老人与海 英文
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The Old Man and the Sea
By Ernest
Hemingway
He was an old man who fished
alone in a skiff in the Gulf Stream and he had
gone
eighty-four days now without taking a
fish. In the first forty days a boy had been with
him. But after forty days without a fish the
boy’s parents had told him that the old
man
was now definitely and finally salao, which is the
worst form of unlucky and the
boy had gone at
their orders in another boat which caught three
good fish the first
week. It made the boy sad
to see the old man come in each day with his skiff
empty
and he always went down to help him
carry either the coiled lines or the gaff and
harpoon and the sail that was furled around
the mast. The sail was patched with flour
sacks and, furled; it looked like the flag of
permanent defeat.
The old man was thin and
gaunt with deep wrinkles in the back of his neck.
The
brown blotches of the benevolent skin
cancer the sun brings from its reflection on the
tropic sea were on his cheeks. The blotches
ran well down the sides of his face and his
hands had the deep-creased scars from handling
heavy fish on the cords. But none of
these
scars were fresh. They were as old as erosions in
a fishless desert
Everything about him was old
except his eyes and they were the same color as
the .sea and were cheerful and undefeated
Santiago,” the boy said to him as they climbed
the bank from where the skiff was”
“.hauled
up.”I could go with you again. We’ve made some
money. The old man had
taught the boy to fish
and the boy loved him
“.No,” the old man said.
“You’re with a lucky boat. Stay with them”
“But remember how you went eighty-seven days
without fish and then we caught big
ones every
day for three weeks”
“I remember,” the old man
said. “I know you did not leave me because you
doubted.”
“.It was papa made me leave. “I am a
boy and I must obey him”
“.I know,” the old
man said. “It is quite normal”
“He hasn’t much
faith.”
“No,” the old man said. “But we have.
Haven’t we?”
Yes,” the boy said. “Can I offer
you a beer on the Terrace and then we’ll take the
stuff
home.”
“Why not?” the old man said.
“Between fishermen”
They sat on the
Terrace and many of the fishermen made fun of the
old man and he
was not angry. Others, of the
older fishermen, looked at him and were sad. But
they
did not show it and they spoke politely
about the current and the depths they had
drifted their lines at and the steady good
weather and of what they had seen. The
successful fishermen of that day were already
in and had butchered their marlin out
and
carried them laid full length across two planks,
with two men staggering at the
end of each
,plank to the fish house where they waited for the
ice truck to carry them
to the market in
Havana. Those who had caught sharks had taken them
to the shark
factory on the other side of the
cove where they were hoisted on a block and
tackle,
their livers removed, their fins cut
off and their hides skinned out and their flesh
cut
into strips for salting.
When the wind
was in the east a smell came across the harbour
from the shark factory;
but today there was
only the faint edge of the odour because the wind
had backed into
the north and then dropped off
and it was pleasant and sunny on the Terrace.
Santiago,” the boy said.
“Yes,” the old
man said. He was holding his glass and thinking of
many years ago.
Can I go out to get sardines
for you for tomorrow?”
“No. Go and play
baseball. I can still row and Rogelio will throw
the net”
“I would like to go. If I cannot fish
with you, I would like to serve in some way”
“.You bought me a beer,” the old man said.
“You are already a man”
“How old was I when
you first took me in a boat?”
Five and you
nearly were killed when I brought the fish in too
green and he nearly
tore the boat to pieces.
Can you remember?
I can remember the tail
slapping and banging and the thwart breaking and
the noise of
the clubbing. I can remember you
throwing me into the bow where the wet coiled
lines were and feeling the whole boat shiver
and the noise of you clubbing him like
chopping a tree down and the sweet blood smell
all over me.”
“Can you really remember that or
did I just tell it to you?”
“I remember
everything from when we first went together.”
The old man looked at him with his sun-burned,
confident loving eyes.
If you were my boy I’d
take you out and gamble,” he said. “But you are
your “father’s
and your mother’s and you are
in a lucky boat.”
“May I get the sardines? I
know where I can get four baits too”
“I have
mine left from today. I put them in salt in the
box”
“.Let me get four fresh ones”
One,” the old man said. His hope and
his confidence had never gone. But now they
were freshening as when the breeze rises.
“ Two,” the boy said”
“Two,” the old man
agreed. “You didn’t steal them?”
“I would,”
the boy said. “But I bought these”
“Thank
you,” the old man said. He was too simple to
wonder when he had attained
humility. But he
knew he had attained it and he knew it was not
disgraceful and it
carried no loss of true
pride.
“Tomorrow is going to be a good day
with this current,” he said”
“Where are you
going?” the boy asked”
“Far out to come in
when the wind shifts. I want to be out before it
is light.”
I’ll try to get him to work far
out,” the boy said.
“Then if you hook
something truly big we can come to your aid.”
“He does not like to work too far out,”
No,” the boy said. “But I will see something
that he cannot see such as a bird working
and
get him to come out after dolphin.”
“Are his
eyes that bad?”
“He is almost blind.”
“It
is strange,” the old man said. “He never went
turtle-ing. That is what kills the
eyes.”
“But you went turtle-ing for years off the
Mosquito Coast and your eyes are goods.”
“I am
a strange old man.”
“But are you strong enough
now for a truly big fish?”
“I think so. And
there are many tricks.”
Let us take the stuff
home,” the boy said. “So I can get the cast net
and go after the
sardines.”
They picked up
the gear from the boat. The old man carried the
mast on his shoulder
and the boy carried the
wooden boat with the coiled, hard-braided brown
lines, the
gaff and the harpoon with its
shaft. The box with the baits was under the stern
of the
skiff along with the club that was used
to subdue the big fish when they were brought
alongside. No one would steal from the old man
but it was better to take the sail and
the heavy lines home as the dew was bad
for them and, though he was quite sure no
local people would steal from him, the old man
thought that a gaff and a harpoon
were
needless temptations to leave in a boat.
They
walked up the road together to the old man’s shack
and went in through its open
door. The old man
leaned the mast with its wrapped sail against the
wall and the boy
put the box and the other
gear beside it. The mast was nearly as long as the
one room
of the shack. The shack was made of
the tough budshields of the royal palm which are
called guano and in it there was a bed, a
table, one chair, and a place on the dirt floor
to cook with charcoal. On the brown walls of
the flattened, overlapping leaves of the
sturdy fibered guano there was a picture in
color of the Sacred Heart of Jesus and
another
of the Virgin of Cobre. These were relics of his
wife. Once there had been a
tinted photograph
of his wife on the wall but he had taken it down
because it made
him too lonely to see it and
it was on the shelf in the corner under his clean
shirt.
What do you have to eat?” the boy
asked.
“A pot of yellow rice with fish. Do you
want some?”
“No. I will eat at home. Do you
want me to make the fire?” “.No. I will make it
later
on. Or I may eat the rice cold”
“May I take the cast net”
“Of course.”
There was no cast net and the boy remembered
when they had sold it. But they went
through
this fiction every day. There was no pot of yellow
rice and fish and the boy
knew this too.
“Eighty-five is a lucky number,” the old man
said. “How would you like to see me
bring one
in that dressed out over a thousand pounds?”
“I’ll get the cast net and go for sardines.
Will you sit in the sun in the doorway?”
“Yes.
I have yesterday’s paper and I will read the
baseball.” The boy did not” know
whether
yesterday’s paper was a fiction too. But the old
man brought it out from
under the bed.
Perico gave it to me at the bodega,” he
explained.
“I’ll be back when I have the”
sardines. I’ll keep yours and mine together on ice
and
we can share them in the morning
“When
I come back you can tell me about the baseball.”
“The Yankees cannot lose”
“But I fear the
Indians of Cleveland.”
“Have faith in
the Yankees my son. Think of the great DiMaggio”
“I fear both the Tigers of Detroit and the
Indians of Cleveland.”
“Be careful or you will
fear even the Reds of Cincinnati and the White Fox
of
Chicago.”
“You study it and tell me
when I come back.”
“Do you think we should buy
a terminal of the lottery with an eighty-five?
Tomorrow
is the eighty-fifth day.”
“We can
do that,” the boy said. “But what about the
eighty-seven of your great
record?”
“It
could not happen twice. Do you think you can find
an eighty-five?”
“1 can order one”
“ One
sheet. That’s two dollars and a half. Who can we
borrow that from?”
“That’s easy. I can always
borrow two dollars and a half.”
“I think
perhaps I can too. But I try not to borrow. First
you borrow. Then you beg.”
“Keep warm old
man,” the boy said. “Remember we are in
September.”
“The month when the great fish
come,” the old man said. “Anyone can be a
fisherman
in May.”
“1 go now for the
sardines,” the boy said”
When the boy came
back the old man was asleep in the chair and the
sun was down.
The boy took the old army
blanket off the bed and spread it over the back of
the chair
and over the old man’s shoulders.
They were strange shoulders, still powerful
although very old, and the neck was still
strong too and the creases did not show so
much when the old man was asleep and his head
fallen forward. His shirt had been
patched so
many times that it was like the sail and the
patches were faded to many
different shades by
the sun. The old man’s head was very old though
and with his
eyes closed there was no life in
his face. The newspaper lay across his knees and
the
weight of his arm held it there in the
evening breeze. He was barefooted.
The boy
left him there and when he came back the old man
was still asleep.
“ Wake up old man,” the boy
said and put his hand on one of the old man’s
knees”
The old man opened his eyes and for a
moment he was coming back from a long way
away. Then he smiled.
“What have you got?”
he asked.
“.Supper,” said the boy.
“We’re going to have supper”
“I’m not very
hungry”
“Come on and eat. You can’t fish and
not eat.”
I have,” the old man said getting up
and taking the newspaper and folding it. Then he
started to fold the blanket.
“Keep the
blanket around you,” the boy said. “You’ll not
fish without eating while
I’m alive.”
Then
live a long time and take care of yourself,” the
old man said. “What are we”
Eating?”
“Black beans and rice, fried bananas, and some
stew”
.The boy had brought them in a two-
decker metal container from the Terrace The two
sets of knives and forks and spoons were in
his pocket with a paper napkin wrapped
around
each set.
“Who gave this to you”
“Martin.
The owner.”
“.I must thank him”
“.I
thanked him already,” the boy said. “You don’t
need to thank him.”
“I’ll give him the belly
meat of a big fish,” the old man said. “Has he
done this for us
more than once?
“.I think
so”
“I must give him something more than the
belly meat then. He is very thoughtful for
us.”
“He sent two beers”
“.I like the
beer in cans best”
“.I know. But this is in
bottles, Hatuey beer, and I take back the
bottles.”
“That’s very kind of you,” the old
man said. “Should we eat?”
“I’ve been asking
you too,” the boy told him gently. “I have not
wished to open the
container until you were
ready.”
“I’m ready now,” the old man said. “I
only needed time to wash.”
Where did
you wash? the boy thought. The village water
supply was two streets down
the road. I must
have water here for him, the boy thought, and soap
and a good towel.
Why am I so thoughtless? I
must get him another shirt and a jacket for the
winter and
some sort of shoes and another
blanket.
“Your stew is excellent,” the old man
said.
“Tell me about the baseball,” the boy
asked him.
“In the American League it is the
Yankees as I said,” the old man said happily.”
“The lost today,” the boy told him”
“That
means nothing. The great DiMaggio is himself
again”
“They have other men on the team.”
“Naturally. But he makes the difference. In
the other league, between Brooklyn And
Philadelphia I must take Brooklyn. But then I
think of Dick Sisler and those great
drives in
the old park.”
“There was nothing ever like
them. He hits the longest ball I have ever seen.”
“Do you remember when he used to come to the
Terrace?” I wanted to take him
fishing but I
was too timid to ask him. Then I asked you to ask
him and you were too
timid.”
“I know. It
was a great mistake. He might have gone with us.
Then we would have
that for all of our lives.”
“I would like to take the great DiMaggio
fishing,” the old man said. “They say his
father was a fisherman. Maybe he was as poor
as we are and would understand.”
“The great
Sisler’s father was never poor and he, the father,
was playing in the Big
Leagues when he was my
age.”
“When I was your age I was before the
mast on a square rigged ship that ran to Africa
and I have seen lions on the beaches in the
evening.”
“I know. You told me”
“Should we
talk about Africa or about baseball?”
“Baseball I think,” the boy said. “Tell me
about the great John J. McGraw.” He said
Jota
for J.
“He used to come to the Terrace
sometimes too in the older days. But he was rough
and harsh-spoken and difficult when he was
drinking. His mind was on horses as well
as
baseball. At least he carried lists of
horses at all times in his pocket and frequently
spoke the names of horses on the telephone.”
“He was a great manager,” the boy said. “My
father thinks he was the greatest.”
Because
he came here the most times,” the old man said.
“If Durocher had continued to come here each
year your father would think him the
greatest
manager.”
“Who is the greatest manager,
really, Luque or Mike Gonzalez?”
“I think they
are equal.”
“And the best fisherman is you”
“No. I know others better.”
“Que Va,” the
boy said. “There are many good fishermen and some
great ones. But
there is only you.”
“Thank
you. You make me happy. I hope no fish will come
along so great that he will
prove us wrong.”
“There is no such fish if you are still strong
as you say.”
I may not be as strong as I
think,” the old man said. “But I know many tricks
and I
have resolution.”
“You ought to go
to bed now so that you will be fresh in the
morning. I will take the
things back to the
Terrace.”
“Good night then. I will wake you in
the morning.”
“You’re my alarm clock,” the
boy said”
“Age is my alarm clock,” the old man
said. “Why do old men wake so early? Is it to
have one longer day?”
“.I don’t know,” the
boy said. “All I know is that young boys sleep
late and hard.”
“I can remember it,” the old
man said. “I’ll waken you in time.”
“I do not
like for him to waken me. It is as though I were
inferior.”
“I know.”
“Sleep well old man.”
The boy went out. They had eaten with no light
on the table and the old man took
off ,his
trousers and went to bed in the dark. He rolled
his trousers up to make a
pillow
putting the newspaper inside them. He rolled
himself in the blanket and slept
on the other
old newspapers that covered the springs of the bed
He was asleep in a short time and he dreamed
of Africa when he was a boy and the
long
golden beaches and the white beaches, so white
they hurt your eyes, and the high
capes and
the great brown mountains. He lived along that
coast now every night and
in his dreams he
heard the surf roar and saw the native boats come
riding through it.
He smelled the tar and
oakum of the deck as he slept and he smelled the
smell of
Africa that the land breeze brought
at morning.
Usually when he smelled the land
breeze he woke up and dressed to go and wake the
boy. But tonight the smell of the land breeze
came very early and he knew it was too
early
in his dream and went on dreaming to see the white
peaks of the Islands rising
from the sea and
then he dreamed of the different harbours and
roadsteads of the
CanaryIslands.
He no
longer dreamed of storms, nor of women, nor of
great occurrences, nor of great
fish, nor
fights, nor contests of strength, nor of his wife.
He only dreamed of places
now and of the lions
on the beach. They played like young cats in the
dusk and he
loved them as he loved the boy. He
never dreamed about the boy. He simply woke,
looked out the open door at the moon and
unrolled his trousers and put them on. He
urinated outside the shack and then went up
the road to wake the boy. He was
shivering
with the morning cold. But he knew he would shiver
himself warm and that
soon he would be rowing.
The door of the house where the boy lived was
unlocked and he opened it and walked
in
quietly with his bare feet. The boy was asleep on
a cot in the first room and the old
man could
see him clearly with the light that came in from
the dying moon. He took
hold of one foot
gently and held it until the boy woke and turned
and looked at him.
The old man nodded and the
boy took his trousers from the chair by the bed
and,
sitting on the bed, pulled them on.
The old man went out the door and the boy came
after him. He was sleepy and the
“.old man put
his arm across his shoulders and said, “I am sorry
“.Qua Va,” the boy said. “It is what a man
must do.”
They walked down the road to the old
man’s shack and all along the road, in the dark,
barefoot men were moving, carrying the masts
of their boats.
When they reached the old
man’s shack the boy took the rolls of line in the
basket and
the harpoon and gaff and the old
man carried the mast with the furled sail on
his .shoulder.
“Do you want coffee?” the
boy asked”
“We’ll put the gear in the boat and
then get some.”
They had coffee from
condensed milk cans at an early morning place that
served
fishermen.
How did you sleep old
man?” the boy asked. He was waking up now although
it was
still hard for him to leave his sleep.”
“Very well, Manolin,” the old man said. “I
feel confident today”
So do I,” the boy said.
“Now I must get your sardines and mine and your
fresh baits.
“He brings our gear himself. He
never wants anyone to carry anything.”
“We’re
different,” the old man said. “I let you carry
things when you were five years
old’”
I
know it,” the boy said. “I’ll be right back. Have
another coffee. We have credit
here.”
He
walked off, bare-footed on the coral rocks, to the
ice house where the baits were
stored.
The
old man drank his coffee slowly. It was all he
would have all day and he knew
that he should
take it. For a long time now eating had bored him
and he never carried
a lunch. He had a bottle
of water in the bow of the skiff and that was all
he needed for
the day.
The boy was back
now with the sardines and the two baits wrapped in
a newspaper
and they went down the trail to
the skiff, feeling the pebbled sand under their
feet,
and .lifted the skiff and slid her into
the water.”
“Good luck old man.”
Good
luck, the old man said. He fitted the rope
lashings of the oars onto the thole pins
and,
leaning forward against the thrust of the blades
in the water, he began to row out
of the
harbor in the dark. There were other boats from
the other beaches going out to
sea and the old
man heard the dip and push of their oars even
though he could not see
them now the moon was
below the hills.
Sometimes someone would speak
in a boat. But most of the boats were silent
except
for the dip of the oars. They spread
apart after they were out of the mouth of the
harbor and each one headed for the part of the
ocean where he hoped to find fish. The
old man
knew he was going far out and he left the smell of
the land behind and rowed
out into the clean
early morning smell of the ocean. He saw the
phosphorescence of
the Gulf weed in the water
as he rowed over the part of the ocean that the
fishermen
called the great well because there
was a sudden deep of seven hundred fathoms
where all sorts offish congregated because of
the swirl the current made against the
steep
walls of the floor of the ocean. Here there were
concentrations of shrimp and
bait fish and
sometimes schools of squid in the deepest holes
and these rose close to
the surface at night
where all the wandering fish fed on them.
In the dark the old man could feel the
morning coming and as he rowed he heard the
trembling sound as flying fish left the water
and the hissing that their stiff set wings
made as they soared away in the darkness. He
was very fond of flying fish as they
were his
principal friends on the ocean. He was sorry for
the birds, especially the
small delicate dark
terns that were always flying and looking and
almost never finding,
and he, thought the
birds have a harder life than we do except for the
robber birds and
the heavy strong ones. Why
did they make birds so delicate and fine as those
sea
swallows when the ocean can be so cruel?
She is kind and very beautiful. But she can
be
so cruel and it comes so suddenly and such birds
that fly, dipping and hunting, with
their
small sad voices are made too delicately for the
sea.
He always thought of the sea as la mar
which is what people call her in Spanish when
they love her. Sometimes those who love her
say bad things of her but they are always
said
as though she were a woman. Some of the younger
fishermen, those who used
buoys as floats for
their lines and had motorboats, bought when the
shark livers had
brought much money, spoke of
her as el mar which is masculine. They spoke of
her as
a contestant or a place or even an
enemy. But the old man always thought of her as
feminine and as something that gave or
withheld great favours, and if she did wild or
wicked things it was because she could not
help them. The moon affects her as it does
a
woman, he thought
He was rowing steadily and
it was no effort for him since he kept well within
his
speed and the surface of the ocean was
flat except for the occasional swirls of the
current. He was letting the current do a third
of the work and as it started to be light he
saw he was already further out than he had
hoped to be at this hour.
I worked the deep
wells for a week and did nothing, he thought.
Today I’ll work out
where the schools of
bonito and albacore are and maybe there will be a
big one with
them.
Before it was really
light he had his baits out and was drifting with
the current. One
bait was down forty fathoms.
The second was at seventy-five and the third
and fourth were down in the blue water
at one
hundred and one hundred and twenty-five fathoms.
Each bait hung head down
with the shank of the
hook inside the bait fish, tied and sewed solid
and all the
projecting part of the hook, the
curve and the point, was covered with fresh
sardines.
Each sardine was hooked through both
eyes so that they made a half-garland on the
projecting steel. There was no part of the
hook that a great fish could feel which was
not sweet smelling and good tasting.
The
boy had given him two fresh small tunas, or
albacores, which hung on the two
deepest lines
like plummets and, on the others, he had a big
blue runner and a yellow
jack that had been
used before; but they were in good condition still
and had the
excellent sardines to give them
scent and attractiveness. Each line, as thick
around as
a big pencil, was looped onto a
green-sapped stick so that any pull or touch on
the bait
would make the stick dip and
each line had two forty-fathom coils which could
be
made fast to the other spare coils so that,
if it were necessary, a fish could take out
over three hundred fathoms of line
Now the
man watched the dip of the three sticks over the
side of the skiff and rowed
gently to keep the
lines straight up and down and at their proper
depths. It was quite
light and any moment now
the sun would rise.
The sun rose thinly from
the sea and the old man could see the other boats,
low on the
water and well in toward the shore,
spread out across the current. Then the sun was
brighter and the glare came on the water and
then, as it rose clear, the flat sea sent it
back at his eyes so that it hurt sharply and
he rowed without looking into it. He looked
down into the water and watched the lines that
went straight down into the dark of the
water.
He kept them straighter than anyone did, so that
at each level in the darkness of
the stream
there would be bait waiting exactly where he
wished it to be for any fish
that swam there.
Others let them drift with the current and
sometimes they were at
sixty fathoms when the
fishermen thought they were at a hundred.
But,
he thought, I keep them with precision. Only I
have no luck any more. But who
knows? May be
today. Every day is a new day. It is better to be
lucky. But I would
rather be exact. Then when
luck comes you are ready
The sun was two hours
higher now and it did not [32] hurt his eyes so
much to look
into the east. There were only
three boats in sight now and they showed very low
and
far inshore.
All my life the early sun
has hurt my eyes, he thought. Yet they are still
good. In the
evening I can look straight into
it without getting the blackness. It has more
force in
the evening too. But in the morning
it is painful.
Just then he saw a man-of-war
bird with his long black wings circling in the sky
ahead
of him. He made a quick drop, slanting
down on his back-swept wings, and then
circled
again.
“He’s got something,” the old man said
aloud. “He’s not just looking.”
He rowed
slowly and steadily toward where the bird was
circling. He did not hurry
and he kept his
lines straight up and down. But he crowded the
current a little so that
he was still fishing
correctly though faster than he would have fished
if he was not
trying to use the bird.
The
bird went higher in the air and circled again, his
wings motionless. Then he dove
suddenly and
the old man saw flying fish spurt out of the water
and sail desperately
over the surface.
“Dolphin,” the old man said aloud. “Big
dolphin.”
He shipped his oars and
brought a small line from under the bow. It had a
wire leader
and a medium-sized hook and he
baited it with one of the sardines. He let it go
over
the side and then made it fast to a ring
bolt in the stern. Then he baited another line
and left it coiled in the shade of the bow. He
went back to rowing and to watching the
long-
winged black bird who was working, now, low over
the water.
As he watched the bird dipped again
slanting his wings for the dive and then swinging
them wildly and ineffectually as he followed
the flying fish. The old man could see
the
slight bulge in the water that the big dolphin
raised as they followed the escaping
fish. The
dolphin were cutting through the water below the
flight of the fish and
would be in the water,
driving at speed, when the fish dropped. It is a
big school of
dolphin, he thought. They are
widespread and the flying fish have little chance.
The
bird has no chance. The flying fish are
too big for him and they go too fast.
He
watched the flying fish burst out again and again
and the ineffectual movements of
the bird.
That school has gotten away from me, he thought.
They are moving out too
fast and too far. But
perhaps I will pick up a stray and perhaps my big
fish is around
them. My big fish must be
somewhere.
The clouds over the land now rose
like mountains and the coast was only a long green
line with the gray blue hills behind it. The
water was a dark blue now, so dark that it
was
almost purple. As he looked down into it he saw
the red sifting of the plankton in
the dark
water and the strange light the sun made now. He
watched his lines to see
them go straight down
out of sight into the water and he was happy to
see so much
plankton because it meant fish.
The strange light the sun made in the water, now
that
the sun was higher, meant good weather
and so did the shape of the clouds over the
land. But the bird was almost out of sight now
and nothing showed on the surface of
the water
but some ,patches of yellow, sun-bleached Sargasso
weed and the purple,
formalized, iridescent
gelatinous bladder of a Portuguese man-of-war
floating dose
beside the boat. It turned on
its side and then righted itself. It floated
cheerfully as a
bubble with its long deadly
purple filaments trailing a yard behind it in the
water.
“Agua mala,” the man said. “You whore.”
From where he swung lightly against his oars
he looked down into the water and Saw
the tiny
fish that [35] were coloured like the trailing
filaments and swam between
them and under the
small shade the bubble made as it drifted. They
were immune to
its poison. But men were not
and when same of the filaments would catch on a
line
and rest there slimy and purple while the
old man was working a fish, he would have
welts and sores on his arms and hands of the
sort that poison ivy or poison oak can
give.
But these poisonings from the agua mala came
quickly and struck like a
whiplash.
The
iridescent bubbles were beautiful. But they were
the falsest thing in the sea
and ,the old man
loved to see the big sea turtles eating them. The
turtles saw them
approached them from the
front, then shut their eyes so they were
completely
carapaced and ate them
filaments and all. The old man loved to see the
turtles eat
them and he loved to walk on them
on the beach after a storm and hear them pop
when he stepped on them with the horny soles
of his feet.
He loved green turtles and hawk-
bills with their elegance and speed and their
great
value and he had a friendly contempt for
the huge, stupid loggerheads, yellow in their
armour-plating, strange in their love-making,
and happily eating the Portuguese
men-of-war
with their eyes shut.
He had no mysticism
about turtles although he had gone in turtle boats
for many years.
He was sorry for them all,
even the great trunk backs that were as long as
the skiff and
weighed a ton. Most people are
heartless about turtles because a turtle’s heart
will
beat for hours after he has been cut up
and butchered. But the old man thought, I have
such a heart too and my feet and hands are
like theirs. He ate the white eggs to give
himself strength. He ate them all through May
to be strong in September and October
for the
truly big fish.
He also drank a cup of shark
liver oil each day from the big drum in the shack
where
many of the fishermen kept their gear.
It was there for all fishermen who wanted it.
Most fishermen hated the taste. But it was no
worse than getting up at the hours that
they
rose and it was very good against all colds and
grippes and it was good for the
eyes.
Now
the old man looked up and saw that the bird was
circling again.
He’s found fish,” he said
aloud. No flying fish broke the surface and there
was no
scattering of bait fish. But as the old
man watched, a small tuna rose in the air turned
and dropped head first into the water. The
tuna shone silver in the sun and after he had
dropped back into the water another and
another rose and they were jumping in all
directions, churning the water and leaping in
long jumps after the bait. They were
circling
it and driving it.
If they don’t travel too
fast I will get into them, the old man thought,
and he watched
the school working the water
white and the bird now dropping and dipping into
the
bait fish that were forced to the surface
in their panic.
“The bird is a great help,”
the old man said. Just then the stern line came
taut under
his foot, where he had kept a loop
of the line, and he dropped his oars and felt tile
weight of the small tuna’s shivering pull as
he held the line firm and commenced to
haul it
in. The shivering increased as he pulled in and he
could see the blue back of
the fish in the
water and the gold of his sides before he swung
him over the side and
into the boat. He lay in
the stern in the sun, compact and bullet shaped,
his big,
unintelligent eyes staring as he
thumped his life out against the planking of the
boat
with the quick shivering strokes of his
neat, fast-moving [38] tail. The old man hit
him on the head for kindness and kicked him,
his body still shuddering, under the
shade of
the stern.
“.Albacore,” he said aloud.
“He’ll make a beautiful bait. He’ll weigh ten
pounds”
He did not remember when he had first
started to talk aloud when he was by himself.
He had sung when he was by himself in the old
days and he had sung at night
sometimes when
he was alone steering on his watch in the smacks
or in the turtle
boats. He had probably
started to talk aloud, when alone, when the boy
had left. But
he did not remember. When he and
the boy fished together they usually spoke only
when it was necessary. They talked at night or
when they were storm-bound by bad
weather. It
was considered a virtue not to talk unnecessarily
at sea and the old man
had always considered
it so and respected it. But now he said his
thoughts aloud many
times since there was no
one that they could annoy.
“If the others
heard me talking out loud they would think that I
am crazy,” he said”
aloud. “But since I am not
crazy, I do not care. And the rich have radios to
talk to
them in their boats and to bring them
the baseball.”
Now is no time to think of
baseball, he thought. Now is the time to think of
only one
thing. That which I was born for.
There might be a big one around that school, he
thought. I picked up only a straggler from the
albacore that were feeding. But they are
working far out and fast. Everything that
shows on the surface today travels very fast
and to the north-east. Can that be the time of
day? Or is it some sign of weather that I
do
not know?
He could not see the green of the
shore now but only the tops of the blue hills that
showed white as though they were snow-capped
and the clouds that looked like high
snow
mountains above them. The sea was very dark and
the light made prisms in the
water. The myriad
flecks of the plankton were annulled now by the
high sun and it
was only the great deep prisms
in the blue water that the old man saw now with
his
lines going straight down into the water
that was a mile deep.
The tuna, the fishermen
called all the fish of that species tuna and only
distinguished
among them by their proper names
when they came to sell them or to trade them for
baits, were down again. The sun was hot now
and the old man felt it on the back of
his
neck and felt the sweat trickle down his back as
he rowed.
I could just drift, he thought, and
sleep and put a bight of line around my toe to
wake
me. But today is eighty-five days and I
should fish the day well.
Just then, watching
his lines, he saw one of the projecting the boat.
He reached out for
the line and held it softly
between the thumb and forefinger of his right
hand. He felt
no strain nor weight and he held
the line lightly. Then it came again. This time it
was
a tentative pull, not solid nor heavy, and
he knew exactly what it was. One hundred
fathoms down a marlin was eating the sardines
that covered the point and the shank of
the
hook where the hand-forged hook projected from the
head of the small tuna.
The old man
held the line delicately, and softly, with his
left hand, unleashed it from
the stick. Now he
could let it run through his fingers without the
fish feeling any
tension.
This far out, he
must be huge in this month, he thought. Eat them,
fish. Eat them.
Please eat them. Now fresh
they are and you down there six hundred feet in
that cold
water in the dark. Make another turn
in the dark and come back and eat them.
He
felt the light delicate pulling and then a harder
pull when a sardine’s head must
have been more
difficult to break from the hook. Then there was
nothing.
“Come on,” the old man said aloud.
“Make another turn. Just smell them. Aren’t they
lovely? Eat them good now and then there is
the tuna. Hard and cold and lovely.
Don’t be
shy, fish. Eat them.”
He waited with the line
between his thumb and his finger, watching it and
the other
lines at the same time for the fish
might have swum up or down. Then came the
same
.delicate pulling touch again
“He’ll take it,”
the old man said aloud. “God help him to take it”
He did not take it though. He was gone and the
old man felt nothing.
“He can’t have gone,” he
said. “Christ knows he can’t have gone. He’s
making a turn.
Maybe he has been hooked before
and he remembers something of it.
Then he felt
the gentle touch on the line and he was happy.
“It was only his turn,” he said. “He’ll take
it” He was happy feeling the gentle pulling
and then he felt something hard and,
unbelievably heavy. It was the weight of the fish
and he let the line slip down, down down,
unrolling off the first of the two reserve
coils. As it went down, slipping lightly
through the old man’s fingers, he still could
feel the great weight, though the pressure of
his thumb and finger were almost
imperceptible.
“What a fish,” he said. “He
was moving it sideways in his mouth now and he is
moving off with it.”
Then he will turn and
swallow it, he thought. He did not say that
because he knew that
if you said a good thing
it might not happen. He knew what a huge fish this
was and
he thought of him moving away in the
darkness with the tuna held crosswise in his
mouth. At that moment he felt him stop moving
but the weight was still there. Then
the
weight increased and he gave more line. He
tightened the pressure of his thumb
and finger
for a moment and the weight increased and was
going straight down.
“He’s taken it,” he said.
“Now I’ll let him eat it well.” He let the line
slip through his
fingers while he reached down
with his left hand and made fast the free end of
the two
reserve coils to the loop of the two
reserve coils of the next line. Now he was ready.
He had three forty-fathom coils of line
in reserve now, as well as the coil he was
using.
“.Eat it a little more,” he said.
“Eat it well.”
Eat it so that the point of the
hook goes into your heart and kills you, he
thought.
Come up easy and let me put the
harpoon into you. All right. Are you ready? Have
you been long enough at table?
“Now!” he
said aloud and struck hard with both hands, gained
a yard of line and then
struck again and
again, swinging with each arm alternately on the
cord with all the
strength of his arms and the
pivoted weight of his body.
Nothing happened.
The fish just moved away slowly and the old man
could not raise
him an inch. His line was
strong and made for heavy fish and he held it
against his
hack until it was so taut that
beads of water were jumping from it. Then it began
to
make a slow hissing sound in the water and
he still held it, bracing himself against the
thwart and leaning back against the pull. The
boat began to move slowly off toward
the
North-West.
The fish moved steadily and they
travelled slowly on the calm water. The other
baits
were still in the water but there was
nothing to be done.
I wish I had the boy” the
old man said aloud. “I’m being towed by a fish and
I’m
being
Towards by a fish and I’m the
towing bitt. I could make the line fast. But then
he
could break it. I must hold him all I can
and give him line when he must have it.
Thank
God he is travelling and not going down.
What
I will do if he decides to go down, I don’t know.
What I’ll do if he sounds and
dies I don’t
know. But I’ll do something. There are plenty of
things I can do.
He held the line against his
back and watched its slant in the water and the
skiff
moving steadily to the North-West.
This will kill him, the old man thought. He
can’t do this forever. But four hours later
the fish was still swimming steadily out to
sea, towing the skiff, and the old man was
still braced solidly with the line across his
back.
“It was noon when I hooked him,” he
said. “And I have never seen him.”
He had
pushed his straw hat hard down on his head before
he hooked the fish and it
was cutting his
forehead. He was thirsty too and he got down on
his knees and, being
careful not to jerk on
the line, moved as far into the bow as he could
get and reached
the water bottle with one
hand. He opened it and drank a little. Then he
rested against
the bow. He rested sitting on
the un-stepped mast and sail and tried not to
think but
only to endure.
Then he
looked behind him and saw that no land was
visible. That makes no
difference, he thought.
I can always come in on the glow from Havana.
There are two
more hours before the sun sets
and maybe he will come up before that. If he
doesn’t
maybe he will come up with the moon.
If he does not do that maybe he will come up
with the sunrise. I have no cramps and I feel
strong. It is he that has the hook in his
mouth But what a fish to pull like that. He
must have his mouth shut tight on the wire.
I
wish I could see him. I wish I could see him only
once to know what I have against
me.
The
fish never changed his course nor his direction
all that night as far as the man
could tell
from watching the stars. It was cold after the sun
went down and the old
man’s sweat dried cold
on his back and his arms and his old legs. During
the day he
had taken the sack that covered the
bait box and spread it in the sun to dry. After
the
sun went down he tied it around his neck
so that it hung down over his back and he
cautiously worked it down under the line that
was across his shoulders now. The sack
cushioned the line and he had found a way of
leaning forward against the bow so that
he was
almost comfortable. The position actually was only
somewhat less intolerable;
but he thought of
it as almost comfortable.
I can do nothing
with him and he can do nothing with me, he
thought. Not as long as
he keeps this up.
Once he stood up and urinated over the side of
the skiff and looked at the stars and
checked
his course. The line showed like a phosphorescent
streak in the water straight
out from his
shoulders. They were moving more slowly now and
the glow of Havana
was not so strong, so that
he knew the current must be carrying them to the
eastward.
If I lose the glare of Havana we
must be going more to the eastward, he thought.
For
if the fish’s course held true I must see
it for many more hours. I wonder how the
baseball came out in the grand leagues today,
he thought. It would be wonderful to do
this
with a radio. Then he thought, think of it always.
Think of what you are doing.
You must do
nothing stupid.
Then he said aloud, “I wish I
had the boy. To help me and to see this.”
No
one should be alone in their old age, he thought.
But it is unavoidable. I must
remember to eat
the tuna before he spoils in order to keep strong.
Remember, no
matter how little you want to,
that you must eat him in the morning. Remember, he
said to himself.
During the night two
porpoises came around the boat and he could hear
them rolling
and blowing. He could tell the
difference between the blowing noise the male made
and the sighing blow of the female.
They
are good,” he said. “They play and make jokes and
love one another. They are
our brothers like
the flying fish.”
Then he began to pity
the great fish that he had hooked. He is wonderful
and strange
and who knows how old he is, he
thought. Never have I had such a strong fish nor
one
who acted so strangely. Perhaps he is too
wise to jump. He could ruin me by jumping
or
by a wild rush. But perhaps he has been hooked
many times before and he knows
that this is
how he should make his fight. He cannot know that
it is only one man
against him, nor that it is
an old man. But what a great fish he is and what
will he
bring in the market if the flesh is
good. He took the bait like a male and he pulls
like a
male and his fight has no panic in it.
I wonder if he has any plans or if he is just as
desperate as I am?
He remembered the time
he had hooked one of a pair of marlin. The male
fish always
let the female fish feed first and
the hooked fish, the female, made a wild
panic-stricken, despairing fight that soon
exhausted her, and all the time the male had
stayed with her, crossing the line and
circling with her on the surface. He had stayed
so close that the old man was afraid he would
cut the line with his tail which was
sharp as
a scythe and almost of that size and shape. When
the old man had gaffed her
and clubbed her,
holding the rapier bill with its sandpaper edge
and dubbing her
across the top of her head
until her color turned to a color almost like the
backing of
mirrors, and then, with the boy’s
aid, hoisted her aboard, the male fish had stayed
by
the side of the boat. Then, while the old
man was clearing the lines and preparing the
harpoon, the male fish jumped high into the
air beside the boat to see where the
female
was and then went down deep, his lavender wings,
that were his pectoral fins,
spread wide and
all his wide lavender stripes showing. He was
beautiful, the old man
remembered, and he had
stayed.
That was the saddest thing I ever saw
with them, the old man thought. The boy was
sad too and we begged her pardon and butchered
her promptly.
“I wish the boy was here,” he
said aloud and settled himself against the rounded
planks of the bow and felt the strength of the
great fish through the line he held across
his
shoulders moving steadily toward whatever he had
chosen.
When once, through my treachery, it
had been necessary to him to make a choice the
old man thought.
His choice had been to
stay in the deep dark water far out beyond all
snares and traps
and treacheries. My choice
was to go there to find him beyond all people.
Beyond all
people in the world. Now we are
joined together and have been since noon. And no
one to help either one of us.
Perhaps I
should not have been a fisherman, he thought. But
that was the thing that .1
was born for. I
must surely remember to eat the tuna after it gets
light.
Some time before daylight something
took one of the baits that were behind him. He
heard the stick break and the line begin to
rush out over the gunwale of the skiff. In
the
darkness he loosened his sheath knife and taking
all the strain of the fish on his
left
shoulder he leaned back and cut the line against
the wood of the gunwale. Then he
cut
the other line closest to him and in the dark made
the loose ends of the reserve
coils fast. He
worked skillfully with the one hand and put his
foot on the coils to hold
them as he drew his
knots tight. Now he had six reserve coils of line.
There were two
from each bait he had severed
and the two from the bait the fish had taken and
they
were all connected.
After it is
light, he thought, I will work back to the forty-
fathom bait and cut it away
too and link up
the reserve coils. I will have lost two hundred
fathoms of good
Catalan cardel and the hooks
and leaders. That can be replaced. But who
replaces this
fish if I hook some fish and it
cuts him off? I don’t know what that fish was that
took
the bait just now. It could have been a
marlin or a broadbill or a shark. I never felt
him.
I had to get rid of him too fast.
Aloud he said, “I wish I had the boy.”
But
you haven’t got the boy, he thought. You have only
yourself and you had better
work back to the
last line now, in the dark or not in the dark, and
cut it away and hook
up the two reserve coils.
So he did it. It was difficult in the dark and
once the fish made a surge that pulled him
down on his face and made a cut below his eye.
The blood ran down his cheek a little
way. But
it coagulated and dried before it reached his chin
and he worked his way
back to the bow and
rested against the wood. He adjusted the sack and
carefully
worked the line so that it came
across a new part of his shoulders and, holding it
anchored with his shoulders, he carefully felt
the pull of the fish and then felt with his
hand the progress of the skiff through the
water.
I wonder what he made that lurch for,
he thought. The wire must have slipped on the
great hill of his back. Certainly his back
cannot feel as badly as mine does. But he
cannot pull this skiff forever, no matter how
great he is. Now everything is cleared
away
that might make trouble and I have a big reserve
of line; all that a man can ask.
“.Fish,” he
said softly, aloud, “I’ll stay with you until I am
dead”
He’ll stay with me too, I suppose, the
old man thought and he waited for it to be light.
It was cold now in the time before daylight
and he pushed against the wood to be
warm. I
can do it as long as he can, he thought. And in
the first light the line extended
out and down
into the water. The boat moved steadily and when
the first edge of the
sun rose it was on the
old man’s right shoulder.
He’s headed worth,”
the old man said. The current will have set us far
to the eastward,
he thought. I wish he would
turn with the current. That would show that he was
tiring.
When the sun had risen further the old
man realized that the fish was not tiring.
There was only one favorable sign. The slant
of the line showed he was swimming at
a lesser
depth. That did not necessarily mean that he would
jump. But he might.”
“.God let him jump,” the
old man said. “I have enough line to handle him”
Maybe if I can increase the tension
just a little it will hurt him and he will jump,
he
thought. Now that it is daylight let him
jump so that he’ll fill the sacks along his
backbone with air and then he cannot go deep
to die.
He tried to increase the tension, but
the line had been taut up to the very edge of the
breaking point since he had hooked the fish
and he felt the harshness as he leaned
back to
pull and knew he could put no more strain on it. I
must not jerk it ever, he
thought. Each jerk
widens the cut the hook makes and then when he
does jump he
might throw it. Anyway I feel
better with the sun and for once I do not have to
look
into it.
There was yellow weed on the
line but the old man knew that only made an added
drag and he was pleased. It was the yellow
Gulf weed that had made so
much
.phosphorescence in the night.
Fish,” he said,
“I love you and respect you very much. But I will
kill you dead before
this day ends.”
Let
us hope so, he thought.
A small bird came
toward the skiff from the north. He was a warbler
and flying very
low over the water. The old
man could see that he was very tired.
The bird
made the stern of the boat and rested there. Then
he flew around the old
man’s head and rested
on the line where he was more comfortable.
“How old are you?” the old man asked the bird.
“Is this your first trip?”
The bird looked at
him when he spoke. He was too tired even to
examine the line and
he teetered on it as his
delicate feet gripped it fast.
“It’s steady,”
the old man told him. “It’s too steady” You
shouldn’t be that tired after
a windless
night. What are birds coming to?”
The hawks,
he thought, that come out to sea to meet them. But
he said nothing of this
to the bird who could
not understand him anyway and who would learn
about
the .hawks soon enough.
“Take a good
rest, small bird,” he said. “Then go in and take
your chance like any”
“.man or bird or fish.”
It encouraged him to talk because his back had
stiffened in the night and it hurt truly
now.
Stay at my house if you like, bird,” he said.
“I am sorry I cannot hoist the sail and take
you in with the small breeze that is rising.
But I am with a friend.”
Just then the fish
gave a sudden lurch that pulled the old man down
onto the bow and
would have pulled him
overboard if he had not braced himself and given
some lien.
The bird had flown up when
the line jerked and the old man had not even seen
him go.
He felt the line carefully with his
right hand and noticed his hand was bleeding.
“Something hurt him then,” he said aloud and
pulled back on the line to see if he
could
turn the fish. But when he was touching the
breaking point he held steady and
settled back
against the strain of the line.
“You’re
feeling it now, fish,” he said. “And so, God
knows, am I”
He looked around for the bird now
because he would have liked him for
bird was
gone.
You did not stay long, the man thought.
But it is rougher where you are going until
you make the shore. How did I let the fish cut
me with that one quick pull he made? I
must be
getting very stupid. Or perhaps I was looking at
the small bird and thinking of
him. Now I will
pay attention to my work and then I must eat the
tuna so that I will
not have a failure of
strength.
“1 wish the boy were here and that I
had some salt,” he said aloud.
Shifting the
weight of the line to his left shoulder and
kneeling carefully he washed
his hand in the
ocean and held it there, submerged, for more than
a minute watching
the blood trail away and the
steady movement of the water against his hand as
the
boat moved.
“He has slowed much,” he
said.
The old man would have liked to keep his
hand in the salt water longer but he was
afraid of another sudden lurch by the fish and
he stood up and braced himself and held
his
hand up against the sun. It was only a line burn
that had cut his flesh. But it was in
the
working part of his hand. He knew he would need
his hands before this was over
and he did not
like to be cut before it started.
“Now,” he
said, when his hand had dried, “I must eat the
small tuna. I can reach him
with the gaff and
eat him here in comfort.”
He knelt down
and found the tuna under the stem with the gaff
and drew it toward
him keeping it clear of the
coiled lines. Holding the line with his left
shoulder again,
and bracing on his left hand
and arm, he took the tuna off the gaff hook and
put the
gaff back in place. He put one knee on
the fish and cut strips of dark red meat
longitudinally from the back of the head to
the tail. They were wedge-shaped strips
and he
cut them from next to the back bone down to the
edge of the belly. When he
had cut six strips
he spread them out on the wood of the bow, wiped
his knife on his
trousers, and lifted the
carcass of the bonito by the tail and dropped it
overboard.
“I don’t think I can eat an entire
one,” he said and drew his knife across one of the
strips. He could feel the steady hard pull of
the line and his left hand was cramped. It
drew up tight on the heavy cord and he looked
at it in disgust.
“What kind of a hand is
that,” he said. “Cramp then if you want. Make
yourself into a
claw. It will do you no good.”
Come on, he thought and looked down into the
dark water at the slant of the line Eat it
now
and it will strengthen the hand. It is not the
hand’s fault and you have been many
hours with
the fish. But you can stay with him forever. Eat
the bonito now.
He picked up a piece and put
it in his mouth and chewed it slowly. It was not
unpleasant.
Chew it well, he thought, and
get all the juices. It would not be had to eat
with a little
lime or with lemon or with salt.
“How do you feel, hand?” he asked the cramped
hand that was almost as stiff as rigor
mortis.
“I’ll eat some more for you.
He ate the
other part of the piece that he had cut in two, He
chewed it carefully and
then spat out the
skin.
“How does it go, hand? Or is it too
early to know?”
He took another full piece and
chewed it.
It is a strong full-blooded fish,”
he thought. “I was lucky to get him instead of
dolphin.
Dolphin is too sweet. This is hardly
sweet at all and all the strength is still in it.
There is no sense in being anything but
practical though, he thought. I wish I had
some salt. And I do not know whether the sun
will rot or dry what is left, so I had
better
eat it all although I am not hungry. The fish is
calm and steady. I will eat it all
and then I
will be ready.
“Be patient, hand,” he said. “I
do this for you.”
I wish I could feed the
fish, he thought. He is my brother. But I must
kill him and
keep strong to do it. Slowly and
conscientiously he ate all of the wedge-shaped
strips
of fish.
He straightened up, wiping
his hand on his trousers.
“Now,” he said. “You
can let the cord go, hand, and I will handle him
with the right
arm alone until you stop that
nonsense.” He put his left foot on the heavy line
that the
left hand had held and lay back
against the pull against his back.
“God help
me to have the cramp go,” he said. “Because I do
not know what the fish is
going to do.”
But he seems calm, he thought, and following
his plan. But what is his plan, he
thought.
And what is mine? Mine I must improvise to his
because of his great size. If
he will jump I
can kill him. But he stays down forever. Then I
will stay down with
him forever.
He rubbed
the cramped hand against his trousers and tried to
gentle the fingers. But it
would not open.
Maybe it will open with the sun, he thought. Maybe
it will open
when the strong raw tuna is
digested. If I have to have it, I will open it,
cost whatever
it costs. But I do not want to
open it now by force. Let it open by itself and
come back
of its own accord. After all I
abused it much in the night when it was necessary
to free
and untie the various lines.
He
looked across the sea and knew how alone he was
now. But he could see the
prisms in the deep
dark water and the line stretching ahead and the
strange undulation
of the calm. The clouds
were building up now for the trade wind and he
looked ahead
and saw a flight of wild ducks
etching themselves against the sky over the water,
then
blurring, then etching again and he knew
no man was ever alone on the sea. He
thought
of how some men feared being out of sight of land
in a small boar and knew
they were right in
the months of sudden bad weather. But now they
were in hurricane
months and, when
there are no hurricanes, the weather of hurricane
months is the best
of all the year.
If
there is a hurricane you always see the signs of
it in the sky for days ahead, if you
are at
sea. They do not see it ashore because they do not
know what to look for, he
thought. The land
must make a difference too, in the shape of the
clouds. But we have
no hurricane coming now.
He looked at the sky and saw the white cumulus
built like friendly piles of ice cream
and
high above were the thin feathers of the cirrus
against the high September sky.
“Light brisa,”
he said. “Better weather for me than for you,
fish.”
His left hand was still cramped, but he
was unknotting it slowly.
I hate a cramp, he
thought. It is a treachery of one’s own body. It
is humiliating before
others to have a
diarrhea from ptomaine poisoning or to vomit from
it. But a cramp,
he thought of it as a
calambre, humiliates oneself especially when one
is alone.
If the boy were here he could rub it
for me and loosen it down from the forearm, he
thought. But it will loosen up.
Then, with
his right hand he felt the difference in the pull
of the line before he saw the
slant change in
the water. Then, as he leaned against the line and
slapped his left hand
hard and fast against
his thigh he saw the line slanting slowly upward.
“He’s coming up,” he said. “Come on hand.
Please come on.”
The line rose slowly and
steadily and then the surface of the ocean bulged
ahead of
the boat and the fish came out. He
came out unendingly and water poured from his
sides. He was bright in the sun and his head
and back were dark purple and in the sun
the
stripes on his sides showed wide and a light
lavender. His sword was as long as a
baseball
bat and tapered like a rapier and he rose his full
length from the water and
then re-entered it,
smoothly, like a diver and the old man saw the
great scythe-blade
of his tail go under and
the line commenced to race out.
“He is two
feet longer than the skiff,” the old man said. The
line was going out fast
but steadily and the
fish was not panicked. The old man was trying with
both hands to
keep the line just inside of
breaking strength. He knew that if he could not
slow the
fish with a steady pressure the fish
could take out all the line and break it.
He
is a great fish and I must convince him, he
thought. I must never let him learn his
strength nor what he could do if he made his
run. If I were him I would put in
everything
now and go until something broke. But, thank God,
they are not as
intelligent as we who kill
them; although they are more noble and more able.
The old man had seen many great fish. He had
seen many that weighed more than a
thousand
pounds and he had caught two of that size in his
life, but never alone. Now
alone, and out of
sight of land, he was fast to the biggest fish
that he had ever seen
and bigger than
he had ever heard of, and his left hand was still
as tight as the gripped
claws of an eagle.
It will uncramp though, he thought. Surely it
will uncramp to help my right hand.
There are
three things that are brothers: the fish and my
two hands. It must uncramp.
It is unworthy of
it to be cramped. The fish had slowed again and
was going at his
usual pace.
I wonder why
he jumped, the old man thought. He jumped almost
as though to show
me how big he was. I know
now, anyway, he thought. I wish I could show him
what
sort of man I am. But then he would see
the cramped hand. Let him think I am more
man
than I am and I will be so. I wish I was the fish,
he thought, with everything he
has against
only my will and my intelligence.
He settled
comfortably against the wood and took his
suffering as it came and the fish
swam
steadily and the boat moved slowly through the
dark water. There was a small
sea rising with
the wind coming up from the east and at noon the
old man’s left hand
was uncramped.
“Bad
news for you, fish,” he said and shifted the line
over the sacks that covered his
shoulders.
He was comfortable but suffering, although he
did not admit the suffering at all.
“I am not
religious,” he said. “But I will say ten Our [64]
Fathers and ten Hail Marys
that I should catch
this fish, and I promise to make a pilgrimage to
the Virgin of
Cobre if I catch him. That is a
promise.”
He commenced to say his prayers
mechanically. Sometimes he would be so tired that
he could not remember the prayer and then he
would say them fast so that they would
come
automatically. Hail Marys are easier to say than
Our Fathers, he thought.
“Hail Mary full of
Grace the Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou
among women and
blessed is the fruit of thy
womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us
sinners
now and at the hour of our death.
Amen.” Then he added, “Blessed Virgin, pray for
the death of this fish. Wonderful though he
is.”
With his prayers said, and feeling much
better, but suffering exactly as much, and
perhaps a little more, he leaned against the
wood of the bow and began, mechanically,
to
work the fingers of his left hand.
The sun was
hot now although the breeze was rising gently.
“I had better re-bait that little line out
over the stern,” he said. “If the fish decides to
stay another night I will need to eat again
and the water is low in the bottle. I don’t
think. I can get anything but a dolphin here.
But if I eat him fresh enough he won’t be
bad
I wish a flying fish would come on board tonight.
But I have no light to attract
them. A
flying fish is excellent to eat raw and I would
not have to cut him up. I must
save all my
strength now. Christ, I did not know he was so
big.”
“I’ll kill him though,” he said. “In all
his greatness and his glory.”
Although it is
unjust, he thought. But I will show him what a man
can do and what a
man endures.
“1 told the
boy I was a strange old man,” he said. “Now is
when I must prove it.”
The thousand times that
he had proved it meant nothing. Now he was proving
it again.
Each time was a new time and he
never thought about the past when he was doing it.
I wish he’d sleep and I could sleep and dream
about the lions, he thought. Why are the
lions
the main thing that is left? Don’t think, old man,
he said to himself, Rest gently
now against
the wood and think of nothing. He is working. Work
as little as you can.
It was getting into the
afternoon and the boat still moved slowly and
steadily. But
there was an added drag now from
the easterly breeze and the old man rode gently
with the small sea and the hurt of the cord
across his back came to him easily and
smoothly.
Once in the afternoon the line
started to rise again. But the fish only continued
to
swim at a slightly higher level. The sun
was on the old man’s left arm and shoulder
and
on his back. So he knew the fish had turned east
of north.
Now that he had seen him once, he
could picture the fish swimming in the water with
his purple pectoral fins set wide as wings and
the great erect tail slicing through the
dark.
I wonder how much he sees at that depth, the old
man thought. His eye is huge
and a horse, with
much less eye, can see in the dark. Once I could
see quite well in the
dark. Not in the
absolute dark. But almost as a cat sees.
The
sun and his steady movement of his fingers had
uncramped his left hand now
completely and he
began to shift more of the strain to it and he
shrugged the muscles
of his back to shift the
hurt of the cord a little.
“If you’re not
tired, fish,” he said aloud, “you must be very
strange.”
He felt very tired now and he knew
the night would come soon and he tried to think of
other things. He thought of the Big Leagues,
to him they were the Gran Ligas, and he
knew
that the Yankees of New York were playing the
Tigres of Detroit.
This is the second day now
that I do not know the result of the juegos, he
thought. But
I must have confidence and I must
be worthy of the great DiMaggio who does all
things perfectly even with the pain of the
bone spur in his heel. What is a bone spur?
He
asked himself. Un espuela de hueso. We do not have
them. Can it be as painful as
the spur of a
fighting cock in one’s heel? I do not think I
could endure that or the loss
of the eye and
of both eyes and continue to fight as the fighting
cocks do. Man is not
much beside the
great birds and beasts. Still I would rather be
that beast down there in
the darkness of the
sea.
“Unless sharks come,” he said aloud. “If
sharks come, God pity him and me.”
Do you
believe the great DiMaggio would stay with a fish
as long as I will stay with
this one? He
thought. I am sure he would and more since he is
young and strong. Also
his father was a
fisherman. But would the bone spur hurt him too
much?
“I do not know,” he said aloud. “I never
had a bone spur.”
As the sun set he
remembered, to give himself more confidence, the
time in the tavern
at Casablanca when he had
played the hand game with the great negro from
Cienfuegos who was the strongest man on the
docks. They had gone one day and one
night
with their elbows on a chalk line on the table and
their forearms straight up and
their hands
gripped tight. Each one was trying to force the
other’s hand down onto the
table. There was
much betting and people went in and out of the
room under the
kerosene lights and he had
looked at the arm and hand of the negro and at the
negro’s
face. They changed the referees every
four hours after the first eight so that the
referees could sleep. Blood came out from
under the fingernails of both his and the
negro’s hands and they looked each other in
the eye and at their hands and forearms
and
the bettors went in and out of the room and sat on
high chairs against the wall and
watched. The
walls were painted bright blue and were of wood
and the lamps threw
their shadows against
them. The negro’s shadow was huge and it moved on
the wall
as the breeze moved the lamps.
The odds would change back and forth all night
and they fed the negro rum and
lighted
cigarettes for him. Then the negro, after the rum,
would try for a tremendous
effort and once he
had the old man, who was not an old man then but
was Santiago El
Campeon, nearly three inches
off balance. But the old man had raised his hand
up to
dead even again. He was sure then that
he had the negro, who was a fine man and a
great athlete, beaten. And at daylight when
the bettors were asking that it be called a
draw and the referee was shaking his head, he
had unleashed his effort and forced the
hand
of the negro down and down until it rested on the
wood. The match had started
on a Sunday
morning and ended on a Monday morning. Many of the
bettors had
asked for a draw because they had
to go to work on the docks loading sacks of sugar
or at the Havana Coal Company. Otherwise
everyone would have wanted it to go to a
finish. But he had finished it anyway and
before anyone had to go to work.
For a long
time after that everyone had called him The
Champion and there had been
a return match in
the spring. But not much money was bet and he had
won it quite
easily since he had broken the
confidence of the negro from Cienfuegos in the
first
match. After that he had a few matches
and then no more. He decided that he could
beat anyone if he wanted to badly enough and
he decided that it was bad for his right
hand
for fishing. He had tried a few practice matches
with his left hand. But his left
hand
had always been a traitor and would not do what he
called on it to do and he did
not trust it.
The sun will bake it out well now, he thought.
It should not cramp on me again unless
it gets
too cold in the night. I wonder what this night
will bring.
An airplane passed overhead on its
course to Miami and he watched its shadow
scaring up the schools of flying fish.
“With so much flying fish there should be
dolphin,” he said, and leaned back on the
line
to see if it was possible to gain any on his fish.
But he could not and it stayed at
the hardness
and water-drop shivering that preceded breaking.
The boat moved ahead
slowly and he watched the
airplane until he could no longer see it.
It
must be very strange in an airplane, he thought. I
wonder what the sea looks like
from that
height? They should be able to see the fish well
if they do not fly too high. I
would like to
fly very slowly at two hundred fathoms high and
see the fish from above.
In the turtle boats I
was in the cross-trees of the mast-head and even
at that height I
saw much. The dolphin look
greener from there and you can see their stripes
and their
purple spots and you can see all of
the school as they swim. Why is it that all the
fast-
moving fish of the dark current have
purple backs and usually purple stripes or spots?
The ,dolphin looks green of course because he
is really golden. But when he comes to
feed
truly hungry, purple stripes show on his sides as
on a marlin. Can it be anger, or
the greater
speed he makes that brings them out?
Just
before it was dark, as they passed a great island
of Sargasso weed that heaved and
swung in the
light sea as though the ocean were making love
with something under a
yellow blanket, his
small line was taken by a dolphin. He saw it first
when it jumped
in the air, true gold in the
last of the sun and bending and flapping wildly in
the air. It
jumped again and again in the
acrobatics of its fear and he worked his way back
to the
stern and crouching and holding the big
line with his right hand and arm, he pulled the
dolphin in with his left hand, stepping on the
gained line each time with his bare left
foot.
When the fish was at the stem, plunging and
cutting from side to side in
desperation, the
old man leaned over the stern and lifted the
burnished gold fish with
its purple spots over
the stem. Its jaws were working convulsively in
quick bites
against the hook and it pounded
the bottom of the skiff with its long flat body,
its tail
and its head until he clubbed it
across the shining golden head until it shivered
and
was still.
The old man unhooked the
fish, re-baited the line with another sardine and
tossed it
over. Then he worked his way slowly
back to the bow. He washed his left hand and
wiped it on his trousers. Then he shifted the
heavy line from his right hand to his left
and
washed his right hand in the sea while he watched
the sun go into the ocean and
the slant of the
big cord.
“He hasn’t changed at all,” he said.
But watching the movement of the water against
his hand he noted that it was perceptibly
slower.
“I’ll lash the two oars
together across the stern and that will slow him
in the night,”he
said, “He’s good for the
night and so am I.”
It would be better to gut
the dolphin a little later to save the blood in
the meat, he
thought. I can do that a little
later and lash the oars to make a drag at the same
time. I
had better keep the fish quiet now and
not disturb him too much at sunset. The setting
of the sun is a difficult time for all fish.
He let his hand dry in the air then grasped
the line with it and eased himself as much
as
he could and allowed himself to be pulled forward
against the wood so that the boat
took the
strain as much, or more, than he did.
I’m
learning how to do it, he thought. This part of it
anyway. Then too, remember he
hasn’t eaten
since he took the bait and he is huge and needs
much food. I have eaten
the whole bonito.
Tomorrow I will eat the dolphin. He called it
dorado. Perhaps I
should eat some of it when I
clean it. It will be harder to eat than the
bonito. But, then,
nothing is easy.
“How
do you feel, fish?” he asked aloud. “I feel good
and my left hand is better and I
have food for
a night and a day. Pull the boat, fish.”
He
did not truly feel good because the pain from the
cord across his back had almost
passed pain
and gone into a dullness that he mistrusted. But I
have had worse things
than that, he thought.
My hand is only cut a little and the cramp is gone
from the other.
My legs are all right. Also
now I have gained on him in the question of
sustenance.
It was dark now as it becomes dark
quickly after the sun sets in September. He lay
against the worn wood of the bow and rested
all that he could. The first stars were out.
He did not know the name of Rigel but he saw
it and knew soon they would all be out
and he
would have all his distant friends.
“The fish
is my friend too,” he said aloud. “I have never
seen or heard of such a fish.
But I must kill
him. I am glad we do not have to try to kill the
stars.”
Imagine if each day a man must try to
kill the moon, he thought. The moon runs away.
But imagine if a man each day should have to
try to kill the sun? We were born lucky,
he
thought.
Then he was sorry for the great fish
that had nothing to eat and his determination to
kill him never relaxed in his sorrow for him.
How many people will he feed, he
thought. But
are they worthy to eat him? No, of course not.
There is no one worthy of
eating him from the
manner of his behaviour and his great dignity.
I do not understand these things, he thought.
But it is good that we do not have to try
to
kill the sun or the moon or the stars. It is
enough to live on the sea and kill our true
brothers.
Now, he thought, I must
think about the drag. It has its perils and its
merits. I may
lose so much line that I will
lose him, if he makes his effort and the drag made
by the
oars is in place and the boat loses all
her lightness. Her lightness prolongs both our
suffering but it is my safety since he has
great speed that he has never yet employed.
No
matter what passes I must gut the dolphin so he
does not spoil and eat some of him
to be
strong.
Now I will rest an hour more and feel
that he is solid and steady before I move back
to the stern to do the work and make the
decision. In the meantime I can see how he
acts and if he shows any changes. The oars are
a good trick; but it has reached the
time to
play for safety. He is much fish still and I saw
that the hook was in the corner
of his mouth
and he has kept his mouth tight shut. The
punishment of the hook is
nothing. The
punishment of hunger, and that he is against
something that he does not
comprehend, is
.everything. Rest now, old man, and let him work
until your next duty
comes.
He rested for
what he believed to be two hours. The moon did not
rise now until late
and he had no way of
judging the time. Nor was he really resting except
comparatively. He was still bearing the pull
of the fish across his shoulders but he
placed
his left hand on the gunwale of the bow and
confided more and more of the
resistance to
the fish to the skiff itself.
How simple it
would be if I could make the line fast, he
thought. But with one Small
lurch he could
break it. I must cushion the pull of the line with
my body and at all
times be ready to give line
with both hands.
“But you have not slept yet,
old man,” he said aloud. “It is half a day and a
night and
now another day and you have not
slept. You must devise a way so that you sleep a
little if he is quiet and steady. If you do
not sleep you might become unclear in the
head.”
I’m clear enough in the head,” he
thought. Too clear. I am as clear as the stars
that are
my brothers. Still I must sleep. They
sleep and the moon and the sun sleep and even
the ocean sleeps sometimes on certain days
when there is no current and a flat calm.
But
remember to sleep, he thought. Make yourself do it
and devise some simple and
sure way about the
lines. Now go back and prepare the dolphin. It is
too dangerous to
rig the oars as a drag if you
must sleep.
1 could go without sleeping, he
told himself. But it would be too dangerous.
He started to work his way back to the stern
on his hands and knees, being careful not
to
jerk against the fish. He may be half asleep
himself, he thought. But I do not want
him to
rest. He must pull until he dies.
Back in the
stern he turned so that his left hand held the
strain of the line across his
shoulders and
drew his knife from its sheath with his right
hand. The stars were bright
now and he saw the
dolphin clearly and he pushed the blade of his
knife into his head
and drew him out
from under the stern. He put one of his feet on
the fish and slit him
quickly from the vent up
to the tip of his lower jaw. Then he put his knife
down and
gutted him with his right hand,
scooping him clean and pulling the gills clear. He
felt
the maw heavy and slippery in his hands
and he slit it open. There were two flying
fish inside. They were fresh and hard and he
laid them side by side and dropped the
guts
and the gills over the stern. They sank leaving a
trail of phosphorescence in the
water. The
dolphin was cold and a leprous gray-white now in
the starlight and the old
man skinned one side
of him while he held his right foot on the fish’s
head. Then he
turned him over and skinned the
other side and cut each side off from the head
down
to the tail.
He slid the carcass
overboard and looked to see if there was any swirl
in the water.
But there was only the light of
its slow descent. He turned then and placed the
two
flying fish inside the two fillets offish
and putting his knife back in its sheath, he
worked his way slowly back to the bow. His
back was bent with the weight of the line
across it and he carried the fish in his right
hand.
Back in the bow he laid the two fillets
offish out on the wood with the flying fish
beside them. After that he settled the line
across his shoulders in a new place and held
it again with his left hand resting on the
gunwale. Then he leaned over the side and
washed the flying fish in the water, noting
the speed of the water against his hand. His
hand was phosphorescent from skinning the fish
and he watched the flow of the water
against
it The flow was less strong and as he rubbed the
side of his hand against the
planking of the
skiff, particles of phosphorus floated off and
drifted slowly astern.
He is tiring or he is
resting,” the old man said. “Now let me get
through the eating of
this dolphin and get
some rest and a little sleep.”
Under the stars
and with the night colder all the time he ate half
of one of the .dolphin
fillets and one of the
flying fish, gutted and with its head cut off.
“What an excellent fish dolphin is to eat
cooked,” he said. “And what a miserable fish
raw. I will never go in a boat again without
salt or limes.”
If I had brains I would have
splashed water on the bow all day and drying, it
would
have made salt, he thought. But then I
did not hook the dolphin until almost sunset.
Still it was a lack of preparation. But I have
chewed it all well and I am not nauseated.
The
sky was clouding over to the east and one after
another the stars he knew were
gone. It looked
now as though he were moving into a great canyon
of clouds and the
wind had dropped.
“There
will be bad weather in three or four days,” he
said. “But not tonight and not
tomorrow. Rig
now to get some sleep, old man, while the fish is
calm and steady.”
He held the line tight in
his right hand and then pushed his thigh against
his right hand
as he leaned all his weight
against the wood of the bow. Then he passed the
line a
little lower on his shoulders and
braced his left hand on it
My right
hand can hold it as long as it is braced, he
thought If it relaxes in sleep my
left hand
will wake me as the line goes out. It is hard on
the right hand. But he is used
to punishment
Even if I sleep twenty minutes or a half an hour
it is good. He lay
forward cramping himself
against the line with all of his body, putting all
his weight
onto his right band, and he was
asleep.
He did not dream of the lions but
instead of a vast school of porpoises that
stretched
for eight or ten miles and it was in
the time of their mating and they would leap high
into the air and return into the same hole
they had made in the water when they
leaped.
Then he dreamed that he was in the village on
his bed and there was a norther and he
was
very cold and his right arm was asleep because his
head had rested on it instead
of a pillow.
After that he began to dream of the long
yellow beach and he saw the first of the lions
come down onto it in the early dark and then
the other lions came and he rested his
chin on
the wood of the bows where the ship lay anchored
with the evening off-shore
breeze and he
waited to see if there would be more lions and he
was happy.
The moon had been up for a long
time but he slept on and the fish pulled on
steadily
and the boat moved into the tunnel of
clouds.
He woke with the jerk of his right
fist coming up against his face and the line
burning
out through his right hand. He had no
feeling of his left hand but he braked all he
could with his right and the line rushed out.
Finally his left hand found the line and he
leaned back against the line and now it burned
his back and his left hand, and his left
hand
was taking all the strain and cutting badly. He
looked back at the coils of line
and they were
feeding smoothly. Just then the fish jumped making
a great bursting of
the ocean and then a heavy
fall. Then he jumped again and again and the boat
was
going fast although line was still racing
out and the old man was raising the strain to
breaking point and raising it to breaking
point again and again. He had been pulled
down
tight onto the bow and his face was in the cut
slice of dolphin and he could not
move.
This is what we waited for, he thought. So now
let us take it. Make him pay for
the .line, he
thought. Make him pay for it.
He could not see
the fish’s jumps but only heard the breaking of
the ocean and the
heavy splash as he fell. The
speed of the line was cutting his hands badly but
he had
always known this would happen and he
tried to keep the cutting across the calloused
parts and not let the line slip into the palm
nor cut the fingers.
If the boy was here he
would wet the coils of line, he thought. Yes. If
the boy were
here. If the boy were here.
The line went out and out and out but it was
slowing now and he was making the fish
earn
each inch of it. Now he got his head up from the
wood and out of the slice offish
that
his cheek had crushed. Then he was on his knees
and then he rose slowly to his
feet. He was
ceding line but more slowly all he time. He worked
back to where he
could feel with his foot the
coils of line that he could not see. There was
plenty of line
still and now the fish had to
pull the friction of all that new line through the
water.
Yes, he thought. And now he has jumped
more than a dozen times and filled the sacks
along his back with air and he cannot go down
deep to die where I cannot bring him
up. He
will start circling soon and then I must work on
him. I wonder what started
him so suddenly?
Could it have been hunger that made him desperate,
or was he
frightened by something in the
night? Maybe he suddenly felt fear. But he was
such a
calm, strong fish and he seemed so
fearless and so confident. It is strange.
“You
better be fearless and confident yourself, old
man,” he said. “You’re holding
him again but
you cannot get line. But soon he has to circle.”
The old man held him with his left hand and
his shoulders now and stooped down and
scooped
up water in his right hand to get the crushed
dolphin flesh off of his face. He
was afraid
that it might nauseate him and he would vomit and
lose his strength. When
his face was cleaned
he washed his right hand in the water over the
side and then let it
stay in the salt water
while he watched the first light come before the
sunrise. He’s
headed almost east, he thought.
That means he is tired and going with the current.
Soon he will have to circle. Then our true
work begins.
After he judged that his right
hand had been in the water long enough he took it
out
and looked at it.
“It is not bad,” he
said. “And pain does not matter to a man.” He took
hold of the line
carefully so that it did not
fit into any of the fresh line cuts and shifted
his weight so
that he could put his left hand
into the sea on the other .side of the skiff.”
“You did not do so badly for something
worthless,” he said to his left hand. “But there
was a moment when I could not find you.”
Why was I not born with two good hands? he
thought. Perhaps it was my fault in not
training that one properly. But God knows he
has had enough chances to learn. He did
not do
so badly in the night, though, and he has only
cramped once. If he cramps
again let the line
cut him off.
When he thought that he knew that
he was not being clear-headed and he thought he
should chew some more of the dolphin. But I
can’t, he told himself. It is better to be
light-headed than to lose your strength from
nausea. And I know I cannot keep it if I
eat
it since my face was in it. I will keep it for an
emergency until it goes bad. But it is
too
late to try for strength now through nourishment.
You’re stupid, he told himself.
Eat the other
flying fish.
It was there, cleaned and ready,
and he picked it up with his left hand and ate it
chewing the bones carefully and eating all of
it down to the tail.
It has more
nourishment than almost any fish, he thought. At
least the kind of strength
that I need. Now I
have done what I can, he thought. Let him begin to
circle and let
the fight come.
The sun was
rising for the third time since he had put to sea
when the fish started to
circle.
He could
not see by the slant of the line
that the fish
was circling. It was too early for that. He just
felt a faint slackening of the
pressure of the
line and he commenced to pull on it gently with
his right hand. It
tightened, as always, but
just when he reached the point where it would
break, line
began to come in. He slipped his
shoulders and head from under the line and began
to
pull in line steadily and gently. He used
both of his hands in a swinging motion and
tried to do the pulling as much as he could
with his body and his legs. His old legs and
shoulders pivoted with the swinging of the
pulling.
It is a very big circle,” he said.
“But he is circling.”
Then the line would not
come in any more and he held it until he saw the
drops
jumping from it in the sun. Then it
started out and the old man knelt down and let it
go grudgingly back into the dark water.
“He is making the far part of his circle now,”
he said. I must hold all I can, he thought.
The strain will shorten his circle each time.
Perhaps in an hour I will see him. Now I
must
convince him and then I must kill him.
But the
fish kept on circling slowly and the old man was
wet with sweat and tired
deep into his bones
two hours later. But the circles were much shorter
now and from
the way the line slanted he could
tell the fish had risen steadily while he swam.
For an hour the old man had been seeing
black spots before his eyes and the sweat
salted his eyes and salted the cut over his
eye and on his forehead. He was not afraid
of
the black spots. They were normal at the tension
that he was pulling on the line. ,
Twice
though, he had felt faint and dizzy and that had
worried him.
“I could not fail myself and die
on a fish like this,” he said. “Now that I have
him”
coming so beautifully, God help me
endure. I’ll say a hundred Our Fathers and a
hundred Hail Marys. But I cannot say them
now.”
Consider them said, he thought. I’ll say
them later. Just then he felt a sudden banging
and jerking on the line he held with his two
hands. It was sharp and hard-feeling and
heavy.
He is hitting the wire leader with
his spear, he thought. That was bound to come. He
had to do that. It may make him jump though
and I would rather he stayed circling
now. The
jumps were necessary for him to take air. But
after that each one can widen
the opening of
the hook wound and he can throw the hook.
“Don’t jump, fish,” he said. “Don’t jump.”
The fish hit the wire several times more and
each time he shook his head the old man
gave
up a little line.
I must hold his pain where
it is, he thought. Mine does not matter. I can
control mine.
But his pain could drive him
mad.
After a while the fish stopped beating at
the wire and started circling slowly again The
old man was gaining line steadily now. But he
felt faint again. He lifted some sea
water
with his left hand and put it on his head. Then he
put more on and rubbed the
back of his neck.
“I have no cramps,” he said. “He’ll be up soon
and I can last. You have to last. Don’t
even
speak of it.”
He kneeled against the bow and,
for a moment, slipped the line over his back
again.
I’ll rest now while he goes out on the
circle and then stand up and work on him when
he comes in, he decided.
It was a great
temptation to rest in the bow and let the fish
make one circle by himself
without recovering
any line. But when the strain showed the fish had
turned to come
toward the boat, the old man
rose to his feet and started the pivoting and the
weaving
pulling that brought in all the line
he gained.
I’m tired than I have ever been, he
thought, and now the trade wind is rising. But
that
will be good to take him in with. I need
that badly.
“I’ll rest on the next turn as he
goes out,” he said. “I feel much better. Then in
two or
three turns more I will have him.”
His straw hat was far on the back of
his head and he sank down into the bow with the
pull of the line as he felt the fish turn.
You work now, fish, he thought. I’ll take you
at the turn. The sea had risen
considerably.
But it was a fair-weather breeze and he had to
have it to get home.
“I’ll just steer south
and west,” he said. “A man is never lost at sea
and it is a long
island.”
It was on the
third turn that he saw the fish first.
He saw
him first as a dark shadow that took so long to
pass under the boat that he
could not believe
its length.
“.No,” he said. “He can’t be that
big”
But he was that big and at the end of
this circle he came to the surface only thirty
yards away and the man saw his tail out of
water. It was higher than a big scythe
blade
and a very pale lavender above the dark blue
water. It raked back and as the fish
swam just
below the surface the old man could see his huge
bulk and the purple
stripes that banded him.
His dorsal fin was down and his huge pectorals
were spread
wide.
On this circle the old
man could see the fish’s eye and the two gray
sucking fish that
swain around him. Sometimes
they attached themselves to him. Sometimes they
darted off. Sometimes they would swim easily
in his shadow. They were each over
three feet
long and when they swam fast they lashed their
whole bodies like eels.
The old man was
sweating now but from something else besides the
sun. On each
calm placid turn the fish made he
was gaining line and he was sure that in two turns
more he would have a chance to get the harpoon
in.
But I must get him close, close, close, he
thought. I mustn’t try for the head. I must
get the heart. “Be calm and strong, old man,”
he said.
On the next circle the fish’s beck
was out but he was a little too far from the boat.
On
the next circle he was still too far away
but he was higher out of water and the old
man
was sure that by gaining some more line he could
have him alongside.
He had rigged his harpoon
long before and its coil of light rope was in a
round basket
and the end was made fast to the
bitt in the bow.
The fish was coming in on his
circle now calm and beautiful looking and only his
great tail moving. The old man pulled on him
all that he could to bring him closer. For
just a moment the fish turned a little on his
side. Then he straightened himself and
began
another circle.
“I moved him,” the old man
said. “I moved him then.”
He felt faint
again now but he held on the great fish all the
strain that he could. I
moved him, he thought.
Maybe this time I can get him over. Pull, hands,
he thought.
Hold up, legs. Last for me, head.
Last for me. You never went. This time I’ll pull
him
over.
But when he put all of his
effort on, starting it well out before the fish
came alongside
and pulling with all his
strength, the fish pulled part way over and then
righted
himself and swam away.
Fish,” the
old man said. “Fish, you are going to have to die
anyway. Do you have to
kill me too?”
That
way nothing is accomplished, he thought. His mouth
was too dry to speak but he
could not reach
for the water now. I must get him alongside this
time, he thought. I
am not good for many more
turns. Yes you are, he told himself. You’re good
for ever.
On the next turn, he nearly had him.
But again the fish righted himself and swam
slowly away.
You are killing me, fish, the
old man thought. But you have a right to. Never
have
I .seen a greater, or more beautiful, or
a calmer or more noble thing than you,
brother
.Come on and kill me. I do not care who kills who.
Now you are getting confused in the head, he
thought. You must keep your
head .clear. Keep
your head clear and know how to suffer like a man.
Or a fish, he
thought.
“Clear up, head,”
he said in a voice he could hardly hear. “Clear
up.”
Twice more it was the same on the turns.
I do not know, the old man thought. He had
been on the point of feeling himself go
each
time. I do not know. But I will try it once more.
He tried it once more and he felt himself
going when he turned the fish. The fish
righted himself and swam off again slowly with
the great tail weaving in the air.
I’ll try
it again, the old man promised, although his hands
were mushy now and he
could only see well in
flashes.
He tried it again and it was the
same. So he thought, and he felt himself going
before
he started; I will try it once again
He took all his pain and what was left of his
strength and his long gone pride and he
put it
against the fish’s agony and the fish came over
onto his side and swam gently
on his side, his
bill almost touching the planking of the skiff and
started to pass the
boat, long deep, wide,
silver and barred with purple and in-terminable in
the water.
The old man dropped the line
and put his foot on it and lifted the harpoon as
high as
he could and drove it down with all
his strength, and more strength he had just
summoned, into the fish’s side just behind the
great chest fin that rose high in the air
to
the altitude of the man’s chest. He felt the iron
go in and he leaned on it and drove
it further
and then pushed all his weight after it.
Then
the fish came alive, with his death in him, and
rose high out of the water
showing all his
great length and width and all his power and his
beauty. He seemed to
hang in the air above the
old man in the skiff. Then he fell into the water
with a crash
that sent spray over the old man
and over all of the skiff.
The old man felt
faint and sick and he could not see well. But he
cleared the harpoon
line and let it run slowly
through his raw hands and, when he could see, he
saw the
fish was on his back with his silver
belly up. The shaft of the harpoon was projecting
at an angle from the fish’s shoulder and the
sea was discoloring with the red of the
blood
from his heart. First it was dark as a shoal in
the blue water that was more than
a mile deep.
Then it spread like a cloud. The fish was silvery
and still and floated with
the waves.
The
old man looked carefully in the glimpse of vision
that he had. Then he took two
turns of the
harpoon line around the bitt in the bow and hid
his head on his hands.
“Keep my head dear,” he
said against the wood of the bow. “I am a tired
old man. But
I have killed this fish which is
my brother and now I must do the slave work.”
Now I must prepare the nooses and the rope to
lash him alongside, he thought. Even if
we
were two and swamped her to load him and bailed
her out, this skiff would never
hold him. I
must prepare everything, then bring him in and
lash him well and step
the .mast and set sail
for home.
He started to pull the fish in to
have him alongside so that he could pass a line
through
his gills and out his mouth and make
his head fast alongside the bow. I want to see
him, he thought, and to touch and to feel him.
He is my fortune, he thought. But that
is not
why I wish to feel him. I think I felt his heart,
he thought. When I pushed on the
harpoon shaft
the second time. Bring him in now and make him
fast and get the noose
around his tail and
another around his middle to bind him to the
skiff.
“Get to work, old man,” he said. He
took a very small drink of the water. “There is
very much slave work to be done now that the
fight is over.”
He looked up at the sky and
then out to his fish. He looked at the sun
carefully. It is
not much more than noon, he
thought. And the trade wind is rising. The lines
all mean
nothing now. The boy and I will
splice them when we are home.
“Come on, fish,”
he said. But the fish did not come. Instead he lay
there wallowing
now in the seas and the old
man pulled the skiff up onto him.
When
he was even with him and had the fish’s head
against the bow he could not
believe his size.
But he untied the harpoon rope from the bitt,
passed it through the
fish’s gills and out his
jaws, made a turn around his sword then passed the
rope
through the other gill, made another turn
around the bill and knotted the double rope
and made it fast to the bitt in the bow. He
cut the rope then and went astern to noose
the
tail. The fish had turned silver from his original
purple and silver, and the stripes
showed the
same pale violet color as his tail. They were
wider than a man’s hand with
his fingers
spread and the fish’s eye looked as detached as
the mirrors in a periscope
or as a saint in a
procession.
“It was the only way to kill him,”
the old man said. He was feeling better since the
water and he knew he would not go away and his
head was clear. He’s over fifteen
hundred
pounds the way he is, he thought. Maybe much more.
If he dresses out
two-thirds of that at thirty
cents a pound?
“I need a pencil for that,” he
said. “My head is not that clear. But I think the
great
DiMaggio would be proud of me today. I
had no bone spurs. But the hands and the
back
hurt truly.” I wonder what a bone spur is, he
thought. Maybe we have them
without knowing of
it.
He made the fish fast to bow and stern and
to the middle thwart. He was so big it was
like lashing a much bigger skiff alongside. He
cut a piece of line and tied the fish’s
lower
jaw against his bill so his mouth would not open
and they would sail as cleanly
as possible.
Then he stepped the mast and, with the stick that
was his gaff and with his
boom rigged, the
patched sail drew, the boat began to move, and
half lying in the
stern he sailed south-west.
He did not need a compass to tell him where
southwest was. He only needed the feel
of the
trade wind and the drawing of the sail. I better
put a small line out with a spoon
on it and
try and get something to eat and drink for the
moisture. But he could not find
a spoon and
his sardines were rotten. So he hooked a patch of
yellow Gulf weed with
the gaff as they passed
and shook it so that the small shrimps that were
in it fell onto
the planking of the skiff.
There were more than a dozen of them and they
jumped and
kicked like sand fleas. The old man
pinched their heads off with his thumb and
forefinger and ate them chewing up the shells
and the tails. They were very tiny but
he knew
they were nourishing and they tasted good.
The
old man still had two drinks of water in the
bottle and he used half of one after he
had
eaten the shrimps. The skiff was sailing well
considering the handicaps and he
steered with
the tiller under his arm. He could see the fish
and he had only to look at
his hands and feel
his back against the stern to know that this had
truly happened and
was not a dream. At one
time when he was feeling so badly toward the end,
he had
thought perhaps it was a dream. Then
when he had seen the fish come out of the water
and hang motionless in the sky before he fell,
he was sure there was some great
strangeness
and he could not believe it Then he could not see
well, although now he
saw as well as ever.
Now he knew there was the fish and his
hands and back were no dream. The hands
cure
quickly, he thought. I bled them clean and the
salt water will heal them. The dark
water of
the true gulf is the greatest healer that there
is. All I must do is keep the head
clear. The
hands have done their work and we sail well. With
his mouth shut and his
tail straight up and
down we sail like brothers. Then his head started
to become a little
unclear and he thought, is
he bringing me in or am I bringing him in? If I
were towing
him behind there would be no
question. Nor if the fish were in the skiff, with
all
dignity gone, there would be no question
either. But they were sailing together lashed
side by side and the old man thought, let him
bring me in if it pleases him. I am only
better than him through trickery and he meant
me no harm.
They sailed well and the old man
soaked his hands in the salt water and tried to
keep
his head clear. There were high cumulus
clouds and enough cirrus above them so that
the old man knew the breeze would last all
night. The old man looked at the fish
constantly to make sure it was true. It was an
hour before the first shark hit him.
The shark
was not an accident. He had come up from deep down
in the water as the
dark cloud of blood had
settled and dispersed in the mile deep sea. He had
come up so
fast and absolutely without caution
that he broke the surface of the blue water and
was
in the sun. Then he fell back into the sea
and picked up the scent and started
swimming
on the course the skiff and the fish had taken.
Sometimes he lost the scent. But he would pick
it up again, or have just a trace of it,
and
he swam fast and hard on the course. He was a very
big Make shark built to swim
as fast as the
fastest fish in the sea and everything about him
was beautiful except his
jaws. His back was as
blue as a sword fish’s and his belly was silver
and his hide was
smooth and handsome. He was
built as a sword fish except for his huge jaws
which
were tight shut now as he swam fast,
just under the surface with his high dorsal fin
knifing through the water without wavering.
Inside the closed double lip of his jaws
all
of his eight rows of teeth were slanted inwards.
They were not the ordinary
pyramid-shaped
teeth of most sharks. They were shaped like a
man’s fingers when
they are crisped like
claws. They were nearly as long as the fingers of
the old man and
they had razor-sharp cutting
edges on both sides. This was a fish built to feed
on all
the fishes in the sea, that were so
fast and strong and well armed that they had no
other enemy. Now he speeded up as he smelled
the fresher scent and his blue dorsal
fin cut
the water.
When the old man saw him coming he
knew that this was a shark that had no fear at
all and would do exactly what he wished. He
prepared the harpoon and made the rope
fast
while he watched the shark come on. The rope was
short as it lacked what he had
cut away to
lash the fish.
The old man’s head was clear
and good now and he was full of resolution but he
had
little hope. It was too good to last, he
thought. He took one look at the great fish as he
watched the shark close in. It might as well
have been a dream, he thought. I cannot
keep him from hitting me but maybe I
can get him. Dentuso, he thought. Bad luck to
your mother.
The shark closed fast astern
and when he hit the fish the old man saw his mouth
open
and his strange eyes and the clicking
chop of the teeth as he drove forward in the meat
just above the tail. The shark’s head was out
of water and his back was coming out
and the
old man could hear the noise of skin and flesh
ripping on the big fish when he
rammed the
harpoon down onto the shark’s head at a spot where
the line between his
eyes intersected with the
line that ran straight back from his nose. There
were no such,
lines. There was only the heavy
sharp blue head and the big eyes and the clicking
thrusting all-swallowing jaws. But that was
the location of the brain and the old man
hit
it. He hit it with his blood mushed hands driving
a good harpoon with all his
strength. He hit
it without hope but with resolution and complete
malignancy.
The shark swung over and the old
man saw his eye was not alive and then he swung
over once again, wrapping himself in two loops
of the rope. The old man knew that he
was dead
but the shark would not accept it. Then, on his
back, with his tail lashing
and his jaws
clicking, the shark plowed over the water as a
speedboat does. The water
was white where his
tail beat it and three-quarters of his body was
clear above the
water when the rope came taut,
shivered, and then snapped. The shark lay quietly
for
a little while on the surface and the old
man watched him. Then he went down very
slowly.
“He took about forty pounds,” the
old man said aloud. He took my harpoon too and
all the rope, he thought, and now my fish
bleeds again and there will be others.
He did
not like to look at the fish anymore since he had
been mutilated. When the fish
had been hit it
was as though he himself were hit.
But I
killed the shark that hit my fish, he thought. And
he was the biggest dentuso that
I have ever
seen. And God knows that I have seen big ones.
It was too good to last, he thought. I wish it
had been a dream now and that I had
never
hooked the fish and was alone in bed on the
newspapers.
“But man is not made for defeat,”
he said. “A man can be destroyed but not
defeated.”
I am sorry that I killed the fish
though, he thought. Now the bad time is coming and
I
do not even have the harpoon. The dentuso is
cruel and able and strong and intelligent.
But
I was more intelligent than he was. Perhaps not,
he thought. Perhaps I was only
better armed.
“Don’t think, old man,” he said aloud. “Sail
on this course and take it when it comes.”
But
I must think, he thought. Because it is all I have
left. That and baseball. I wonder
how the
great DiMaggio would have liked the way I hit him
in the brain? It was no
great thing, he
thought. Any man could do it. But do you think my
hands were as
great a handicap as the bone
spurs? I cannot know. I never had anything wrong
with
my heel except the time the sting
ray stung it when I stepped on him when swimming
and paralyzed the lower leg and made the
unbearable pain.
“Think about something
cheerful, old man,” he said. “Every minute now you
are
closer to home. You sail lighter for the
loss of forty pounds.”
He knew quite well the
pattern of what could happen when he reached the
inner part
of the current. But there was
nothing to be done now.
“Yes there is,” he
said aloud. “I can lash my knife to the butt of
one of the oars.”
So he did that with the
tiller under his arm and the sheet of the sail
under his foot.
“Now,” he said. “I am still an
old man. But I am not unarmed.”
The breeze was
fresh now and he sailed on well. He watched only
the forward part of
the fish and some of his
hope returned.
It is silly not to hope, he
thought. Besides I believe it is a sin. Do not
think about sin,
he thought. There are enough
problems now without sin. Also I have no
understanding of it.
I have no
understanding of it and I am not sure that I
believe in it. Perhaps it was a sin
to kill
the fish. I suppose it was even though I did it to
keep me alive and feed many
people. But then
everything is a sin. Do not think about sin. It is
much too late for that
and there are people
who are paid to do it. Let them think about it.
You were born to
be a fisherman as the fish
was born to be a fish. San Pedro was a fisherman
as was the
father of the great DiMaggio.
But he liked to think about all things that he
was involved in and since there was
nothing to
read and he did not have a radio, he thought much
and he kept on thinking
about sin. You did not
kill the fish only to keep alive and to sell for
food, he thought.
You killed him for pride and
because you are a fisherman. You loved him when he
was alive and you loved him after. If you love
him, it is not a sin to kill him. Or is it
more?
“You think too much, old man,” he
said aloud.
But you enjoyed killing the
dentuso, he thought. He lives on the live fish as
you do.
He is not a scavenger nor just a
moving appetite as some sharks are. He is
beautiful
and noble and knows no fear of
anything.
“I killed him in self-defense,” the
old man said aloud. “And I killed him well”
Besides,
he thought, everything kills
everything else in some way. Fishing kills me
exactly as it
keeps me alive. The boy keeps me
alive, he thought. I must not deceive myself too
much.
He leaned over the side and pulled
loose a piece of the meat of the fish where the
shark had cut him. He chewed it and noted its
quality and its good taste. It was firm
and juicy, like meat, but it was not
red. There was no stringiness in it and he knew
that it would bring the highest price In the
market. But there was no way to keep its
scent
out of the water and the old man knew that a very
had time was coming.
The breeze was steady. It
had backed a little further into the north-east
and he knew
that meant that it would not fall
off. The old man looked ahead of him but he could
see no sails nor could he see the hull nor the
smoke of any ship. There were only the
flying
fish that went up from his bow sailing away to
either side and the yellow
patches of Gulf
weed. He could not even see a bird.
He had
sailed for two hours, resting in the stern and
sometimes chewing a bit of the
meat from the
marlin, trying to rest and to be strong, when he
saw the first of the two
sharks.
“Ay,” he
said aloud. There is no translation for this word
and perhaps it is just a noise
such as a man
might make, involuntarily, feeling the nail go
through his hands and
into the wood.
“Galanos,” he said aloud. He had seen the
second fin now coming up behind the first
and
had identified them as shovel-nosed sharks by the
brown, triangular fin and the
sweeping
movements of the tail. They had the scent and were
excited and in the
stupidity of their great
hunger they were losing and finding the scent in
their
excitement. But they were closing all
the time.
The old man made the sheet fast and
jammed the tiller. Then he took up the oar with
the knife lashed to it. He lifted it as
lightly as he could because his hands rebelled at
the pain. Then he opened and closed them on it
lightly to loosen them. He closed them
firmly
so they would take the pain now and would not
flinch and watched the sharks
come. He could
see their wide, flattened, shovel-pointed heads
now and their white
tipped wide pectoral fins.
They were hateful sharks, bad smelling, scavengers
as well
as, killers and when they were hungry
they would bite at an oar or the rudder of a boat.
It was these sharks that would cut the
turtles’ legs and flippers off when the turtles
were asleep on the surface, and they would hit
a man in the water, if they were hungry,
even
if the man had no smell offish blood nor offish
slime on him.
“Ay,” the old man said.
“Galanos. Come on galanos.”
They came. But
they did not come as the Mako had come. One turned
and went out of
sight under the skiff and the
old man could feel the skiff shake as he jerked
and pulled
on the fish. The other watched the
old man with his slitted yellow eyes and then came
in fast with his half circle of jaws wide to
hit the fish where he had already been bitten.
The line showed clearly on the top of his
brown head and back where the brain joined
the
spinal cord and the old man drove the knife on the
oar into the juncture, withdrew
it, and drove
it in again into the shark’s yellow cat-like eyes.
The shark let go of the
fish and slid down,
swallowing what he had taken as he died.
The skiff was still shaking with the
destruction the other shark was doing to the fish
and the old man let go the sheet so that the
skiff would swing broadside and bring the
shark out from under. When he saw the shark he
leaned over the side and punched at
him. He
hit only meat and the hide was set hard and he
barely got the knife in. The
blow hurt not
only his hands but his shoulder too. But the shark
came up fast with his
head out and the old man
hit him squarely in the center of his flat-topped
head as his
nose came out of water and lay
against the fish. The old man withdrew the blade
and
punched the shark exactly in the same spot
again. He still hung to the fish with his
jaws
hooked and the old man stabbed him in his left
eye. The shark still hung there.
“No?” the old
man said and he drove the blade between the
vertebrae and the brain. It
was an easy shot
now and he felt the cartilage sever. The old man
reversed the oar and
put the blade between the
shark’s jaws to open them. He twisted the blade
and as the
shark slid loose he said, “Go on,
galano. Slide down a mile deep. Go see your
friend,
or maybe it’s your mother.”
The
old man wiped the blade of his knife and laid down
the oar. Then he found the
sheet and the sail
filled and he brought the skiff onto her course.
“They must have taken a quarter of him and of
the best meat,” he said aloud. “I wish
it were
a dream and that I had never hooked him. I’m sorry
about it, fish. It makes
everything wrong.” He
stopped and he did not want to look at the fish
now. Drained
of blood and awash he looked the
color of the silver backing of a minor and his
stripes
still showed.
“I shouldn’t have
gone out so far, fish,” he said. “Neither for you
nor for me. I’m
sorry, fish.”
Now, he said
to himself. Look to the lashing on the knife and
see if it has been cut.
Then get your hand in
order because there still is more to come.
I
wish I had a stone for the knife,” the old man
said after he had checked the lashing
on the
oar butt. “I should have brought a stone.” You
should have brought many
things he thought.
But you did not bring them, old man. Now is no
time to think of
what you do not have. Think
of what you can do with what there is.
“You
give me much good counsel,” he said aloud. “I’m
tired of it.”
He held the tiller under his
arm and soaked both his hands in the water as the
skiff
drove forward. “God knows how much that
last one took,” he said.
“But she’s much
lighter now.” He did not want to think of the
mutilated under-side of
the fish. He knew that
each of the jerking bumps of the shark had been
meat torn
away and that the fish now made a
trail for all sharks as wide as a highway through
the sea.
He was a fish to keep a man all
winter, he thought Don’t think of that. Just rest
and try
to get your hands in shape to defend
what is left of him. The blood smell from my
hands means nothing now with all that
scent in the water. Besides they do not bleed
much. There is nothing cut that means
anything. The bleeding may keep the left from
cramping.
What can I think of now? he
thought. Nothing. I must think of nothing and wait
for
the next ones. I wish it had really been a
dream, he thought. But who knows? It might
have turned out well.
The next shark that
came was a single shovelnose. He came like a pig
to the trough if
a pig had a mouth so wide
that you could put your head in it. The old man
let him hit
the fish and then drove the knife
on the oar don into his brain. But the shark
jerked
backwards as he rolled and the knife
blade snapped.
The old man settled himself to
steer. He did not even watch the big shark sinking
slowly in the water, showing first life-size,
then small, then tiny. That always
fascinated
the old man. But he did not even watch it now.
I have the gaff now,” he said. “But it will do
no good. I have the two oars and the
tiller
and the short club.”
Now they have beaten me,
he thought. I am too old to club sharks to death.
But I will
try it as long as I have the oars
and the short club and the tiller.
He put his
hands in the water again to soak them. It was
getting late in the afternoon
and he saw
nothing but the sea and the sky. There was more
wind in the sky than
there had been, and soon
he hoped that he would see land.
“You’re
tired, old man,” he said. “You’re tired inside.”
The sharks did not hit him again until just
before sunset.
The old man saw the brown fins
coming along the wide trail the fish must make in
the
water. They were not even quartering on
the scent. They were headed straight for the
skiff swimming side by side.
He jammed the
tiller, made the sheet fast and reached under the
stem for the club. It
was an oar handle from a
broken oar sawed off to about two and a half feet
in length.
He could only use it effectively
with one hand because of the grip of the handle
and
he took good hold of it with his right
hand, flexing his hand on it, as he watched the
sharks come. They were both galanos.
I
must let the first one get a good hold and hit him
on the point of the nose or straight
across
the top of the head, he thought.
The two
sharks closed together and as he saw the one
nearest him open his jaws and
sink them into
the silver side of the fish, he raised the club
high and brought it down
heavy and slamming
onto the top of the shark’s broad head. He felt
the rubbery
solidity as the club came down.
But he felt the rigidity of bone too and he struck
the
shark once more hard across the point of
the nose as he slid down from the fish.
The other shark had been in and out and
now came in again with his jaws wide. The
old
man could see pieces of the meat of the fish
spilling white from the corner of his
jaws as
he bumped the fish and closed his jaws. He swung
at him and hit only the
head and the shark
looked at him and wrenched the meat loose. The old
man swung
the club down on him again as he
slipped away to swallow and hit only the heavy
solid rubberiness.
“Come on, galano,” the
old man said. “Come in again.”
The shark came
in a rush and the old man hit him as he shut his
jaws. He hit him
solidly and from as high up
as he could raise the club. This time he felt the
bone at the
base of the brain and he hit him
again in the same place while the shark tore the
meat .loose sluggishly and slid down from the
fish
The old man watched for him to come again
but neither shark showed. Then he saw
one on
the surface swimming in circles. He did not see
the fin of the other.
I could not expect to
kill them, he thought. I could have in my time.
But I have hurt
them both badly and neither
one can feel very good. If I could have used a bat
with
two hands I could have killed the first
one surely. Even now, he thought.
He did not
want to look at the fish. He knew that half of him
had been destroyed. The
sun had gone down
while he had been in the fight with the sharks.
It will be dark soon,” he said. “Then I should
see the glow of Havana. If I am too far
to the
eastward I will see the lights of one of the new
beaches.”
I cannot be too far out now, he
thought. I hope no one has been too worried. There
is
only the boy to worry, of course. But I am
sure he would have confidence. Many of
the
older fishermen will worry. Many others too, he
thought. I live in a good town.
He could not
talk to the fish anymore because the fish had been
ruined too badly.
Then something came into his
head.
“Half fish,” he said. “Fish that you
were. I am sorry that I went too far out. I ruined
us
both. But we have killed many sharks, you
and I, and ruined many others. How many
did
you ever kill, old fish? You do not have that
spear on your head for nothing.”
He liked to
think of the fish and what he could do to a shark
if he were swimming free.
I should have
chopped the bill off to fight them with, he
thought. But there was no
hatchet and then
there was no knife.
But if I had, and could
have lashed it to an oar butt, what a weapon. Then
we might
have fought them together. What will
you do now if they come in the night? What can
you?
“Fight them,” he said. “I’ll fight
them until I die.”
But in the dark now
and no glow showing and no lights and only the
wind and the
steady pull of the sail he felt
that perhaps he was already dead. He put his two
hands
together and felt the palms. They were
not dead and he could bring the pain of life by
simply opening and closing them. He leaned his
back against the stern and knew he
was not
dead. His shoulders told him.
I have all those
prayers I promised if I caught the fish, he
thought. But I am too tired
to say them now. I
better get the sack and put it over my shoulders.
He lay in the stern and steered and watched
for the glow to come in the sky. I have
half
of him, he thought. Maybe I’ll have the luck to
bring the forward half in. I
should .have some
luck. No, he said. You violated your luck when you
went too far
outside.
“Don’t be silly,” he
said aloud. “And keep awake and steer. You may
have much luck
yet.
“I’d like to buy some
if there’s any place they sell it,” he said.
What could I buy it with? He asked himself.
Could I buy it with a lost harpoon and a
broken knife and two bad hands?
“You
might,” he said. “You tried to buy it with eighty-
four days at sea. They nearly
sold it to you
too.”
I must not think nonsense, he thought.
Luck is a thing that comes in many forms and
who can recognize her? I would take some
though in any form and pay what they
asked. I
wish I could see the glow from the lights, he
thought. I wish too many things.
But that is
the thing I wish for now. He tried to settle more
comfortably to steer and
from his pain he knew
he was not dead.
He saw the reflected glare of
the lights of the city at what must have been
around ten
o’clock at night. They were only
perceptible at first as the light is in the sky
before the
moon rises. Then they were steady
to see across the ocean which was rough now with
the increasing breeze. He steered inside of
the glow and he thought that now, soon, he
must hit the edge of the stream.
Now it is
over, he thought. They will probably hit me again.
But what can a man do
against them in the dark
without a weapon?
He was stiff and sore now
and his wounds and all of the strained parts of
his body hurt
with the cold of the night. I
hope I do not have to fight again, he thought. I
hope so
much I do not have to fight again.
But by midnight he fought and this time he
knew the fight was useless. They came in
a
pack and he could only see the lines in the water
that their fins made and their
phosphorescence
as they threw themselves on the fish. He clubbed
at heads and heard
the jaws chop and the
shaking of the skiff as they took hold below. He
clubbed
desperately at what he could
only feel and hear and he felt something seize the
club
and it was gone.
He jerked the tiller
free from the rudder and beat and chopped with it,
holding it in
both hands and driving it down
again and again. But they were up to the bow now
and
driving in one after the other and
together, tearing off the pieces of meat that
showed
glowing below the sea as they turned to
come once more.
One came, finally, against the
head itself and he knew that it was over. He swung
the
tiller across the shark’s head where the
jaws were caught in the heaviness of the fish’s
head which would not tear. He swung it once
and twice and again. He heard the tiller
break
and he lunged at the shark with the splintered
butt. He felt it go in and knowing
it was
sharp he drove it in again. The shark let go and
rolled away. That was the last
shark of the
pack that came. There was nothing more for them to
eat.
The old man could hardly breathe now and
he felt a strange taste in his mouth. It was
coppery and sweet and he was afraid of it for
a moment. But there was not much of it.
He
spat into the ocean and said, “Eat that, galanos.
And make a dream you’ve killed a
man.”
He
knew he was beaten now finally and without remedy
and he went back to the stern
and found the
jagged end of the tiller would fit in the slot of
the rudder well enough
for him to steer. He
settled the sack around his shoulders and put the
skiff on her
course. He sailed lightly now and
he had no thoughts nor any feelings of any kind.
He
was past everything now and he sailed the
skiff to make his home port as well and as
intelligently as he could. In the night sharks
hit the carcass as someone might pick up
crumbs from the table. The old man paid no
attention to them and did not pay any
attention to anything except steering. He only
noticed how lightly and bow well the
skiff
sailed now there was no great weight beside her.
She’s good, he thought. She is sound and not
harmed in any way except for the tiller.
That
is easily replaced.
He could feel he was
inside the current now and he could see the lights
of the beach
colonies along the shore. He knew
where he was now and it .was nothing to get home.
The wind is our friend, anyway, he thought.
Then he added, sometimes. And the great
sea
with our friends and our enemies. And bed, he
thought. Bed is my friend. Just bed,
he
thought. Bed will be a great thing. It is easy
when you are beaten, he thought. I
never knew
how easy it was. And what beat you, he thought.
“Nothing,” he said aloud. “I went out too
far.”
When he sailed into the little harbor
the lights of the Terrace were out and he knew
everyone was in bed. The breeze had risen
steadily and was blowing strongly now. It
was
quiet in the harbor though and he sailed up onto
the little patch of shingle below
the
rocks. There was no one to help him so he pulled
the boat up as far as he could.
Then he
stepped out and made her fast to a rock.
He
unstepped the mast and furled the sail and tied
it. Then he shouldered the mast and
started to
climb. It was then he knew the depth of his
tiredness. He stopped for a
moment and looked
back and saw in the reflection from the street
light the great tail
of the fish standing up
well behind the skiffs stern. He saw the white
naked line of his
backbone and the dark mass
of the head with the projecting bill and all the
nakedness
between.
He started to climb
again and at the top he fell and lay for some time
with the mast
across his shoulder. He tried to
get up. But it was too difficult and he sat there
with
the mast on his shoulder and looked at
the road. A cat passed on the far side going
about its business and the old man watched it.
Then he just watched the road.
Finally he put
the mast down and stood up. He picked the mast up
and put it on his
shoulder and started up the
road. He had to sit down five times before he
reached his
shack.
Inside the shack he
leaned the mast against the wall. In the dark he
found a water
bottle and took a drink. Then he
lay down on the bed. He pulled the blanket over
his
shoulders and then over his back and legs
and he slept face down on the newspapers
with
his arms out straight and the palms of his hands
up.
He was asleep when the boy looked in the
door in the morning. It was blowing so
hard
that the drifting-boats would not be going out and
the boy had slept late and then
come to the
old man’s shack as he had come each morning. The
boy saw that the old
man was breathing and
then he saw the old man’s hands and he started to
cry. He
went out very quietly to go to bring
some coffee and all the way down the road he was
crying.
Many fishermen were around the
skiff looking at what was lashed beside it and one
was in the water, his trousers rolled up,
measuring the skeleton with a length of line.
The boy did not go down. He had been there
before and one of the fishermen was
looking
after the skiff for him.
“How is he?” one of
the fishermen shouted.
“Sleeping,” the boy
called. He did not care that they saw him crying.
“Let no one
disturb him.” “He was eighteen
feet from nose to tail,” the fisherman who was
measuring him called.
“1 believe it,” the
boy said.
He went into the Terrace and asked
for a can of coffee.
“Hot and with plenty of
milk and sugar in it.”
“Anything more?”
“No. Afterwards I will see what he can eat.”
“What a fish it was,” the proprietor said.
“There has never been such a fish. Those”
were
two fine fish you took yesterday too.”
“Damn
my fish,” the boy said and he started to cry
again.
“Do you want a drink of any kind?” the
proprietor asked.
“.No,” the boy said. “Tell
them not to bother Santiago. I’ll be back.”
“Tell him how sorry I am.”
“Thanks,” the
boy said.
The boy carried the hot can of
coffee up to the old man’s shack and sat by him
until
he woke. Once it looked as though he
were waking. But he had gone back into heavy
sleep and the boy had gone across the road to
borrow some wood to heat the coffee.
Finally
the old man woke.
“Don’t sit up,” the boy
said. “Drink this.”
He poured some of the
coffee in a glass.
The old man took it and
drank it.
“They beat me, Manolin,” he said.
“They truly beat me.”
“He didn’t beat you. Not
the fish.”
“No. Truly. It was afterwards.”
“Pedrico is looking after the skiff and the
gear. What do you want done with the
head?”
“Let Pedrico chop it up to use in fish traps.”
“And the spear?”
“You keep it if you want
it.”
“I want it,” the boy said. “Now we must
make our plans about the other things.”
“Did
they search for me?”
“Of course. With coast
guard and with planes.”
“The ocean is very big
and a skiff is small and hard to see,” the old man
said. He
noticed how pleasant it was to have
someone to talk to instead of speaking only to
himself and to the sea. “I missed you,” he
said. “What did you catch?”
“One the
first day. One the second and two the third.”
“Very good.”
“Now we fish together again.”
“No. I am not lucky. I am not lucky anymore.”
“The hell with luck,” the boy said. “I’ll
bring the luck with me.”
“What will your
family say?”
“I do not care. I caught two
yesterday. But we will fish together now for I
still have
much to learn.”
“We must get a
good killing lance and always have it on board.
You can make the
blade from a spring leaf from
an old Ford. We can grind it in Guanabacoa. It
should
be sharp and not tempered so it will
break. My knife broke.”
“I’ll get another
knife and have the spring ground. How many days of
heavy brisa
have we?
“Maybe three. Maybe
more.”
“I will have everything in order,” the
boy said. “You get your hands well old man.”
I
know how to care for them. In the night I spat
something strange and felt something
in my
chest was broken.”
“Get that well too,” the
boy said. “Lie down, old man, and I will bring you
your clean
shirt. And something to eat.”
“Bring any of the papers of the time that I
was gone,” the old man said.
“You must get
well fast for there is much that I can learn and
you can teach me
everything. How much did you
suffer?”
“Plenty,” the old man said
I’ll
bring the food and the papers,” the boy said.
“Rest well, old man. I will bring stuff
from
the drugstore.”
“Don’t forget to tell Pedrico
the head is his.”
“No. I will remember.”
As the boy went out the door and down the worn
coral rock road he was crying again.
That
afternoon there was a party of tourists at the
Terrace and looking down in the
water among
the empty beer cans and dead barracudas a woman
saw a great long
white spine with a
huge tail at the end that lifted and swung with
the tide while the
east wind blew a heavy
steady sea outside the entrance to the harbor.
What’s that?” she asked a waiter and pointed
to the long backbone of the great fish
that
was now just garbage waiting to go out with the
tide.
“Tiburon,” the waiter said. “Shark.” He
was meaning to explain what had happened.
“I
didn’t know sharks had such handsome, beautifully
formed tails.”
“1 didn’t either,” her male
companion said.
Up the road, in his shack, the
old man was sleeping again. He was still sleeping
on his
face and the boy was sitting by him
watching him. The old man was dreaming about
the lions.