story
has been submitted declare that
there are in
the world many undiscovered madmen as adroit and
as much to be
feared as this monstrous
lunatic.
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