09 Walt Whitman Song of Myself
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Song of Myself
1
I CELEBRATE
myself, and sing myself,
And what I assume
you shall assume,
For every atom belonging to
me as good belongs to you.
I loafe and invite
my soul,
I lean and loafe at my ease
observing a spear of summer grass.
My tongue,
every atom of my blood, form'd from this soil,
this air,
Born here of parents born here from
parents the same, and their
parents the same,
I, now thirty-seven years old in perfect
health begin,
Hoping to cease not till death.
Creeds and schools in abeyance,
Retiring
back a while sufficed at what they are, but never
forgotten,
I harbor for good or bad, I permit
to speak at every hazard,
Nature without
check with original energy.
2
Houses and
rooms are full of perfumes, the shelves are
crowded with
perfumes,
I breathe the
fragrance myself and know it and like it,
The
distillation would intoxicate me also, but I shall
not let it.
The atmosphere is not a perfume,
it has no taste of the
distillation, it is
odorless,
It is for my mouth forever, I am in
love with it,
I will go to the bank by the
wood and become undisguised and naked,
I am
mad for it to be in contact with me.
The
smoke of my own breath,
Echoes, ripples,
buzz'd whispers, love-root, silk-thread, crotch
and
vine,
My respiration and
inspiration, the beating of my heart, the passing
of blood and air through my lungs,
The
sniff of green leaves and dry leaves, and of the
shore and
dark-color'd sea-rocks, and of hay
in the barn,
The sound of the belch'd words
of my voice loos'd to the eddies of
the wind,
A few light kisses, a few embraces, a reaching
around of arms,
The play of shine and
shade on the trees as the supple boughs wag,
The delight alone or in the rush of the
streets, or along the fields
and hill-sides,
The feeling of health, the full-noon trill,
the song of me rising
from bed and meeting
the sun.
Have you reckon'd a thousand acres
much? have you reckon'd the
earth much?
Have you practis'd so long to learn to read?
Have you felt so proud to get at the meaning
of poems?
Stop this day and night with me and
you shall possess the origin of
all poems,
You shall possess the good of the earth and
sun, (there are millions
of suns left,)
You shall no longer take things at second or
third hand, nor look
through the eyes of the
dead, nor feed on the spectres in
books,
You shall not look through my eyes either, nor
take things from me,
You shall listen to all
sides and filter them from your self.
3
I have heard what the talkers were talking,
the talk of the
beginning and the end,
But I do not talk of the beginning or the end.
There was never any more inception than there
is now,
Nor any more youth or age than there
is now,
And will never be any more perfection
than there is now,
Nor any more heaven or
hell than there is now.
Urge and urge and
urge,
Always the procreant urge of the world.
Out of the dimness opposite equals advance,
always substance and
increase, always sex,
Always a knit of identity, always distinction,
always a breed of
life.
To elaborate is
no avail, learn'd and unlearn'd feel that it is
so.
Sure as the most certain sure, plumb in
the uprights, well
entretied, braced in the
beams,
Stout as a horse, affectionate,
haughty, electrical,
I and this mystery here
we stand.
Clear and sweet is my soul,
and clear and sweet is all that is not
my
soul.
Lack one lacks both, and the unseen is
proved by the seen,
Till that becomes unseen
and receives proof in its turn.
Showing the
best and dividing it from the worst age vexes age,
Knowing the perfect fitness and equanimity of
things, while they
discuss I am silent, and
go bathe and admire myself.
Welcome is every
organ and attribute of me, and of any man hearty
and clean,
Not an inch nor a particle of
an inch is vile, and none shall be
less
familiar than the rest.
I am satisfied - I
see, dance, laugh, sing;
As the hugging and
loving bed-fellow sleeps at my side through the
night, and withdraws at the peep of the day
with stealthy
tread,
Leaving me baskets
cover'd with white towels swelling the house with
their plenty,
Shall I postpone my
acceptation and realization and scream at my
eyes,
That they turn from gazing after
and down the road,
And forthwith cipher and
show me to a cent,
Exactly the value of one
and exactly the value of two, and which is
ahead?
4
Trippers and askers
surround me,
People I meet, the effect upon
me of my early life or the ward and
city I
live in, or the nation,
The latest dates,
discoveries, inventions, societies, authors old
and new,
My dinner, dress, associates,
looks, compliments, dues,
The real or fancied
indifference of some man or woman I love,
The
sickness of one of my folks or of myself, or ill-
doing or loss
or lack of money, or
depressions or exaltations,
Battles, the
horrors of fratricidal war, the fever of doubtful
news,
the fitful events;
These come to
me days and nights and go from me again,
But
they are not the Me myself.
Apart from the
pulling and hauling stands what I am,
Stands
amused, complacent, compassionating, idle,
unitary,
Looks down, is erect, or
bends an arm on an impalpable certain rest,
Looking with side-curved head curious what
will come next,
Both in and out of the game
and watching and wondering at it.
Backward I
see in my own days where I sweated through fog
with
linguists and contenders,
I have no
mockings or arguments, I witness and wait.
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I believe in you my soul, the other I am must
not abase itself to
you,
And you must
not be abased to the other.
Loafe with me on
the grass, loose the stop from your throat,
Not words, not music or rhyme I want, not
custom or lecture, not
even the best,
Only the lull I like, the hum of your valved
voice.
I mind how once we lay such a
transparent summer morning,
How you settled
your head athwart my hips and gently turn'd over
upon me,
And parted the shirt from my
bosom-bone, and plunged your tongue
to my
bare-stript heart,
And reach'd till you felt
my beard, and reach'd till you held my
feet.
Swiftly arose and spread around me the peace
and knowledge that pass
all the argument of
the earth,
And I know that the hand of God is
the promise of my own,
And I know that the
spirit of God is the brother of my own,
And
that all the men ever born are also my brothers,
and the women
my sisters and lovers,
And
that a kelson of the creation is love,
And
limitless are leaves stiff or drooping in the
fields,
And brown ants in the little wells
beneath them,
And mossy scabs of the worm
fence, heap'd stones, elder, mullein and
poke-weed.
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A child said What is
the grass? fetching it to me with full hands;
How could I answer the child? I do not know
what it is any more
than he.
I guess it
must be the flag of my disposition, out of hopeful
green
stuff woven.
Or I guess it
is the handkerchief of the Lord,
A scented
gift and remembrancer designedly dropt,
Bearing the owner's name someway in the
corners, that we may see
and remark, and say
Whose?
Or I guess the grass is itself a
child, the produced babe of the
vegetation.
Or I guess it is a uniform hieroglyphic,
And it means, Sprouting alike in broad zones
and narrow zones,
Growing among black folks
as among white,
Kanuck, Tuckahoe,
Congressman, Cuff, I give them the same, I
receive them the same.
And now it seems
to me the beautiful uncut hair of graves.
Tenderly will I use you curling grass,
It
may be you transpire from the breasts of young
men,
It may be if I had known them I would
have loved them,
It may be you are from old
people, or from offspring taken soon out
of
their mothers' laps,
And here you are the
mothers' laps.
This grass is very dark to be
from the white heads of old mothers,
Darker
than the colorless beards of old men,
Dark to
come from under the faint red roofs of mouths.
O I perceive after all so many uttering
tongues,
And I perceive they do not come from
the roofs of mouths for
nothing.
I wish
I could translate the hints about the dead young
men and
women,
And the hints about old
men and mothers, and the offspring taken
soon
out of their laps.
What do you think has
become of the young and old men?
And what do
you think has become of the women and children?
They are alive and well somewhere,
The
smallest sprout shows there is really no death,
And if ever there was it led forward life, and
does not wait at the
end to arrest it,
And ceas'd the moment life appear'd.
All goes onward and outward, nothing
collapses,
And to die is different from what
any one supposed, and luckier.
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Has any
one supposed it lucky to be born?
I hasten to
inform him or her it is just as lucky to die, and
I know
it.
I pass death with the dying
and birth with the new-wash'd babe, and
am
not contain'd between my hat and boots,
And
peruse manifold objects, no two alike and every
one good,
The earth good and the stars good,
and their adjuncts all good.
I am not an
earth nor an adjunct of an earth,
I am the
mate and companion of people, all just as immortal
and
fathomless as myself,
(They do not
know how immortal, but I know.)
Every kind
for itself and its own, for me mine male and
female,
For me those that have been boys and
that love women,
For me the man that is proud
and feels how it stings to be slighted,
For
me the sweet-heart and the old maid, for me
mothers and the
mothers of mothers,
For
me lips that have smiled, eyes that have shed
tears,
For me children and the begetters of
children.
Undrape! you are not guilty to me,
nor stale nor discarded,
I see through the
broadcloth and gingham whether or no,
And am
around, tenacious, acquisitive, tireless, and
cannot be
shaken away.
8
The little
one sleeps in its cradle,
I lift the gauze
and look a long time, and silently brush away
flies
with my hand.
The youngster and
the red-faced girl turn aside up the bushy hill,
I peeringly view them from the top.
The
suicide sprawls on the bloody floor of the
bedroom,
I witness the corpse with its
dabbled hair, I note where the pistol
has
fallen.
The blab of the pave, tires of carts,
sluff of boot-soles, talk of
the promenaders,
The heavy omnibus, the driver with his
interrogating thumb, the
clank of the shod
horses on the granite floor,
The snow-
sleighs, clinking, shouted jokes, pelts of snow-
balls,
The hurrahs for popular favorites, the
fury of rous'd mobs,
The flap of the
curtain'd litter, a sick man inside borne to the
hospital,
The meeting of enemies, the
sudden oath, the blows and fall,
The excited
crowd, the policeman with his star quickly working
his
passage to the centre of the crowd,
The impassive stones that receive and return
so many echoes,
What groans of over-fed or
half-starv'd who fall sunstruck or in
fits,
What exclamations of women taken suddenly who
hurry home and
give birth to babes,
What
living and buried speech is always vibrating here,
what howls
restrain'd by decorum,
Arrests of criminals, slights, adulterous
offers made, acceptances,
rejections with
convex lips,
I mind them or the show or
resonance of them-I come and I depart.
9
The big doors of the country barn stand open
and ready,
The dried grass of the harvest-
time loads the slow-drawn wagon,
The clear
light plays on the brown gray and green
intertinged,
The armfuls are pack'd to the
sagging mow.
I am there, I help, I came
stretch'd atop of the load,
I felt its soft
jolts, one leg reclined on the other,
I jump
from the cross-beams and seize the clover and
timothy,
And roll head over heels and tangle
my hair full of wisps.
10
Alone far in
the wilds and mountains I hunt,
Wandering
amazed at my own lightness and glee,
In the
late afternoon choosing a safe spot to pass the
night,
Kindling a fire and broiling the
fresh-kill'd game,
Falling asleep on the
gather'd leaves with my dog and gun by my
side.
The Yankee clipper is under her
sky-sails, she cuts the sparkle
and scud,
My eyes settle the land, I bend at her prow or
shout joyously from
the deck.
The
boatmen and clam-diggers arose early and stopt for
me,
I tuck'd my trowser-ends in my boots and
went and had a good time;
You should have
been with us that day round the chowder-kettle.
I saw the marriage of the trapper in the open
air in the far west,
the bride was a red
girl,
Her father and his friends sat near
cross-legged and dumbly smoking,
they had
moccasins to their feet and large thick blankets
hanging from their shoulders,
On a bank
lounged the trapper, he was drest mostly in skins,
his
luxuriant beard and curls protected his
neck, he held his bride
by the hand,
She
had long eyelashes, her head was bare, her coarse
straight locks
descended upon her voluptuous
limbs and reach'd to her
feet.
The
runaway slave came to my house and stopt outside,
I heard his motions crackling the twigs of the
woodpile,
Through the swung half-door of the
kitchen I saw him limpsy and
weak,
And
went where he sat on a log and led him in and
assured him,
And brought water and fill'd a
tub for his sweated body and bruis'd
feet,
And gave him a room that enter'd from my own,
and gave him some
coarse clean clothes,
And remember perfectly well his revolving eyes
and his awkwardness,
And remember putting
piasters on the galls of his neck and ankles;
He staid with me a week before he was
recuperated and pass'd north,
I had him sit
next me at table, my fire-lock lean'd in the
corner.
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Twenty-eight young men bathe
by the shore,
Twenty-eight young men and all
so friendly;
Twenty-eight years of womanly
life and all so lonesome.
She owns the fine
house by the rise of the bank,
She hides
handsome and richly drest aft the blinds of the
window.
Which of the young men does she like
the best?
Ah the homeliest of them is
beautiful to her.
Where are you off to, lady?
for I see you,
You splash in the water there,
yet stay stock still in your room.
Dancing and laughing along the beach
came the twenty-ninth
bather,
The rest
did not see her, but she saw them and loved them.
The beards of the young men glisten'd with
wet, it ran from their
long hair,
Little
streams pass'd all over their bodies.
An
unseen hand also pass'd over their bodies,
It
descended tremblingly from their temples and ribs.
The young men float on their backs, their
white bellies bulge to the
sun, they do not
ask who seizes fast to them,
They do not know
who puffs and declines with pendant and bending
arch,
They do not think whom they souse
with spray.
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The butcher-boy puts off
his killing-clothes, or sharpens his knife
at
the stall in the market,
I loiter enjoying
his repartee and his shuffle and break-down.
Blacksmiths with grimed and hairy chests
environ the anvil,
Each has his main-sledge,
they are all out, there is a great heat in
the fire.
From the cinder-strew'd
threshold I follow their movements,
The lithe
sheer of their waists plays even with their
massive arms,
Overhand the hammers swing,
overhand so slow, overhand so sure,
They do
not hasten, each man hits in his place.
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The negro holds firmly the reins of his four
horses, the block swags
underneath on its
tied-over chain,
The negro that drives the
long dray of the stone-yard, steady and
tall
he stands pois'd on one leg on the string-piece,
His blue shirt exposes his ample neck and
breast and loosens over
his hip-band,
His glance is calm and commanding, he tosses
the slouch of his hat
away from his forehead,
The sun falls on his crispy hair and mustache,
falls on the black of
his polish'd and
perfect limbs.
I behold the
picturesque giant and love him, and I do not stop
there,
I go with the team also.
In
me the caresser of life wherever moving, backward
as well as
forward sluing,
To niches
aside and junior bending, not a person or object
missing,
Absorbing all to myself and for this
song.
Oxen that rattle the yoke and chain or
halt in the leafy shade, what
is that you
express in your eyes?
It seems to me more
than all the print I have read in my life.
My
tread scares the wood-drake and wood-duck on my
distant and
day-long ramble,
They rise
together, they slowly circle around.
I
believe in those wing'd purposes,
And
acknowledge red, yellow, white, playing within me,
And consider green and violet and the tufted
crown intentional,
And do not call the
tortoise unworthy because she is not something
else,
And the in the woods never studied
the gamut, yet trills pretty well
to me,
And the look of the bay mare shames silliness
out of me.
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The wild gander leads his
flock through the cool night,
Ya-honk he
says, and sounds it down to me like an invitation,
The pert may suppose it meaningless, but I
listening close,
Find its purpose and place
up there toward the wintry sky.
The sharp-
hoof'd moose of the north, the cat on the house-
sill, the
chickadee, the prairie-dog,
The litter of the grunting sow as they tug at
her teats,
The brood of the turkey-hen and
she with her half-spread wings,
I see in them
and myself the same old law.
The press of my
foot to the earth springs a hundred affections,
They scorn the best I can do to relate them.
I am enamour'd of growing out-doors,
Of
men that live among cattle or taste of the ocean
or woods,
Of the builders and steerers of
ships and the wielders of axes and
mauls, and the drivers of horses,
I can eat and sleep with them week in and week
out.
What is commonest, cheapest, nearest,
easiest, is Me,
Me going in for my chances,
spending for vast returns,
Adorning myself to
bestow myself on the first that will take me,
Not asking the sky to come down to my good
will,
Scattering it freely forever.
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The pure contralto sings in the organ loft,
The carpenter dresses his plank, the tongue of
his foreplane
whistles its wild ascending
lisp,
The married and unmarried children ride
home to their Thanksgiving
dinner,
The
pilot seizes the king-pin, he heaves down with a
strong arm,
The mate stands braced in the
whale-boat, lance and harpoon are
ready,
The duck-shooter walks by silent and cautious
stretches,
The deacons are ordain'd with
cross'd hands at the altar,
The spinning-girl
retreats and advances to the hum of the big wheel,
The farmer stops by the bars as he walks on a
First-day loafe and
looks at the oats and
rye,
The lunatic is carried at last to the
asylum a confirm'd case,
(He will never sleep
any more as he did in the cot in his mother's
bed-room;)
The jour printer with gray
head and gaunt jaws works at his case,
He
turns his quid of tobacco while his eyes blurr
with the
manuscript;
The malform'd limbs
are tied to the surgeon's table,
What is
removed drops horribly in a pail;
The
quadroon girl is sold at the auction-stand, the
drunkard nods by
the bar-room stove,
The
machinist rolls up his sleeves, the policeman
travels his beat,
the gate-keeper marks who
pass,
The young fellow drives the express-
wagon, (I love him, though I do
not know
him;)
The half-breed straps on his light
boots to compete in the race,
The western
turkey-shooting draws old and young, some lean on
their
rifles, some sit on logs,
Out from
the crowd steps the marksman, takes his position,
levels
his piece;
The groups of newly-
come immigrants cover the wharf or levee,
As
the woolly-pates hoe in the sugar-field, the
overseer views them
from his saddle,
The bugle calls in the ball-room, the
gentlemen run for their
partners, the dancers
bow to each other,
The youth lies awake in
the cedar-roof'd garret and harks to the
musical rain,
The Wolverine sets traps on
the creek that helps fill the Huron,
The
squaw wrapt in her yellow-hemm'd cloth is offering
moccasins and
bead-bags for sale,
The
connoisseur peers along the exhibition-gallery
with half-shut
eyes bent sideways,
As
the deck-hands make fast the steamboat the plank
is thrown for
the shore-going passengers,
The young sister holds out the skein while the
elder sister winds it
off in a ball, and
stops now and then for the knots,
The one-
year wife is recovering and happy having a week
ago borne
her first child,
The clean-
hair'd Yankee girl works with her sewing-machine
or in the
factory or mill,
The paving-
man leans on his two-handed rammer, the reporter's
lead
flies swiftly over the note-book, the
sign-painter is lettering
with blue and gold,
The canal boy trots on the tow-path, the book-
keeper counts at his
desk, the shoemaker
waxes his thread,
The conductor beats time
for the band and all the performers follow
him,
The child is baptized, the convert
is making his first professions,
The regatta
is spread on the bay, the race is begun, (how the
white
sails sparkle!)
The drover
watching his drove sings out to them that would
stray,
The pedler sweats with his pack on his
back, (the purchaser higgling
about the odd
cent;)
The bride unrumples her white dress,
the minute-hand of the clock
moves slowly,
The opium-eater reclines with rigid head and
just-open'd lips,
The prostitute draggles her
shawl, her bonnet bobs on her tipsy and
pimpled neck,
The crowd laugh at her
blackguard oaths, the men jeer and wink to
each other,
(Miserable! I do not laugh at
your oaths nor jeer you;)
The President
holding a cabinet council is surrounded by the
great
Secretaries,
On the piazza walk
three matrons stately and friendly with twined
arms,
The crew of the fish-smack pack
repeated layers of halibut in the
hold,
The Missourian crosses the plains
toting his wares and his cattle,
As the fare-
collector goes through the train he gives notice
by the
jingling of loose change,
The
floor-men are laying the floor, the tinners are
tinning the
roof, the masons are calling for
mortar,
In single file each shouldering his
hod pass onward the laborers;
Seasons
pursuing each other the indescribable crowd is
gather'd, it
is the fourth of Seventh-month,
(what salutes of cannon and
small arms!)
Seasons pursuing each other the plougher
ploughs, the mower mows,
and the winter-grain
falls in the ground;
Off on the lakes the
pike-fisher watches and waits by the hole in
the frozen surface,
The stumps stand
thick round the clearing, the squatter strikes
deep
with his axe,
Flatboatmen make fast
towards dusk near the cotton-wood or
pecan-
trees,
Coon-seekers go through the regions of
the Red river or through
those drain'd by the
Tennessee, or through those of the Arkansas,
Torches shine in the dark that hangs on the
Chattahooche or
Altamahaw,
Patriarchs
sit at supper with sons and grandsons and great-
grandsons
around them,
In walls of
adobie, in canvas tents, rest hunters and trappers
after
their day's sport,
The city sleeps
and the country sleeps,
The living sleep for
their time, the dead sleep for their time,
The old husband sleeps by his wife and the
young husband sleeps by
his wife;
And
these tend inward to me, and I tend outward to
them,
And such as it is to be of these more
or less I am,
And of these one and all I
weave the song of myself.
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I am of old
and young, of the foolish as much as the wise,
Regardless of others, ever regardful of
others,
Maternal as well as paternal, a child
as well as a man,
Stuff'd with the stuff that
is coarse and stuff'd with the stuff
that is
fine,
One of the Nation of many nations, the
smallest the same and the
largest the same,
A Southerner soon as a Northerner, a planter
nonchalant and
hospitable down by the Oconee
I live,
A Yankee bound my own way ready for
trade, my joints the limberest
joints
on earth and the sternest joints on earth,
A
Kentuckian walking the vale of the Elkhorn in my
deer-skin
leggings, a Louisianian or
Georgian,
A boatman over lakes or bays or
along coasts, a Hoosier, Badger,
Buckeye;
At home on Kanadian snow-shoes or up in the
bush, or with fishermen
off Newfoundland,
At home in the fleet of ice-boats, sailing
with the rest and
tacking,
At home on
the hills of Vermont or in the woods of Maine, or
the
Texan ranch,
Comrade of
Californians, comrade of free North-Westerners,
(loving
their big proportions,)
Comrade
of raftsmen and coalmen, comrade of all who shake
hands
and welcome to drink and meat,
A
learner with the simplest, a teacher of the
thoughtfullest,
A novice beginning yet
experient of myriads of seasons,
Of every hue
and caste am I, of every rank and religion,
A
farmer, mechanic, artist, gentleman, sailor,
quaker,
Prisoner, fancy-man, rowdy, lawyer,
physician, priest.
I resist any thing better
than my own diversity,
Breathe the air but
leave plenty after me,
And am not stuck up,
and am in my place.
(The moth and the fish-
eggs are in their place,
The bright suns I
see and the dark suns I cannot see are in their
place,
The palpable is in its place and
the impalpable is in its place.)
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These are really the thoughts of all men in
all ages and lands, they
are not original
with me,
If they are not yours as much as
mine they are nothing, or next to
nothing,
If they are not the riddle and the untying of
the riddle they are
nothing,
If they are
not just as close as they are distant they are
nothing.
This is the grass that grows
wherever the land is and the water is,
This
the common air that bathes the globe.
18
With music strong I come, with my cornets and
my drums,
I play not marches for
accepted victors only, I play marches for
conquer'd and slain persons.
Have you
heard that it was good to gain the day?
I
also say it is good to fall, battles are lost in
the same spirit
in which they are won.
I
beat and pound for the dead,
I blow through
my embouchures my loudest and gayest for them.
Vivas to those who have fail'd!
And to
those whose war-vessels sank in the sea!
And
to those themselves who sank in the sea!
And
to all generals that lost engagements, and all
overcome heroes!
And the numberless unknown
heroes equal to the greatest heroes
known!
19
This is the meal equally set, this the
meat for natural hunger,
It is for the wicked
just same as the righteous, I make appointments
with all,
I will not have a single person
slighted or left away,
The kept-woman,
sponger, thief, are hereby invited,
The
heavy-lipp'd slave is invited, the venerealee is
invited;
There shall be no difference between
them and the rest.
This is the press of a
bashful hand, this the float and odor of
hair,
This the touch of my lips to yours,
this the murmur of yearning,
This the far-off
depth and height reflecting my own face,
This
the thoughtful merge of myself, and the outlet
again.
Do you guess I have some intricate
purpose?
Well I have, for the Fourth-month
showers have, and the mica on the
side of a
rock has.
Do you take it I would astonish?
Does the daylight astonish? does the early
redstart twittering
through the woods?
Do I astonish more than they?
This hour I
tell things in confidence,
I might not tell
everybody, but I will tell you.
20
Who goes there? hankering, gross, mystical,
nude;
How is it I extract strength from the
beef I eat?
What is a man anyhow? what am I?
what are you?
All I mark as my own you shall
offset it with your own,
Else it were time
lost listening to me.
I do not snivel that
snivel the world over,
That months are
vacuums and the ground but wallow and filth.
Whimpering and truckling fold with powders for
invalids, conformity
goes to the fourth-
remov'd,
I wear my hat as I please indoors or
out.
Why should I pray? why should I venerate
and be ceremonious?
Having pried through the
strata, analyzed to a hair, counsel'd with
doctors and calculated close,
I find no
sweeter fat than sticks to my own bones.
In
all people I see myself, none more and not one a
barley-corn
less,
And the good or bad I
say of myself I say of them.
I know I am
solid and sound,
To me the converging objects
of the universe perpetually flow,
All are
written to me, and I must get what the writing
means.
I know I am deathless,
I know
this orbit of mine cannot be swept by a
carpenter's compass,
I know I shall not pass
like a child's carlacue cut with a burnt
stick at night.
I know I am august,
I do not trouble my spirit to vindicate itself
or be understood,
I see that the elementary
laws never apologize,
(I reckon I behave no
prouder than the level I plant my house by,
after all.)
I exist as I am, that is
enough,
If no other in the world be aware I
sit content,
And if each and all be aware I
sit content.
One world is aware and by
far the largest to me, and that is myself,
And whether I come to my own to-day or in ten
thousand or ten
million years,
I can
cheerfully take it now, or with equal cheerfulness
I can wait.
My foothold is tenon'd and
mortis'd in granite,
I laugh at what you call
dissolution,
And I know the amplitude of
time.
21
I am the poet of the Body and I
am the poet of the Soul,
The pleasures of
heaven are with me and the pains of hell are with
me,
The first I graft and increase upon
myself, the latter I translate
into new
tongue.
I am the poet of the woman the same
as the man,
And I say it is as great to be a
woman as to be a man,
And I say there is
nothing greater than the mother of men.
I
chant the chant of dilation or pride,
We have
had ducking and deprecating about enough,
I
show that size is only development.
Have you
outstript the rest? are you the President?
It
is a trifle, they will more than arrive there
every one, and
still pass on.
I am he
that walks with the tender and growing night,
I call to the earth and sea half-held by the
night.
Press close bare-bosom'd night - press
close magnetic nourishing
night!
Night
of south winds - night of the large few stars!
Still nodding night - mad naked summer night.
Smile O voluptuous cool-breath'd earth!
Earth of the slumbering and liquid trees!
Earth of departed sunset - earth of the
mountains misty-topt!
Earth of the vitreous
pour of the full moon just tinged with blue!
Earth of shine and dark mottling the tide of
the river!
Earth of the limpid gray of clouds
brighter and clearer for my
sake!
Far-
swooping elbow'd earth - rich apple-blossom'd
earth!
Smile, for your lover comes.
Prodigal, you have given me love -
therefore I to you give love!
O unspeakable
passionate love.
22
You sea! I resign
myself to you also - I guess what you mean,
I
behold from the beach your crooked fingers,
I
believe you refuse to go back without feeling of
me,
We must have a turn together, I undress,
hurry me out of sight of
the land,
Cushion me soft, rock me in billowy drowse,
Dash me with amorous wet, I can repay you.
Sea of stretch'd ground-swells,
Sea
breathing broad and convulsive breaths,
Sea
of the brine of life and of unshovell'd yet
always-ready graves,
Howler and scooper of
storms, capricious and dainty sea,
I am
integral with you, I too am of one phase and of
all phases.
Partaker of influx and efflux I,
extoller of hate and conciliation,
Extoller
of amies and those that sleep in each others'
arms.
I am he attesting sympathy,
(Shall
I make my list of things in the house and skip the
house that
supports them?)
I am not the
poet of goodness only, I do not decline to be the
poet
of wickedness also.
What blurt is
this about virtue and about vice?
Evil
propels me and reform of evil propels me, I stand
indifferent,
My gait is no fault-finder's or
rejecter's gait,
I moisten the roots of all
that has grown.
Did you fear some scrofula
out of the unflagging pregnancy?
Did you
guess the celestial laws are yet to be work'd over
and
rectified?
I find one side a balance
and the antipedal side a balance,
Soft
doctrine as steady help as stable doctrine,
Thoughts and deeds of the present our rouse
and early start.
This minute that comes to me
over the past decillions,
There is no better
than it and now.
What behaved well in
the past or behaves well to-day is not such
wonder,
The wonder is always and always
how there can be a mean man or an
infidel.
23
Endless unfolding of words of ages!
And mine a word of the modern, the word En-
Masse.
A word of the faith that never balks,
Here or henceforward it is all the same to me,
I accept Time
absolutely.
It alone is
without flaw, it alone rounds and completes all,
That mystic baffling wonder alone completes
all.
I accept Reality and dare not question
it,
Materialism first and last imbuing.
Hurrah for positive science! long live exact
demonstration!
Fetch stonecrop mixt with
cedar and branches of lilac,
This is the
lexicographer, this the chemist, this made a
grammar of
the old cartouches,
These
mariners put the ship through dangerous unknown
seas.
This is the geologist, this works with
the scalper, and this is a
mathematician.
Gentlemen, to you the first honors always!
Your facts are useful, and yet they are not my
dwelling,
I but enter by them to an area of
my dwelling.
Less the reminders of properties
told my words,
And more the reminders they of
life untold, and of freedom and
extrication,
And make short account of neuters and
geldings, and favor men and
women fully
equipt,
And beat the gong of revolt, and stop
with fugitives and them that
plot and
conspire.
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Walt Whitman, a kosmos, of
Manhattan the son,
Turbulent, fleshy,
sensual, eating, drinking and breeding,
No
sentimentalist, no stander above men and women or
apart from
them,
No more modest than
immodest.
Unscrew the locks from the
doors!
Unscrew the doors themselves from
their jambs!
Whoever degrades another
degrades me,
And whatever is done or said
returns at last to me.
Through me the
afflatus surging and surging, through me the
current
and index.
I speak the pass-word
primeval, I give the sign of democracy,
By
God! I will accept nothing which all cannot have
their
counterpart of on the same terms.
Through me many long dumb voices,
Voices
of the interminable generations of prisoners and
slaves,
Voices of the diseas'd and despairing
and of thieves and dwarfs,
Voices of cycles
of preparation and accretion,
And of the
threads that connect the stars, and of wombs and
of the
father-stuff,
And of the rights
of them the others are down upon,
Of the
deform'd, trivial, flat, foolish, despised,
Fog in the air, beetles rolling balls of dung.
Through me forbidden voices,
Voices of
sexes and lusts, voices veil'd and I remove the
veil,
Voices indecent by me clarified and
transfigur'd.
I do not press my fingers
across my mouth,
I keep as delicate around
the bowels as around the head and
heart,
Copulation is no more rank to me than death
is.
I believe in the flesh and the appetites,
Seeing, hearing, feeling, are miracles, and
each part and tag of me
is a miracle.
Divine am I inside and out, and I make holy
whatever I touch or am
touch'd from,
The
scent of these arm-pits aroma finer than prayer,
This head more than churches, bibles, and all
the creeds.
If I worship one thing more than
another it shall be the spread of
my own
body, or any part of it,
Translucent mould of
me it shall be you!
Shaded ledges and rests
it shall be you!
Firm masculine colter
it shall be you!
Whatever goes to the tilth
of me it shall be you!
You my rich blood!
your milky stream pale strippings of my life!
Breast that presses against other breasts it
shall be you!
My brain it shall be your
occult convolutions!
Root of wash'd sweet-
flag! timorous pond-snipe! nest of guarded
duplicate eggs! it shall be you!
Mix'd
tussled hay of head, beard, brawn, it shall be
you!
Trickling sap of maple, fibre of manly
wheat, it shall be you!
Sun so generous it
shall be you!
Vapors lighting and shading my
face it shall be you!
You sweaty brooks and
dews it shall be you!
Winds whose soft-
tickling genitals rub against me it shall be you!
Broad muscular fields, branches of live oak,
loving lounger in my
winding paths, it shall
be you!
Hands I have taken, face I have
kiss'd, mortal I have ever touch'd,
it shall
be you.
I dote on myself, there is that lot
of me and all so luscious,
Each moment and
whatever happens thrills me with joy,
I
cannot tell how my ankles bend, nor whence the
cause of my
faintest wish,
Nor the cause
of the friendship I emit, nor the cause of the
friendship I take again.
That I walk up
my stoop, I pause to consider if it really be,
A morning-glory at my window satisfies me more
than the metaphysics
of books.
To behold
the day-break!
The little light fades the
immense and diaphanous shadows,
The air
tastes good to my palate.
Hefts of the moving
world at innocent gambols silently rising
freshly exuding,
Scooting obliquely high
and low.
Something I cannot see puts upward
libidinous prongs,
Seas of bright juice
suffuse heaven.
The earth by the sky staid
with, the daily close of their junction,
The
heav'd challenge from the east that moment over my
head,
The mocking taunt, See then whether you
shall be master!
25
Dazzling and
tremendous how quick the sun-rise would kill me,
If I could not now and always send sun-rise
out of me.
We also ascend dazzling and
tremendous as the sun,
We found our own O my
soul in the calm and cool of the daybreak.
My
voice goes after what my eyes cannot reach,
With the twirl of my tongue I encompass worlds
and volumes of
worlds.
Speech is the
twin of my vision, it is unequal to measure
itself,
It provokes me forever, it says
sarcastically,
Walt you contain enough, why
don't you let it out then?
Come now I will
not be tantalized, you conceive too much of
articulation,
Do you not know O speech
how the buds beneath you are folded?
Waiting
in gloom, protected by frost,
The dirt
receding before my prophetical screams,
I
underlying causes to balance them at last,
My
knowledge my live parts, it keeping tally with the
meaning of all
things,
Happiness, (which
whoever hears me let him or her set out in search
of this day.)
My final merit I refuse
you, I refuse putting from me what I really
am,
Encompass worlds, but never try to
encompass me,
I crowd your sleekest and best
by simply looking toward you.
Writing and
talk do not prove me,
I carry the plenum of
proof and every thing else in my face,
With
the hush of my lips I wholly confound the skeptic.
26
Now I will do nothing but listen,
To accrue what I hear into this song, to let
sounds contribute
toward it.
I hear
bravuras of birds, bustle of growing wheat, gossip
of flames,
clack of sticks cooking my meals,
I hear the sound I love, the sound of the
human voice,
I hear all sounds running
together, combined, fused or following,
Sounds of the city and sounds out of the city,
sounds of the day and
night,
Talkative young ones to those that like them,
the loud laugh of
work-people at their meals,
The angry base of disjointed friendship, the
faint tones of the
sick,
The judge with
hands tight to the desk, his pallid lips
pronouncing
a death-sentence,
The
heave'e'yo of stevedores unlading ships by the
wharves, the
refrain of the anchor-lifters,
The ring of alarm-bells, the cry of fire, the
whirr of
swift-streaking engines and hose-
carts with premonitory tinkles
and color'd
lights,
The steam-whistle, the solid roll of
the train of approaching cars,
The slow march
play'd at the head of the association marching two
and two,
(They go to guard some corpse,
the flag-tops are draped with black
muslin.)
I hear the violoncello, ('tis the young man's
heart's complaint,)
I hear the key'd cornet,
it glides quickly in through my ears,
It
shakes mad-sweet pangs through my belly and
breast.
I hear the chorus, it is a grand
opera,
Ah this indeed is music - this suits
me.
A tenor large and fresh as the creation
fills me,
The orbic flex of his mouth is
pouring and filling me full.
I hear the
train'd soprano (what work with hers is this?)
The orchestra whirls me wider than Uranus
flies,
It wrenches such ardors from me I did
not know I possess'd them,
It sails me, I dab
with bare feet, they are lick'd by the indolent
waves,
I am cut by bitter and angry hail,
I lose my breath,
Steep'd amid honey'd
morphine, my windpipe throttled in fakes of
death,
At length let up again to feel the
puzzle of puzzles,
And that we call Being.
27
To be in any form, what is that?
(Round and round we go, all of us, and ever
come back thither,)
If nothing lay more
develop'd the quahaug in its callous shell were
enough.
Mine is no callous shell,
I have instant conductors all over me whether
I pass or stop,
They seize every object and
lead it harmlessly through me.
I merely stir,
press, feel with my fingers, and am happy,
To
touch my person to some one else's is about as
much as I can
stand.
28
Is this
then a touch? quivering me to a new identity,
Flames and ether making a rush for my veins,
Treacherous tip of me reaching and crowding to
help them,
My flesh and blood playing out
lightning to strike what is hardly
different
from myself,
On all sides prurient provokers
stiffening my limbs,
Straining the udder of
my heart for its withheld drip,
Behaving
licentious toward me, taking no denial,
Depriving me of my best as for a purpose,
Unbuttoning my clothes, holding me by the bare
waist,
Deluding my confusion with the calm of
the sunlight and
pasture-fields,
Immodestly sliding the fellow-senses away,
They bribed to swap off with touch and go and
graze at the edges of
me,
No
consideration, no regard for my draining strength
or my anger,
Fetching the rest of the herd
around to enjoy them a while,
Then all
uniting to stand on a headland and worry me.
The sentries desert every other part of me,
They have left me helpless to a red marauder,
They all come to the headland to witness and
assist against me.
I am given up by traitors,
I talk wildly, I have lost my wits, I and
nobody else am the
greatest traitor,
I
went myself first to the headland, my own hands
carried me there.
You villain touch! what are
you doing? my breath is tight in its
throat,
Unclench your floodgates, you are too much for
me.
29
Blind loving wrestling touch,
sheath'd hooded sharp-tooth'd touch!
Did it
make you ache so, leaving me?
Parting
track'd by arriving, perpetual payment of
perpetual loan,
Rich showering rain, and
recompense richer afterward.
Sprouts take and
accumulate, stand by the curb prolific and vital,
Landscapes projected masculine, full-sized and
golden.
30
All truths wait in all
things,
They neither hasten their own
delivery nor resist it,
They do not need the
obstetric forceps of the surgeon,
The
insignificant is as big to me as any,
(What
is less or more than a touch?)
Logic and
sermons never convince,
The damp of the night
drives deeper into my soul.
(Only what proves
itself to every man and woman is so,
Only
what nobody denies is so.)
A minute and a
drop of me settle my brain,
I believe the
soggy clods shall become lovers and lamps,
And a compend of compends is the meat of a man
or woman,
And a summit and flower there is
the feeling they have for each
other,
And they are to branch boundlessly out of that
lesson until it
becomes omnific,
And
until one and all shall delight us, and we them.
31
I believe a leaf of grass is no less
than the journey work of the
stars,
And
the pismire is equally perfect, and a grain of
sand, and the egg
of the wren,
And the
tree-toad is a chef-d'oeuvre for the highest,
And the running blackberry would adorn the
parlors of heaven,
And the narrowest hinge in
my hand puts to scorn all machinery,
And the
cow crunching with depress'd head surpasses any
statue,
And a mouse is miracle enough to
stagger sextillions of infidels.
I find I
incorporate gneiss, coal, long-threaded moss,
fruits,
grains, esculent roots,
And am
stucco'd with quadrupeds and birds all over,
And have distanced what is behind me for good
reasons,
But call any thing back again when I
desire it.
In vain the speeding or
shyness,
In vain the plutonic rocks send
their old heat against my approach,
In vain
the mastodon retreats beneath its own powder'd
bones,
In vain objects stand leagues off and
assume manifold shapes,
In vain the ocean
settling in hollows and the great monsters lying
low,
In vain the buzzard houses herself
with the sky,
In vain the snake slides
through the creepers and logs,
In vain the
elk takes to the inner passes of the woods,
In vain the razor-bill'd auk sails far north
to Labrador,
I follow quickly, I ascend to
the nest in the fissure of the cliff.
32
I think I could turn and live with animals,
they are so placid and
self-contain'd,
I
stand and look at them long and long.
They do
not sweat and whine about their condition,
They do not lie awake in the dark and weep for
their sins,
They do not make me sick
discussing their duty to God,
Not one is
dissatisfied, not one is demented with the mania
of
owning things,
Not one kneels to
another, nor to his kind that lived thousands of
years ago,
Not one is respectable or
unhappy over the whole earth.
So they show
their relations to me and I accept them,
They
bring me tokens of myself, they evince them
plainly in their
possession.
I wonder
where they get those tokens,
Did I pass that
way huge times ago and negligently drop them?
Myself moving forward then and now and
forever,
Gathering and showing more always
and with velocity,
Infinite and omnigenous,
and the like of these among them,
Not too
exclusive toward the reachers of my remembrancers,
Picking out here one that I love, and now go
with him on brotherly
terms.
A gigantic
beauty of a stallion, fresh and responsive to my
caresses,
Head high in the forehead, wide
between the ears,
Limbs glossy and supple,
tail dusting the ground,
Eyes full of
sparkling wickedness, ears finely cut, flexibly
moving.
His nostrils dilate as my
heels embrace him,
His well-built limbs
tremble with pleasure as we race around and
return.
I but use you a minute, then I
resign you, stallion,
Why do I need your
paces when I myself out-gallop them?
Even as
I stand or sit passing faster than you.
33
Space and Time! now I see it is true, what I
guess'd at,
What I guess'd when I loaf'd on
the grass,
What I guess'd while I lay alone
in my bed,
And again as I walk'd the beach
under the paling stars of the
morning.
My ties and ballasts leave me, my elbows rest
in sea-gaps,
I skirt sierras, my palms cover
continents,
I am afoot with my vision.
By the city's quadrangular houses - in log
huts, camping with
lumber-men,
Along the
ruts of the turnpike, along the dry gulch and
rivulet bed,
Weeding my onion-patch or hosing
rows of carrots and parsnips,
crossing
savannas, trailing in forests,
Prospecting,
gold-digging, girdling the trees of a new
purchase,
Scorch'd ankle-deep by the hot
sand, hauling my boat down the
shallow river,
Where the panther walks to and fro on a limb
overhead, where the
buck turns furiously at
the hunter,
Where the rattlesnake suns his
flabby length on a rock, where the
otter is
feeding on fish,
Where the alligator in his
tough pimples sleeps by the bayou,
Where the
black bear is searching for roots or honey, where
the
beaver pats the mud with his paddle-
shaped tall;
Over the growing sugar, over the
yellow-flower'd cotton plant, over
the rice
in its low moist field,
Over the sharp-peak'd
farm house, with its scallop'd scum and
slender shoots from the gutters,
Over the
western persimmon, over the long-leav'd corn, over
the
delicate blue-flower flax,
Over the
white and brown buckwheat, a hummer and buzzer
there with
the rest,
Over the dusky
green of the rye as it ripples and shades in the
breeze;
Scaling mountains, pulling myself
cautiously up, holding on by low
scragged limbs,
Walking the path
worn in the grass and beat through the leaves of
the brush,
Where the quail is whistling
betwixt the woods and the wheat-lot,
Where
the bat flies in the Seventh-month eve, where the
great
goldbug drops through the dark,
Where the brook puts out of the roots of the
old tree and flows to
the meadow,
Where
cattle stand and shake away flies with the
tremulous
shuddering of their hides,
Where the cheese-cloth hangs in the kitchen,
where andirons straddle
the hearth-slab,
where cobwebs fall in festoons from the rafters;
Where trip-hammers crash, where the press is
whirling its cylinders,
Wherever the human
heart beats with terrible throes under its ribs,
Where the pear-shaped balloon is floating
aloft, (floating in it
myself and looking
composedly down,)
Where the life-car is drawn
on the slip-noose, where the heat
hatches
pale-green eggs in the dented sand,
Where the
she-whale swims with her calf and never forsakes
it,
Where the steam-ship trails hind-ways its
long pennant of smoke,
Where the fin of the
shark cuts like a black chip out of the water,
Where the half-burn'd brig is riding on
unknown currents,
Where shells grow to her
slimy deck, where the dead are corrupting
below;
Where the dense-starr'd flag is
borne at the head of the regiments,
Approaching Manhattan up by the long-
stretching island,
Under Niagara, the
cataract falling like a veil over my countenance,
Upon a door-step, upon the horse-block of hard
wood outside,
Upon the race-course, or
enjoying picnics or jigs or a good game of
base-ball,
At he-festivals, with
blackguard gibes, ironical license,
bull-
dances, drinking, laughter,
At the cider-mill
tasting the sweets of the brown mash, sucking the
juice through a straw,
At apple-peelings
wanting kisses for all the red fruit I find,
At musters, beach-parties, friendly bees,
huskings, house-raisings;
Where the mocking-
bird sounds his delicious gurgles, cackles,
screams, weeps,
Where the hay-rick stands
in the barn-yard, where the dry-stalks are
scatter'd, where the brood-cow waits in the
hovel,
Where the bull advances to do his
masculine work, where the stud to
the mare,
where the cock is treading the hen,
Where the
heifers browse, where geese nip their food with
short
jerks,
Where sun-down
shadows lengthen over the limitless and lonesome
prairie,
Where herds of buffalo make a
crawling spread of the square miles
far and
near,
Where the humming-bird shimmers, where
the neck of the long-lived
swan is curving
and winding,
Where the laughing-gull scoots
by the shore, where she laughs her
near-human
laugh,
Where bee-hives range on a gray bench
in the garden half hid by the
high weeds,
Where band-neck'd partridges roost in a ring
on the ground with
their heads out,
Where burial coaches enter the arch'd gates of
a cemetery,
Where winter wolves bark amid
wastes of snow and icicled trees,
Where the
yellow-crown'd heron comes to the edge of the
marsh at
night and feeds upon small crabs,
Where the splash of swimmers and divers cools
the warm noon,
Where the katy-did works her
chromatic reed on the walnut-tree over
the
well,
Through patches of citrons and
cucumbers with silver-wired leaves,
Through
the salt-lick or orange glade, or under conical
firs,
Through the gymnasium, through the
curtain'd saloon, through the
office or
public hall;
Pleas'd with the native and
pleas'd with the foreign, pleas'd with
the
new and old,
Pleas'd with the homely woman as
well as the handsome,
Pleas'd with the
quakeress as she puts off her bonnet and talks
melodiously,
Pleas'd with the tune of the
choir of the whitewash'd church,
Pleas'd with
the earnest words of the sweating Methodist
preacher,
impress'd seriously at the camp-
meeting;
Looking in at the shop-windows of
Broadway the whole forenoon,
flatting the
flesh of my nose on the thick plate glass,
Wandering the same afternoon with my face
turn'd up to the clouds,
or down a lane or
along the beach,
My right and left arms round
the sides of two friends, and I in the
middle;
Coming home with the silent and
dark-cheek'd bush-boy, (behind me
he rides at
the drape of the day,)
Far from the
settlements studying the print of animals' feet,
or the
moccasin print,
By the cot in the
hospital reaching lemonade to a feverish patient,
Nigh the coffin'd corpse when all is still,
examining with a candle;
Voyaging to every
port to dicker and adventure,
Hurrying
with the modern crowd as eager and fickle as any,
Hot toward one I hate, ready in my madness to
knife him,
Solitary at midnight in my back
yard, my thoughts gone from me a
long while,
Walking the old hills of Judaea with the
beautiful gentle God by my
side,
Speeding through space, speeding through
heaven and the stars,
Speeding amid the seven
satellites and the broad ring, and the
diameter of eighty thousand miles,
Speeding with tail'd meteors, throwing fire-
balls like the rest,
Carrying the crescent
child that carries its own full mother in its
belly,
Storming, enjoying, planning,
loving, cautioning,
Backing and filling,
appearing and disappearing,
I tread day and
night such roads.
I visit the orchards of
spheres and look at the product,
And look at
quintillions ripen'd and look at quintillions
green.
I fly those flights of a fluid and
swallowing soul,
My course runs below the
soundings of plummets.
I help myself to
material and immaterial,
No guard can shut me
off, no law prevent me.
I anchor my ship for
a little while only,
My messengers
continually cruise away or bring their returns to
me.
I go hunting polar furs and the seal,
leaping chasms with a
pike-pointed staff,
clinging to topples of brittle and blue.
I
ascend to the foretruck,
I take my place late
at night in the crow's-nest,
We sail the
arctic sea, it is plenty light enough,
Through the clear atmosphere I stretch around
on the wonderful
beauty,
The enormous
masses of ice pass me and I pass them, the scenery
is
plain in all directions,
The white-
topt mountains show in the distance, I fling out
my
fancies toward them,
We are
approaching some great battle-field in which we
are soon to
be engaged,
We pass the
colossal outposts of the encampment, we pass with
still
feet and caution,
Or we are
entering by the suburbs some vast and ruin'd city,
The blocks and fallen architecture more
than all the living cities
of the globe.
I am a free companion, I bivouac by invading
watchfires,
I turn the bridgroom out of bed
and stay with the bride myself,
I tighten her
all night to my thighs and lips.
My voice is
the wife's voice, the screech by the rail of the
stairs,
They fetch my man's body up dripping
and drown'd.
I understand the large hearts of
heroes,
The courage of present times and all
times,
How the skipper saw the crowded and
rudderless wreck of the
steamship, and Death
chasing it up and down the storm,
How he
knuckled tight and gave not back an inch, and was
faithful of
days and faithful of nights,
And chalk'd in large letters on a board, Be of
good cheer, we will
not desert you;
How
he follow'd with them and tack'd with them three
days and
would not give it up,
How he
saved the drifting company at last,
How the
lank loose-gown'd women look'd when boated from
the
side of their prepared graves,
How
the silent old-faced infants and the lifted sick,
and the
sharp-lipp'd unshaved men;
All
this I swallow, it tastes good, I like it well, it
becomes mine,
I am the man, I suffer'd, I was
there.
The disdain and calmness of martyrs,
The mother of old, condemn'd for a witch,
burnt with dry wood, her
children gazing on,
The hounded slave that flags in the race,
leans by the fence,
blowing, cover'd with
sweat,
The twinges that sting like needles
his legs and neck, the murderous
buckshot and
the bullets,
All these I feel or am.
I
am the hounded slave, I wince at the bite of the
dogs,
Hell and despair are upon me, crack and
again crack the marksmen,
I clutch the rails
of the fence, my gore dribs, thinn'd with the
ooze of my skin,
I fall on the weeds and
stones,
The riders spur their unwilling
horses, haul close,
Taunt my dizzy ears and
beat me violently over the head with
whip-
stocks.
Agonies are one of my changes
of garments,
I do not ask the wounded person
how he feels, I myself become the
wounded
person,
My hurts turn livid upon me as I lean
on a cane and observe.
I am the mash'd
fireman with breast-bone broken,
Tumbling
walls buried me in their debris,
Heat and
smoke I inspired, I heard the yelling shouts of my
comrades,
I heard the distant click of
their picks and shovels,
They have clear'd
the beams away, they tenderly lift me forth.
I lie in the night air in my red shirt, the
pervading hush is for my
sake,
Painless
after all I lie exhausted but not so unhappy,
White and beautiful are the faces around me,
the heads are bared
of their fire-caps,
The kneeling crowd fades with the light of the
torches.
Distant and dead resuscitate,
They show as the dial or move as the hands of
me, I am the clock
myself.
I am an old
artillerist, I tell of my fort's bombardment,
I am there again.
Again the long roll of
the drummers,
Again the attacking cannon,
mortars,
Again to my listening ears the
cannon responsive.
I take part, I see and
hear the whole,
The cries, curses, roar, the
plaudits for well-aim'd shots,
The ambulanza
slowly passing trailing its red drip,
Workmen
searching after damages, making indispensable
repairs,
The fall of grenades through the
rent roof, the fan-shaped
explosion,
The
whizz of limbs, heads, stone, wood, iron, high in
the air.
Again gurgles the mouth of my dying
general, he furiously waves
with his hand,
He gasps through the clot Mind not me - mind -
the entrenchments.
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Now I tell what I
knew in Texas in my early youth,
(I tell not
the fall of Alamo,
Not one escaped to
tell the fall of Alamo,
The hundred and fifty
are dumb yet at Alamo,)
'Tis the tale of the
murder in cold blood of four hundred and twelve
young men.
Retreating they had form'd in
a hollow square with their baggage for
breastworks,
Nine hundred lives out of
the surrounding enemies, nine times their
number, was the price they took in advance,
Their colonel was wounded and their ammunition
gone,
They treated for an honorable
capitulation, receiv'd writing and
seal, gave
up their arms and march'd back prisoners of war.
They were the glory of the race of rangers,
Matchless with horse, rifle, song, supper,
courtship,
Large, turbulent, generous,
handsome, proud, and affectionate,
Bearded,
sunburnt, drest in the free costume of hunters,
Not a single one over thirty years of age.
The second First-day morning they were brought
out in squads and
massacred, it was beautiful
early summer,
The work commenced about five
o'clock and was over by eight.
None obey'd
the command to kneel,
Some made a mad and
helpless rush, some stood stark and straight,
A few fell at once, shot in the temple or
heart, the living and dead
lay together,
The maim'd and mangled dug in the dirt, the
new-comers saw them
there,
Some half-
kill'd attempted to crawl away,
These were
despatch'd with bayonets or batter'd with the
blunts of
muskets,
A youth not seventeen
years old seiz'd his assassin till two more
came to release him,
The three were all
torn and cover'd with the boy's blood.
At
eleven o'clock began the burning of the bodies;
That is the tale of the murder of the four
hundred and twelve young
men.
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Would you hear of an old-time sea-fight?
Would you learn who won by the light of the
moon and stars?
List to the yarn, as my
grandmother's father the sailor told it to
me.
Our foe was no sulk in his
ship I tell you, (said he,)
His was the surly
English pluck, and there is no tougher or truer,
and never was, and never will be;
Along
the lower'd eve he came horribly raking us.
We closed with him, the yards entangled, the
cannon touch'd,
My captain lash'd fast with
his own hands.
We had receiv'd some eighteen
pound shots under the water,
On our lower-
gun-deck two large pieces had burst at the first
fire,
killing all around and blowing up
overhead.
Fighting at sun-down, fighting at
dark,
Ten o'clock at night, the full moon
well up, our leaks on the gain,
and five feet
of water reported,
The master-at-arms loosing
the prisoners confined in the after-hold
to
give them a chance for themselves.
The
transit to and from the magazine is now stopt by
the sentinels,
They see so many strange faces
they do not know whom to trust.
Our frigate
takes fire,
The other asks if we demand
quarter?
If our colors are struck and the
fighting done?
Now I laugh content, for I
hear the voice of my little captain,
We have
not struck, he composedly cries, we have just
begun our part
of the fighting.
Only
three guns are in use,
One is directed by the
captain himself against the enemy's
main-
mast,
Two well serv'd with grape and canister
silence his musketry and
clear his decks.
The tops alone second the fire of this little
battery, especially
the main-top,
They
hold out bravely during the whole of the action.
Not a moment's cease,
The leaks gain fast
on the pumps, the fire eats toward the
powder-magazine.
One of the pumps has
been shot away, it is generally thought we are
sinking.
Serene stands the little
captain,
He is not hurried, his voice is
neither high nor low,
His eyes give more
light to us than our battle-lanterns.
Toward
twelve there in the beams of the moon they
surrender to us.
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Stretch'd and still
lies the midnight,
Two great hulls motionless
on the breast of the darkness,
Our vessel
riddled and slowly sinking, preparations to pass
to the
one we have conquer'd,
The
captain on the quarter-deck coldly giving his
orders through a
countenance white as a
sheet,
Near by the corpse of the child that
serv'd in the cabin,
The dead face of an old
salt with long white hair and carefully
curl'd whiskers,
The flames spite of all
that can be done flickering aloft and below,
The husky voices of the two or three officers
yet fit for duty,
Formless stacks of bodies
and bodies by themselves, dabs of flesh
upon
the masts and spars,
Cut of cordage, dangle
of rigging, slight shock of the soothe of
waves,
Black and impassive guns, litter
of powder-parcels, strong scent,
A few large
stars overhead, silent and mournful shining,
Delicate sniffs of sea-breeze, smells of sedgy
grass and fields by
the shore, death-messages
given in charge to survivors,
The hiss of the
surgeon's knife, the gnawing teeth of his saw,
Wheeze, cluck, swash of falling blood, short
wild scream, and long,
dull, tapering groan,
These so, these irretrievable.
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You laggards there on guard! look to your
arms!
In at the conquer'd doors they crowd! I
am possess'd!
Embody all presences outlaw'd
or suffering,
See myself in prison shaped
like another man,
And feel the dull
unintermitted pain.
For me the keepers of
convicts shoulder their carbines and keep
watch,
It is I let out in the morning and
barr'd at night.
Not a mutineer walks
handcuff'd to jail but I am handcuff'd to him
and walk by his side,
(I am less
the jolly one there, and more the silent one with
sweat
on my twitching lips.)
Not a
youngster is taken for larceny but I go up too,
and am tried
and sentenced.
Not a
cholera patient lies at the last gasp but I also
lie at the
last gasp,
My face is ash-
color'd, my sinews gnarl, away from me people
retreat.
Askers embody themselves in me
and I am embodied in them,
I project my hat,
sit shame-faced, and beg.
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Enough!
enough! enough!
Somehow I have been stunn'd.
Stand back!
Give me a little time beyond my
cuff'd head, slumbers, dreams,
gaping,
I
discover myself on the verge of a usual mistake.
That I could forget the mockers and insults!
That I could forget the trickling tears and
the blows of the
bludgeons and hammers!
That I could look with a separate look on my
own crucifixion and
bloody crowning.
I
remember now,
I resume the overstaid
fraction,
The grave of rock multiplies what
has been confided to it, or to any
graves,
Corpses rise, gashes heal, fastenings roll
from me.
I troop forth replenish'd with
supreme power, one of an average
unending
procession,
Inland and sea-coast we go, and
pass all boundary lines,
Our swift ordinances
on their way over the whole earth,
The
blossoms we wear in our hats the growth of
thousands of years.
Eleves, I salute you!
come forward!
Continue your annotations,
continue your questionings.
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The
friendly and flowing savage, who is he?
Is he
waiting for civilization, or past it and mastering
it?
Is he some Southwesterner rais'd
out-doors? is he Kanadian?
Is he from the
Mississippi country? Iowa, Oregon, California?
The mountains? prairie-life, bush-life? or
sailor from the sea?
Wherever he goes men and
women accept and desire him,
They desire he
should like them, touch them, speak to them, stay
with them.
Behavior lawless as snow-
flakes, words simple as grass, uncomb'd
head,
laughter, and naivete,
Slow-stepping feet,
common features, common modes and emanations,
They descend in new forms from the tips of his
fingers,
They are waited with the odor of his
body or breath, they fly out of
the glance of
his eyes.
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Flaunt of the sunshine I
need not your bask - lie over!
You light
surfaces only, I force surfaces and depths also.
Earth! you seem to look for something at my
hands,
Say, old top-knot, what do you want?
Man or woman, I might tell how I like you, but
cannot,
And might tell what it is in me and
what it is in you, but cannot,
And might tell
that pining I have, that pulse of my nights and
days.
Behold, I do not give lectures or a
little charity,
When I give I give myself.
You there, impotent, loose in the knees,
Open your scarf'd chops till I blow grit
within you,
Spread your palms and lift the
flaps of your pockets,
I am not to be denied,
I compel, I have stores plenty and to spare,
And any thing I have I bestow.
I do not
ask who you are, that is not important to me,
You can do nothing and be nothing but what I
will infold you.
To cotton-field drudge or
cleaner of privies I lean,
On his right cheek
I put the family kiss,
And in my soul I swear
I never will deny him.
On women fit for
conception I start bigger and nimbler babes.
(This day I am jetting the stuff of far more
arrogant republics.)
To any one dying,
thither I speed and twist the knob of the door.
Turn the bed-clothes toward the foot of the
bed,
Let the physician and the priest go
home.
I seize the descending man and raise
him with resistless will,
O despairer, here
is my neck,
By God, you shall not go down!
hang your whole weight upon me.
I dilate you
with tremendous breath, I buoy you up,
Every
room of the house do I fill with an arm'd force,
Lovers of me, bafflers of graves.
Sleep -
I and they keep guard all night,
Not doubt,
not decease shall dare to lay finger upon you,
I have embraced you, and henceforth possess
you to myself,
And when you rise in the
morning you will find what I tell you is
so.
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I am he bringing help for the sick as
they pant on their backs,
And for strong
upright men I bring yet more needed help.
I
heard what was said of the universe,
Heard it
and heard it of several thousand years;
It is
middling well as far as it goes - but is that all?
Magnifying and applying come I,
Outbidding at the start the old cautious
hucksters,
Taking myself the exact dimensions
of Jehovah,
Lithographing Kronos, Zeus his
son, and Hercules his grandson,
Buying drafts
of Osiris, Isis, Belus, Brahma, Buddha,
In my
portfolio placing Manito loose, Allah on a leaf,
the crucifix
engraved,
With Odin and the
hideous-faced Mexitli and every idol and image,
Taking them all for what they are worth and
not a cent more,
Admitting they were alive
and did the work of their days,
(They bore
mites as for unfledg'd birds who have now to rise
and fly
and sing for themselves,)
Accepting the rough deific sketches to fill
out better in myself,
bestowing them freely
on each man and woman I see,
Discovering as
much or more in a framer framing a house,
Putting higher claims for him there with his
roll'd-up sleeves
driving the mallet and
chisel,
Not objecting to special revelations,
considering a curl of smoke or
a hair on the
back of my hand just as curious as any revelation,
Lads ahold of fire-engines and hook-
and-ladder ropes no less to me
than the gods
of the antique wars,
Minding their voices
peal through the crash of destruction,
Their
brawny limbs passing safe over charr'd laths,
their white
foreheads whole and unhurt out of
the flames;
By the mechanic's wife with her
babe at her nipple interceding for
every
person born,
Three scythes at harvest
whizzing in a row from three lusty angels
with shirts bagg'd out at their waists,
The snag-tooth'd hostler with red hair
redeeming sins past and to
come,
Selling
all he possesses, traveling on foot to fee lawyers
for his
brother and sit by him while he is
tried for forgery;
What was strewn in the
amplest strewing the square rod about me, and
not filling the square rod then,
The bull
and the bug never worshipp'd half enough,
Dung and dirt more admirable than was dream'd,
The supernatural of no account, myself waiting
my time to be one of
the supremes,
The
day getting ready for me when I shall do as much
good as the
best, and be as prodigious;
By my life-lumps! becoming already a creator,
Putting myself here and now to the ambush'd
womb of the shadows.
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A call in
the midst of the crowd,
My own voice, orotund
sweeping and final.
Come my children,
Come my boys and girls, my women, household
and intimates,
Now the performer launches his
nerve, he has pass'd his prelude on
the reeds
within.
Easily written loose-finger'd chords
- I feel the thrum of your
climax and close.
My head slues round on my neck,
Music
rolls, but not from the organ,
Folks are
around me, but they are no household of mine.
Ever the hard unsunk ground,
Ever the
eaters and drinkers, ever the upward and downward
sun, ever
the air and the ceaseless tides,
Ever myself and my neighbors, refreshing,
wicked, real,
Ever the old
inexplicable query, ever that thorn'd thumb, that
breath of itches and thirsts,
Ever the
vexer's hoot! hoot! till we find where the sly one
hides
and bring him forth,
Ever love,
ever the sobbing liquid of life,
Ever the
bandage under the chin, ever the trestles of
death.
Here and there with dimes on the eyes
walking,
To feed the greed of the belly the
brains liberally spooning,
Tickets buying,
taking, selling, but in to the feast never once
going,
Many sweating, ploughing, thrashing,
and then the chaff for payment
receiving,
A few idly owning, and they the wheat
continually claiming.
This is the city and I
am one of the citizens,
Whatever interests
the rest interests me, politics, wars, markets,
newspapers, schools,
The mayor and
councils, banks, tariffs, steamships, factories,
stocks, stores, real estate and personal
estate.
The little plentiful manikins
skipping around in collars and tail'd
coats
I am aware who they are, (they are positively
not worms or fleas,)
I acknowledge the
duplicates of myself, the weakest and shallowest
is deathless with me,
What I do and say
the same waits for them,
Every thought that
flounders in me the same flounders in them.
I
know perfectly well my own egotism,
Know my
omnivorous lines and must not write any less,
And would fetch you whoever you are flush with
myself.
Not words of routine this song of
mine,
But abruptly to question, to leap
beyond yet nearer bring;
This printed and
bound book - but the printer and the
printing-office boy?
The well-taken
photographs - but your wife or friend close and
solid
in your arms?
The black ship
mail'd with iron, her mighty guns in her turrets -
but
the pluck of the captain and engineers?
In the houses the dishes and fare and
furniture - but the host and
hostess, and the
look out of their eyes?
The sky up there -
yet here or next door, or across the way?
The
saints and sages in history - but you yourself?
Sermons, creeds, theology - but the
fathomless human brain,
And what is reason?
and what is love? and what is life?
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I
do not despise you priests, all time, the world
over,
My faith is the greatest of faiths and
the least of faiths,
Enclosing worship
ancient and modern and all between ancient and
modern,
Believing I shall come again upon
the earth after five thousand
years,
Waiting responses from oracles, honoring the
gods, saluting the sun,
Making a fetich of
the first rock or stump, powowing with sticks in
the circle of obis,
Helping the llama or
brahmin as he trims the lamps of the idols,
Dancing yet through the streets in a phallic
procession, rapt and
austere in the woods a
gymnosophist,
Drinking mead from the skull-
cap, to Shastas and Vedas admirant,
minding
the Koran,
Walking the teokallis, spotted
with gore from the stone and knife,
beating
the serpent-skin drum,
Accepting the Gospels,
accepting him that was crucified, knowing
assuredly that he is divine,
To the mass
kneeling or the puritan's prayer rising, or
sitting
patiently in a pew,
Ranting and
frothing in my insane crisis, or waiting dead-like
till
my spirit arouses me,
Looking forth
on pavement and land, or outside of pavement and
land,
Belonging to the winders of the circuit
of circuits.
One of that centripetal and
centrifugal gang I turn and talk like
man
leaving charges before a journey.
Down-
hearted doubters dull and excluded,
Frivolous, sullen, moping, angry, affected,
dishearten'd,
atheistical,
I know every
one of you, I know the sea of torment, doubt,
despair
and unbelief.
How the flukes
splash!
How they contort rapid as lightning,
with spasms and spouts of
blood!
Be at
peace bloody flukes of doubters and sullen mopers,
I take my place among you as much as among
any,
The past is the push of you, me, all,
precisely the same,
And what is yet
untried and afterward is for you, me, all,
precisely
the same.
I do not know what
is untried and afterward,
But I know it will
in its turn prove sufficient, and cannot fail.
Each who passes is consider'd, each who stops
is consider'd, not
single one can it fall.
It cannot fall the young man who died and was
buried,
Nor the young woman who died and was
put by his side,
Nor the little child that
peep'd in at the door, and then drew back
and
was never seen again,
Nor the old man who has
lived without purpose, and feels it with
bitterness worse than gall,
Nor him in
the poor house tubercled by rum and the bad
disorder,
Nor the numberless slaughter'd and
wreck'd, nor the brutish koboo
call'd the
ordure of humanity,
Nor the sacs merely
floating with open mouths for food to slip in,
Nor any thing in the earth, or down in the
oldest graves of the
earth,
Nor any
thing in the myriads of spheres, nor the myriads
of myriads
that inhabit them,
Nor the
present, nor the least wisp that is known.
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It is time to explain myself - let us stand
up.
What is known I strip away,
I launch
all men and women forward with me into the
Unknown.
The clock indicates the moment - but
what does eternity indicate?
We have thus far
exhausted trillions of winters and summers,
There are trillions ahead, and trillions ahead
of them.
Births have brought us richness and
variety,
And other births will bring us
richness and variety.
I do not call one
greater and one smaller,
That which fills its
period and place is equal to any.
Were
mankind murderous or jealous upon you, my brother,
my sister?
I am sorry for you, they are not
murderous or jealous upon me,
All has
been gentle with me, I keep no account with
lamentation,
(What have I to do with
lamentation?)
I am an acme of things
accomplish'd, and I an encloser of things to
be.
My feet strike an apex of the apices
of the stairs,
On every step bunches of ages,
and larger bunches between the steps,
All
below duly travel'd, and still I mount and mount.
Rise after rise bow the phantoms behind me,
Afar down I see the huge first Nothing, I know
I was even there,
I waited unseen and always,
and slept through the lethargic mist,
And
took my time, and took no hurt from the fetid
carbon.
Long I was hugg'd close - long and
long.
Immense have been the preparations for
me,
Faithful and friendly the arms that have
help'd me.
Cycles ferried my cradle, rowing
and rowing like cheerful boatmen,
For room to
me stars kept aside in their own rings,
They
sent influences to look after what was to hold me.
Before I was born out of my mother generations
guided me,
My embryo has never been torpid,
nothing could overlay it.
For it the nebula
cohered to an orb,
The long slow strata piled
to rest it on,
Vast vegetables gave it
sustenance,
Monstrous sauroids transported it
in their mouths and deposited it
with care.
All forces have been steadily employ'd to
complete and delight me,
Now on this spot I
stand with my robust soul.
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O
span of youth! ever-push'd elasticity!
O
manhood, balanced, florid and full.
My lovers
suffocate me,
Crowding my lips, thick in the
pores of my skin,
Jostling me through streets
and public halls, coming naked to me at
night,
Crying by day, Ahoy! from
the rocks of the river, swinging and
chirping
over my head,
Calling my name from flower-
beds, vines, tangled underbrush,
Lighting on
every moment of my life,
Bussing my body with
soft balsamic busses,
Noiselessly passing
handfuls out of their hearts and giving them to
be mine.
Old age superbly rising! O
welcome, ineffable grace of dying days!
Every
condition promulges not only itself, it promulges
what grows
after and out of itself,
And
the dark hush promulges as much as any.
I
open my scuttle at night and see the far-sprinkled
systems,
And all I see multiplied as high as
I can cipher edge but the rim of
the farther
systems.
Wider and wider they spread,
expanding, always expanding,
Outward and
outward and forever outward.
My sun has his
sun and round him obediently wheels,
He joins
with his partners a group of superior circuit,
And greater sets follow, making specks of the
greatest inside them.
There is no stoppage
and never can be stoppage,
If I, you, and the
worlds, and all beneath or upon their surfaces,
were this moment reduced back to a pallid
float, it would
not avail the long run,
We should surely bring up again where we now
stand,
And surely go as much farther, and
then farther and farther.
A few quadrillions
of eras, a few octillions of cubic leagues, do
not hazard the span or make it impatient,
They are but parts, any thing is but a part.
See ever so far, there is limitless space
outside of that,
Count ever so much, there is
limitless time around that.
My rendezvous is
appointed, it is certain,
The Lord will be
there and wait till I come on perfect terms,
The great Camerado, the lover true for whom I
pine will be there.
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I know I
have the best of time and space, and was never
measured and
never will be measured.
I
tramp a perpetual journey, (come listen all!)
My signs are a rain-proof coat, good shoes,
and a staff cut from the
woods,
No
friend of mine takes his ease in my chair,
I
have no chair, no church, no philosophy,
I
lead no man to a dinner-table, library, exchange,
But each man and each woman of you I lead upon
a knoll,
My left hand hooking you round the
waist,
My right hand pointing to landscapes
of continents and the public
road.
Not
I, not any one else can travel that road for you,
You must travel it for yourself.
It is
not far, it is within reach,
Perhaps you have
been on it since you were born and did not know,
Perhaps it is everywhere on water and on land.
Shoulder your duds dear son, and I will mine,
and let us hasten
forth,
Wonderful
cities and free nations we shall fetch as we go.
If you tire, give me both burdens, and rest
the chuff of your hand
on my hip,
And in
due time you shall repay the same service to me,
For after we start we never lie by again.
This day before dawn I ascended a hill and
look'd at the crowded
heaven,
And I said
to my spirit When we become the enfolders of those
orbs,
and the pleasure and knowledge of every
thing in them, shall we
be fill'd and
satisfied then?
And my spirit said No, we but
level that lift to pass and continue
beyond.
You are also asking me questions and I hear
you,
I answer that I cannot answer, you must
find out for yourself.
Sit a while dear son,
Here are biscuits to eat and here is milk to
drink,
But as soon as you sleep and renew
yourself in sweet clothes, I kiss
you
with a good-by kiss and open the gate for your
egress
hence.
Long enough have you
dream'd contemptible dreams,
Now I wash the
gum from your eyes,
You must habit yourself
to the dazzle of the light and of every
moment of your life.
Long have you
timidly waded holding a plank by the shore,
Now I will you to be a bold swimmer,
To
jump off in the midst of the sea, rise again, nod
to me, shout,
and laughingly dash with your
hair.
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I am the teacher of athletes,
He that by me spreads a wider breast than my
own proves the width
of my own,
He most
honors my style who learns under it to destroy the
teacher.
The boy I love, the same becomes a
man not through derived power,
but in his own
right,
Wicked rather than virtuous out of
conformity or fear,
Fond of his sweetheart,
relishing well his steak,
Unrequited love or
a slight cutting him worse than sharp steel cuts,
First-rate to ride, to fight, to hit the
bull's eye, to sail a
skiff, to sing a song
or play on the banjo,
Preferring scars and
the beard and faces pitted with small-pox over
all latherers,
And those well-tann'd to
those that keep out of the sun.
I teach
straying from me, yet who can stray from me?
I follow you whoever you are from the present
hour,
My words itch at your ears till you
understand them.
I do not say these things
for a dollar or to fill up the time while
I
wait for a boat,
(It is you talking just as
much as myself, I act as the tongue of
you,
Tied in your mouth, in mine it begins to be
loosen'd.)
I swear I will never again mention
love or death inside a house,
And I swear I
will never translate myself at all, only to him or
her
who privately stays with me in the open
air.
If you would understand me go to
the heights or water-shore,
The nearest gnat
is an explanation, and a drop or motion of waves
key,
The maul, the oar, the hand-saw,
second my words.
No shutter'd room or school
can commune with me,
But roughs and little
children better than they.
The young mechanic
is closest to me, he knows me well,
The
woodman that takes his axe and jug with him shall
take me with
him all day,
The farm-boy
ploughing in the field feels good at the sound of
my
voice,
In vessels that sail my words
sail, I go with fishermen and seamen
and love
them.
The soldier camp'd or upon the march is
mine,
On the night ere the pending battle
many seek me, and I do not fail
them,
On
that solemn night (it may be their last) those
that know me seek
me.
My face rubs to
the hunter's face when he lies down alone in his
blanket,
The driver thinking of me does
not mind the jolt of his wagon,
The young
mother and old mother comprehend me,
The girl
and the wife rest the needle a moment and forget
where they
are,
They and all would
resume what I have told them.
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I have
said that the soul is not more than the body,
And I have said that the body is not more than
the soul,
And nothing, not God, is greater to
one than one's self is,
And whoever walks a
furlong without sympathy walks to his own
funeral drest in his shroud,
And I or you
pocketless of a dime may purchase the pick of the
earth,
And to glance with an eye or show
a bean in its pod confounds the
learning of
all times,
And there is no trade or
employment but the young man following it
may
become a hero,
And there is no object so soft
but it makes a hub for the wheel'd
universe,
And I say to any man or woman, Let your soul
stand cool and composed
before a million
universes.
And I say to mankind, Be
not curious about God,
For I who am curious
about each am not curious about God,
(No
array of terms can say how much I am at peace
about God and
about death.)
I hear and
behold God in every object, yet understand God not
in the
least,
Nor do I understand who
there can be more wonderful than myself.
Why
should I wish to see God better than this day?
I see something of God each hour of the
twenty-four, and each moment
then,
In
the faces of men and women I see God, and in my
own face in the
glass,
I find letters
from God dropt in the street, and every one is
sign'd
by God's name,
And I leave them
where they are, for I know that wheresoe'er I go,
Others will punctually come for ever and ever.
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And as to you Death, and you bitter
hug of mortality, it is idle to
try to alarm
me.
To his work without flinching the
accoucheur comes,
I see the elder-hand
pressing receiving supporting,
I recline by
the sills of the exquisite flexible doors,
And mark the outlet, and mark the relief and
escape.
And as to you Corpse I think you are
good manure, but that does not
offend me,
I smell the white roses sweet-scented and
growing,
I reach to the leafy lips, I reach
to the polish'd breasts of
melons.
And
as to you Life I reckon you are the leavings of
many deaths,
(No doubt I have died myself ten
thousand times before.)
I hear you whispering
there O stars of heaven,
O suns - O grass of
graves - O perpetual transfers and promotions,
If you do not say any thing how can I say any
thing?
Of the turbid pool that lies in the
autumn forest,
Of the moon that descends the
steeps of the soughing twilight,
Toss,
sparkles of day and dusk - toss on the black stems
that decay
in the muck,
Toss to
the moaning gibberish of the dry limbs.
I
ascend from the moon, I ascend from the night,
I perceive that the ghastly glimmer is noonday
sunbeams reflected,
And debouch to the steady
and central from the offspring great or
small.
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There is that in me - I do
not know what it is - but I know it is in
me.
Wrench'd and sweaty - calm and cool then my
body becomes,
I sleep - I sleep long.
I
do not know it - it is without name - it is a word
unsaid,
It is not in any dictionary,
utterance, symbol.
Something it swings on
more than the earth I swing on,
To it the
creation is the friend whose embracing awakes me.
Perhaps I might tell more. Outlines! I plead
for my brothers and
sisters.
Do you see
O my brothers and sisters?
It is not chaos or
death - it is form, union, plan - it is eternal
life - it is Happiness.
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The past
and present wilt - I have fill'd them, emptied
them.
And proceed to fill my next fold of the
future.
Listener up there! what have you to
confide to me?
Look in my face while I snuff
the sidle of evening,
(Talk honestly, no one
else hears you, and I stay only a minute
longer.)
Do I contradict myself?
Very well then I contradict myself,
(I am
large, I contain multitudes.)
I concentrate
toward them that are nigh, I wait on the door-
slab.
Who has done his day's work? who will
soonest be through with his
supper?
Who
wishes to walk with me?
Will you speak
before I am gone? will you prove already too late?
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The spotted hawk swoops by and accuses
me, he complains of my gab
and my loitering.
I too am not a bit tamed, I too am
untranslatable,
I sound my barbaric yaws over
the roofs of the world.
The last scud of day
holds back for me,
It flings my likeness
after the rest and true as any on the shadow'd
wilds,
It coaxes me to the vapor and the
dusk.
I depart as air, I shake my white locks
at the runaway sun,
I effuse my flesh in
eddies, and drift it in lacy jags.
I bequeath
myself to the dirt to grow from the grass I love,
If you want me again look for me under your
boot-soles.
You will hardly know who I am or
what I mean,
But I shall be good health to
you nevertheless,
And filter and fibre your
blood.
Failing to fetch me at first keep
encouraged,
Missing me one place search
another,
I stop somewhere waiting for you.